You can tell me your whole story below, explain why you’re not happy, why you are happy, anything.

ive gone for so long without slicing my skin. but the feeling of want has come yet again. i stare at the metal for hours on end. I dont want to smile. I cannot pretend. I swear the sadness is eating my soul. ive been made empty. no longer whole. ive gone for so long without slicing my skin. the feeling of want has come yet again..how long until i relapse again… (Psycho)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gH2efAcmBQM

Maybe I should cry for help, maybe I should kill myself…

This is my first post and I’m ready for oblivion. My name’s Rob & I’m 42 and I’ve always known that I would commit suicide. My life sucks. My wife wants a divorce and I understand. I’m totally fucked up! We’ve been married for 18 yrs. and I’ve spiraled out of control in the last 5. Prescription drugs have been a monkey on my back for a long time. I use the pills to try to feel alive, without them, there’s nothing but a hole where others have happiness or at least contentment. I come by my on little flavor of insanity honestly, my father […]

This is kind of random so bear with me.

The thought came to me the other day that every time we think about killing ourselves that we are in fact killing a part of ourselves. Every imagined attempt, every longing not to be here on this earth, I think it’s slowly killing our hope, our chance at  joy, and our soul. I know we are all hurting or we wouldn’t be on this website and yet I feel we are here to look for hope, to openly express our brokenness without fear of being rejected, to draw the poison out of our systems. The desire to […]

Recently my house that I’ve lived in for my entire life has burned down and my family has moved multiple times since from house to house never actually settling down again. My parents got divorced soon after and I learned that it was because of an affair my mother had had with my soon to be stepdad not to mention I live almost completely full time with my mother so I see the man that ruined my parents relationship on almost a daily basis. I’ve read through a lot of posts and thought it was time to tell mine no matter how insignificant it might […]

A child
on the shore
combs for sand dollars and snails
empty houses of stone
from the remains of oysters and urchins
where once resided
scallop and starfish
mollusk and whelk
holding a conch to his ear
hears the empty conversation
from what once was inside.

Eagerly approaching the shore empty
on the tides for decades
they float along waves for miles
until they land upon the beach
and become buried
to be collected in pails
where hollowed things
can be pondered
with naïve curiosity
by the child.

And if he looks out to sea
from high posts
on mountains
and skyscrapers
he can see too the […]

(I think this is another form of throwing up)

I grew up in a family that seemed okay financially.  It would have been better

but my father liked guns.  He spent a lot of money on guns and rifles.  We

were mostly taken care of, but we always had less than other kids at my school.

I was a shy kid, and played video games.  My dad played a huge role in

my shyness; he ruled my home with fear.  A huge paddle from his college was

used for disciple in our home.  (or he would just yell at me for little things)

I’m not against spankings for children, but it was […]

If ignorance is bliss, I’m it’s antithesis.

So I was trolling the interent minding my own business when I saw this on reddit.

All I could think was, I found Dawg!!! haha.

I hope your well Dawg. 🙂

For most people this post will make no sense but that’s ok. One for the golden oldies.

<3 u sp

To much of my dismay the EXIT BAG failed … sighhh i had the perfect set-up too. a large cylinder of  Balloon Time Helium 3 feet of tubing im reading many failed attempts on here also. i think ill try it again tomorrow but tonight i think ill just sleep. Any other failed attempts around here?

Each day, someone tells me to think positive. They say I am supposed to magically find love for myself. How am I supposed to find a way to love myself when all I ever hear about is how I need to be prettier and skinnier and my hair needs to be longer and I need to be smarter… It’s damn near impossible to just make myself love myself when all I hear is how many flaws I have and how much is wrong with me. I’m sick of living day by day trying to be who everyone else wants me to be. I tear myself […]

I was pondering the effiacy stats on suicides. I think people just say ‘na that doesn’t work’ or ‘no you’ll live’ because they don’t want to have to talk to someone who is in pain. My point is that even in all my years in the medical field(admin) and in my personal life I have known of more people far and away who committed suicide as opposed to needing sugery for there half blow off face(albeit we did have a few of these)

This message brought to you by a world who wants to you live but won’t be the one to help you

lol i didn’t know i was so special that no one can relate to me.  i’m only joking.

wish i could post on facebook that i want to kill myself lol.  but they get too mad.  theyre all scared to die.

I’m gonna put a hole in my T.V. set
I don’t wanna grow up
Open up the medicine chest
I don’t wanna grow up

I’d rather stay here in my room
Nothin’ out there but sad and gloom
I don’t wanna live in a big old tomb on grand street

When I see the 5 o’clock news
I don’t wanna grow up
Comb their hair and shine their shoes
I don’t wanna grow up

Stay around in my old hometown
I don’t wanna put no money down
I don’t wanna get a big old loan
Work them fingers to the bone

People are selfish bastards.  They say all these things and think they’re such good people, but when you need help or just a sympathetic ear to listen, they’re conveniently “busy” and have no time for you.  But god forbid a minor thing happen to them and THEY expect YOU to bend over backwards for them.

People are a joke.  There’s no one decent left.  At least none I know. 

lol i invited an old friend to play mmo with me and now i have trouble being her friend in the game.  fuck i’m too drpressed to play lol.   and i’m always drinking any chance i get.   man i suck.   so id rather drink than play with her.  so i’m neglectful.  she has no idea i want to end it all.  shes too nice for that kind of talk.

i  play mmo with my friend, but i’m always too drunk too play with her,  not good.  i feel like the worst person ever.  she relies on me.  anyone understand that?

really simple,  no story just want to die, i hate my life,  no courage to kill myself though.