Starting to care less about what p eople think of me. I don’t know what to write my thoughts are so jumbled I want to write though. I need to get my thoughts out. so basically I am wasting my life I am too Pathetic to push myself, I have no current interest in looking for a new job, there’s no way I’m going to be able to go back to school in the fall, I don’t like the idea of being the oldest one there, I really dont. So I’m not gonna do it . I really don’t give a shit about not graduating, […]
Same old boring bad background like everyone else:
-My sister died when I was younger, and I still feel like it was my fault that she died.
-My parents split
-Living in poverty since then
– Haven’t lived in the same house for over a year in like 6 years, Â eviction has met us more than once
-Don’t have anyone to trust
This year was the first time I really started to think about suicide seriously.  I was talking to the school psychologist about it and all she did was question me, “Do you have a plan?”, “What steps would you take?”.  Then she made me call a hotline and I for […]
The girl that’s been my bestfriend for 4 years is now talking to my rapist. She’s the one that told me he could burn in hell…and now they’re talking. I don’t even think I can begin to explain how I feel. I feel betrayed…I feel like I can’t have any friends. Her and another girl were pretty much the only people I trusted..now she’s talking to him and the other one is talking to the guy that calls me awful names.
Where’s my justice…where’s my hope.
Where the fuck is karma?
your so fucking selfsih. i hate you so much. how unfortunate that you are in all of my classes you fat rat. all the harm you have done will come back to you. karma is a *****.
From a time before I could remember, I’ve been tormented. At home, my father would abuse me -not physically, but emotionally and verbally. But that hurt more than the real abuse my step-mother would give me on a near-daily basis. I was moved from the front of the front of my family’s love, to the basement of our new house, while my stepsister got a real bedroom, with a heater, with a real floor, a real bed, and a window.
Every day I woke up to objects being thrown at me because my new sister didn’t want to touch me -afraid she would catch what I […]
It seems like everyone who didn’t previously hate me now is mad at me. I’m standing on a building a fly could topple and here comes an eagle. Tomorrow everything will get worse, plus there will be the addition of having no opportunity to fix it because of my, now expected to be stressful, vacation.
1. Why can’t anyone accept ME?!
I REALLY tried to PLEASE all of you!
2. Why won’t they BELIEVE me?!
I didn’t do the stuff they say I DID!
3. Why does everyone leave me?!
Everyone is gone, A PART OF my inspiration was recently hit by a police car on THE interstate […]
To be honest I don’t know why I’m here… I just want a place to write down what I feel, without someone judging me or calling me an attention seeker, I’m not looking for someone to pity me or anything like that. I just want to express my self.
Every week of every day and every minute and every second I feel like I should die! I have never experienced true love or true friendship, but what I know is that I feel so lonely and sad that I cry every night! I don’t know why I haven’t killed myself already to be honest… Every day I think up […]
I’ve struggled with major depression for several years. The time between feeling some level of normal and giving anything for death to free me from this is getting shorter and shorter. In November, I argued with my shrink and therapist that this is my life, and to not allow me from release from the pain was unethical. After when animals suffer, they are put down. No one else knows how depressed I really am. I mask it very well- I go through the motions of a life while feeling nothing but wanting to be dead. If this […]
As many of you know I went to my first therapy session today… it was amazing. I was diagnosed with anxiety, possibly bipolar, and possibly depression. Within 45 minutes this therapist understood me well enough to make this diagnosis. This is because I was completely honest which is what I advise everyone to do when getting help. It is the greatest relief and just knowing what is wrong makes me so much happier. Help is definitely scary, but if you find the right kind of help as I did, it is so worth it. I wish you all the best on your journey as I […]
each morning and evening my thoughts are seized in belief that by finding a reason you became so decieving this pain will ease,and the pressure on my chest relieved making it easier to breathe which is necessary for all human beings
However all the countless calls the miles Ive walked staring up and down the walls have taught me to not expect you to catch my falls but yet you stand beside and watch me crawl
a tiny hole in my heart begins to tear bringing back minutes, moments and memories of dispair. There were times I had nowhere to go and still you left me there […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciYk-UwqFKA
take some time to watch this video. No matter how bad you think you have it someone probably has it way worse than you. Life is a gift, its so special we cant even understand it. We try to figure out everything but why we live such a short life, what we have here now is special. Make the most of what you have because whats worse than being alive? we simply don’t know. Smile today because you can still walk. I had my legs taken away for 3 months and soon another 3 and I understand I can do anything I apply myself too.
Hello everyone. If your reading this, Â then I assure you that right now I had forgotten this post. I wish not to remember my past, they had been changing me, transforming me, shapeshifting me, into such evil ways. I’m not evil myself, or at least I don’t want to be, but it’s come to a point now that I’ve become a whole different person from the experience I’ve been facing.
Although suicide is an option for me, I’m not planning to do such a thing so far. However, I do admire its benefits if I do take its path. But that brings a question, what does […]
I planned to kill myself, but then I found this website. I know no one is interested in my story, but I would like to learn about other people here. If I’m able to help one person in this lifetime I will be able to die happy.
Hi,my name is George,im 23 and i will die soon.
I’ve been wanting for a while now to find a forum where i can share my story,i guess everybody that wants to die wants to share his story.
I’ve been battling with depression for almost 4 years now,and i’ve been planing for a while now how to die,i just want this life to be over,i feel i suffered enough and i just can’t take it anymore..the pain..the loneliness..the dissapointments,but most of all not having anyone to ask for help..having someone i can explain that im suffering and i need help.
I dont have much of a family,i’ve had […]
It’s been a while since I’ve posted and I’m actually getting worse. I’m beginning to hate everything even more than I already do. It’s a good thing I haven’t cut myself in over a month.
I’m so tired of faking the same smile everyday and pretending to be happy when I’m not. I have a fucking brain tumor. Why can’t I manage to be happy? Whenever I begin to feel better something bad happens and ruins it. Tonight I thought about killing myself for the first time in weeks.
If I ended it all, no one would care.. my family would be happy a load […]
Wow.
I’m reading some of my posts from last year. I can’t believe how much things have changed.
I’ve become more independent and I think I like it… maybe it’s just that I’ve gotten quieter.
I don’t feel as lonely anymore.
And I think I found a new hobby: writing. But I haven’t done it in awhile…
I’m not quite sure where my future will take me, but all I can say is that I hope it’s full of new adventures and meeting new people.
I do know that I want to change things for anyone who are depressed, suicidal, for people who have developed eating disorders or those who self-harm.
Psychology […]
im so tired of everything. i always feel like crap. my parents yell at me constantly and i feel like im not wanted. i just dont think theres a reason anymore. i tried to kill myself today. but i ran out of pills. it wouldnt have an effect. i want to die. i just want to end everything.
I don’t understand. Why can’t society leave me alone. I’m titled as weak. I’m titled as helpless. I’m titled as many other names I won’t even mention by my peers. I was raped. This doesn’t seem fair. I’m tired of dealing with all the ridicule I receive every day. Will it ever end? Will society let me be happy one day? Why can’t they do it now? I don’t get it.
so i woke up in derford host… whate ill go back a bit so after i toke the pills and realisd that thay did shit and up chukt hafe i tryd to go to sleep but cos it was E’s i coudnt so i being the clever littel git i am i stade up and whent to school wher in the midel of a fight with a techer i go out like a light
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the wold was a verey big place at that time in my life i dreemd of things and people all mregd together in a bler of light and sownd i tort of people from here […]
I began to write a diary today. It had everything in it. And, um, Garrett read it. He took it from me. I didn’t just let it go willingly. I fought until the end. I was about to cry, but then he was so sweet. He looked up at me, kinda smiled, and then he asked me if Mr. Harvey could read it. (Mr. Harvey is the teacher that I had that period) He said, “It’s really good. You should let him read it.” I almost cried again because of how sweet he was. But he’s moving… Why? He read everything. He freaking knows how I […]