I need pills. I need to smoke. I need to cut.
Where can I get pills? Where can I find cigarettes when I’m not the age to buy it.
I need pills. I need to smoke. I need to cut.
Where can I get pills? Where can I find cigarettes when I’m not the age to buy it.
I’m sure people here can relate, so here it goes.
Who are you going to be today? Or, if that doesn’t fit you..try.. Who did you wake up as today?
I believe it’s natural to take a different approach every day to how we go about thinking, doing, talking, etc. Its even more useful when trying to improve situations from previous days (or the previous day)
Sometimes we have to be the more sensitive listener, when maybe the day before we might not have been so.
Or maybe it would be valuable to have a stern approach with people, knowing that some people like to walk […]
I honestly don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I have a great family, several friends -an average life.
So why do I feel this bad about my life? Why do I think about suicide so many times a day? I’ve even planned my ‘dream suicide’.
I read everywhere about depresssion and the advice seems to be to talk to people about it. But I’m too shy to go to a doctor and too embaressed to tell my family or friends. They wouldn’t take me seriously anyway, they wouldn’t understand why I have such a want to die. I don’t even understand.
I’ve heard very few […]
P.U.S.H. Pray until something happens and Mariam when that time comes remember I will never say no to you …because I realy do love and care for you. And I wish you were my fairy tail love story ..But God Has plans for you and me .maybe in another life or this one Lord I give you everything with my hands lifted high asking You Lord for help I need you and I give my self fully to You Lord
i live a world full of seclusion. nobody likes me, nobody gives a damn whether i live or die so what the hell do i really stay here for? ive never met expectations by my parents or really anyone for that matter, im ugly as all hell nobody bothers to ever try talking to me because nobody understands me, my live is just a gaint pile of depression, pain, and suffering. i go through each day thinking of the best ways of ending it so that i can rid of this horrible life. im sick of this i feel like im trapped in a world […]
can anyone give me some insight on cutting? ive wanted to for some time now i just want to see how it is before i jump into it
I am new here, both the website and the desire to end it. I am a seventeen year old male in the 12th grade. I have read many of the stories and thought it best if my story is out there somewhere, for when I am gone(even if no one I know reads it).
I have had a great life, that makes the feelings I have more confusing, both to me and the doctors. I move a lot and have little amounts of friends, but I am ok with that. I am very smart, especially in mathematics.
My life started its bitter collapse in May […]
So I have this plan to move away without warning anyone and just live a new life for a little while. I’m 18 right now, I graduated in June but I’m still living at home and going to a community college nearby. I can not stand my parents, but I tolerate them because they provide me with a home and food. I’ve never been a typical rebellious teenager, I’ve always been a really “good girl.†I got really good grades in high school, I don’t drink or smoke or do drugs, I had a lot of friends in high school, I played sports, teachers and […]
I was just going through my deviantart account and saw that my recent (or like 5 days) ex had a new picture he drew posted. I checked it out, told him I liked it…then I went through some of his old pictures…and came across all of the pictures drawn of me and him…all the moments he caught with his art…they’re beautiful…I started crying a little bit…it’s so…goddamn…painful…I need to go cut now…
Hey everyone,
It’s been a while since I’ve posted here and I thought that I would come on and see how people are doing. Things are going pretty good in my life overall, but it does get pretty stressful at times.
I’ve met a new girl and things are going good so far. I hope things finally work out this time. I hate getting my heart broken.
How is everyone feeling tonight?
My mother asked me to come out and help her while her husband is dying. When I was young my mother worked and left us kids to fend for ourselves. Three out of five wound up be sexually abused by neighbors. Then she divorced my father. Neither of them wanted the children. I was 17 and left to fend for myself. My mother moved across the country and I see her maybe every other year for a couple of days. Now after years of therapy I feel that even though she has not been there for me, I will be there for her. I […]
I haven’t been on in a while… Two months? Three? I don’t know. I meant to come on a few weeks ago, but for some reason I just didn’t.
We’ve begun exams in school now. This is my time to panic. I can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t concentrate. How on earth am I supposed to revise?
An exam is due in Tuesday. We’ve had two weeks to do it. 750 words… Â I’ve done 50.
I just can’t deal with the pressure from school on top of the fucked-up state my mind is in right now.
I’ve already had too many relapses to count – and I think tonight […]
I’m not the type of kid who needs to be hospitalized…
I don’t cut that deep, but I am still hurting. I’m that awkward medium with self harm; I do it & do it a decent amount, but I am not covered in cuts… That doesn’t mean I deserve any less attention.
Will I ever kill myself? I honestly don’t know. But that doesn’t mean things shouldn’t be done in preventing it..
Thats exactly how I feel. Almost all of the time. I have a wonderful wife, a wonderful son. But sometimes things are just so fucked up, and me and my wife get into arguments…and say hurtful things to each other. I dont mean what I say, and I know she doesnt, were just both angry at the time. But still, we argue.
We view things differently. Always have. And I know I dont fully understand her way of thinking and she doesnt understand mine. But we cant seem to find a mid point for us.
Im not saying we fight all the time…90% of our marriage is […]
One thing i have come to realize from all my tries is that just because i want something, i am not going to get it. my very wanting stops me, my very wanting defeats me in the end. i slowly slowly get agonized from my lowly state. one day it gets too much and i get a burst of thought where i formulate a whole plan to get out. i start working according to the plan and start getting some success. agony starts ending and i no longer suffer in the same way. i realize this plan could only work when i am already in […]
I have given up on this existence, but not on existing itself.
I do not know what comes next, I can only speculate.
Perhaps, you go simply wherever you believe you’ll go. Perhaps you become a ghost for some time. Perhaps you ascend into a different reality. Perhaps you merge with the light.All seems good to me.
My action is a terribly selfish one. But one cannot live on parental love alone.
Had a child. He suffers 1 year in the ICU and constantly in pain.
Painful to breathe, eat and even to take a crap. Basically painful to be alive. Yet he fights.
Everything points to God and the gods out there. They are just screwing with me. Hurting me where it hurts most.
Wife sad and keeps asking all the W’s that I have no answers to/
Baby wont live long. He goes to near death on a monthly basis. I revive him.
He fights. I am dieing inside by his side. He cries when we cry.
His case is a anomaly. No defect in genetics or any sort. A medical […]
Its 4 in the morning and I am crying. I cant stop. Its been so long since I have cried. Im only crying because this wasn’t how it was supposed to happen. This was not how things were supposed to work out. This isnt how my life should of happened.
I fought with my boyfriend… He’s the one who starts the problem. It’s always him. But I made it by continuing.. I’m upset.. So is he. I’m trying to chill and I am. But now he doesn’t seems all right.. Should I talk to him? Should I?… If I should.. What should I say? A apology? That wouldn’t be enough would it?… Please help me.. Please.. Should I talk to him. If yes, tell me what to say to him.. I feel so worthless. So useless. He ask me to go, go and find some other guy. I don’t wish to. I don’t want to. […]
What do you do when you have no friends?… What do you do when you just have no one around.. By your side?.. What do you do when all you can do is keep everything to yourself and when the feelings are being collected , hatred starts to grow. You hate yourself. You hate everyone around you. Â And you just feel like dying….. What do you do.. When you have a boyfriend whom you thought you could share your problems with. Who thought he wouldn’t leave you hanging. Who thought he would always be by your side… Who.. I thought… My boyfriend is all I […]
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