Hi guys! Fisrt of all; Thank you for commenting at my first post, it made me feel a bit better : )

I tolf that I’m so lonely in school… But today I started to cry, and I’m happy that no one noticed becouse it would be horrible. Almost everyone in my class dislikes me, and I don’t have any friends in the whole school, so I try not to annoy them so they wouldn’t start to hate me, becouse I wouldn’t have anyone by my side then.. This hasn’t been first time I cry becouse of my class, but it has been long time since […]

The car door shuts and I walk to my house, not letting him see the tears that stream down my face. I know its the last time I’ll take this brutal walk. He stares down at the letter that I left for him on his seat,his fingers pick it up carefully as my front door closes. The last words I tell him ring in both our heads, “remember I love you, and don’t read it until I’m inside okay?” He nods softly and hugs me goodbye. I walk up to my room and fall to the floor, tears pouring down my face. I know I […]

I just feel lonely. Even in a room filled with people I feel lonely. It’s killing me inside knowing that there’s no one who can really understand me, no one who I can talk to, no one who can be my friend. I’ve read stories of people in their teenage years who had a crisis, but being surounded by people who you know that would hate having someone bisexual around them is devastating. I tried and tried and tried and every goddamn time it’s always the same: nobody to talk to and those who might seem interested turn you down telling me really silly reasons. […]

FUCK THEM!!!
FUCK THOSE THERAPISTS!!!!!

I’m really mad right now…The therapists say that they want to make me better and they will do everything to make me better. Yeah right. I’ve been in therapy for ten months now there and it only got worse and worse. I have going to the part-time therapy (5 days a week from 9 am till 3 pm) for 4 months now, and I have reached none of my goals. And those therapists…. they really sucked!! I really feel like they don’t take me serious. This was a conversation I had a few weeks ago when I told the therapists that […]

anyone who has a horse will know how close you can become, how easy it is to open up to them, how intuitive they are, never judging you just trusting you depending on you, my horse was my best friend, id sleep in the corner of ou stables and hed nuzzle me, and wipe my tears oh his nose. when he got ill, i kouldnt stand seeing him in such a state, my national champion boy could barely walk, a bone problem he was born with. soon after he got put down. its been over 6 months now, and theres been no one there, i […]

I am cutting harder and hating life more everyday. I really want to talk to somebody but, i told three of my friend and i told them everything but they havent talked to me since. If i told my family that i think im depressed and how i feel they would probably laugh at me and say that im being dramatic. i know for sure that someday i will kill myself because life is slowly killing me little by little every day. My only dream is to be happy. I try to eat as little as possible and i can barely look at myself in […]

The arguments are all the same; “Someone will miss you.” “You’re important to someone.”

So what? Only the living feel remorse. I won’t care when I’m dead. And eventually all those people will be just as dead and it won’t matter anyways.

I can’t get anything right. I can’t provide for my family. Every attempt at bettering our life ends in crap.

I am sick of the rejection and the constant reminders of how inadequate I am.

I’m sick of being responsible for everyone around me. I can’t carry this burden any longer.

My family wants to leave and the life insurance will get them out of this hell hole. […]

As I’m getting ready for my first therapy session I’m obviously SO NERVOUS! I know I want and need to get better, but new experiences are so hard for me… As I’m thinking this though I’m reading all the texts from friends, family, dance teachers, ext saying how badly they want me to get better & how proud they are already of me for doing this. I’m ready. I’ve gotta go nip this cutting thing in the butt. I need to be happy because I deserve it, everyone deserves to be happy. Wish me luck on this new adventure I’ll call recovery (:

So… you tried to comit suicide? you also decided to join a site and talk about it.

why? not why to commiting suicide but why to joining a site to talk about it?

is that not detrimental to your health? seriously. think about it for just one second.

secondly. STOP APOLOGIZING! stop apologizing for things OTHER people did to you! STOP the negativity. STOP. JUST STOP.

There are so many other things to do with your life than this. get out of the house off of the internet and improve your life. surround yourself with HAPPY and POSITIVE people. dont blame yourself because of things others did or said […]

i want to die. Suggest some ways which look

like natural death

You’d think the depression would stop, being 29 weeks pregnant and all.
Waiting and getting ready for that little miracle to arrive.
I wish it was that way for me.
I’m happy to meet my daughter don’t get me wrong.
I just can’t get over the depression her father puts me in.
He has a girlfriend, and has a kid on the way with me in just 11 weeks or less.
Does he give a crap? No.
Does he even try to help me out? No.
Does he even care about his daughter? No.

My home situation have been very tough. As little girl I had every lie through at home. My mom has/had a relationship with an other man. My dad does everything at home cooking, laundry, bringing me and my 2 brothers to bed and school etc. My mom never does that and never gives us love. And my dad doesn’t too, he just does the standard stuff. She denies that she has a relationship with the other man. They are just friends she says. I just saw the man a couple months ago for the first time (never want to again). But people have seen them […]

im a 24 year old college student and I think about killing myself a lot and I don’t want to think about that but i cant help it. I can honestly say with each day that goes by my will to live is less, and I think about killing myself more. I think about it a lot, especially right after I wake up and right before I fall asleep, but now recently these thoughts are becoming increasingly more abundant during the day as well. im constantly depressed life seems to be meaningless, hopeless, and even worst I feel so damn empty. I have zero motivation […]

I wanted to make my username match me. So I made it into my goal. To be gone. I’m really sorry for all that’s happened, all the people I have burdened, all the nights my brother said he stayed up because he was worried about me. And I’m sorry that I trusted humanity. That I thought things could get better. For some people maybe they just can’t and they never will. My brother thinks that he can change my fate. He told me he has a plan to change my fate after I proclaimed that I was destined to commit suicide. I can’t let myself […]

Sometimes I just sit in class and wish so many things. I hate going to school. I wish there was no such thing. I wish I was born when school seemed so much easier. I wish I had a tree that grew money. I wish my hair would stop falling and thinning. I wish I was skinny. I wish I was pretty. I wish I wasn’t dumb. I wish I had nothing to regret. I wish I had all my pets. I wish all the worthless and horrible people would die. I wish I had a walk-in closet filled with clothes. I wish I had […]

You are forced into life. You never asked to be born. If you are then told that you are not allowed to leave, what distinction is there between life and a prison?

Im sorry I can’t be perfect. I’m sorry I’m not happy. I’m sorry I was raped. I’m sorry I won’t eat. I’m sorry I cut. I’m sorry I won’t talk to anyone. I’m sorry I lie. I’m sorry you can’t tell I’m dying inside. I’m sorry I hide behind a smile.
It seems like it’s been that way for awhile now…me, hiding behind fake happiness. Trying to make everyone think I’m happy. But people have seen my cuts. People are starting to talk. They’re finding out, they’re gonna try to help me. I don’t want help.
So I’m really sorry.
I’m sorry I’m lost. I’m […]

Good God life is just so fucking difficult I am so tiered of the same stuff happening in my life I think I am destined to be alone and miserable for the rest of my life. It feels as though that I have to experiecnce soo much bad luck. Nothing good can ever happen to me that’s just the way my life works. I wanna talk to someone. I never know what to say at all I posted something like this before, but I just don’t see why I am always alone. I fucking hate the way I am. Could someone please help me I just […]

No one has any idea how completely suicidal I am. I know everyone out there must think I should get help. But I do not want help. I want to kill myself before anyone realizes I should get help. And now again, I know what you must think, well why would you be posting on a public forum? Well, I have just bottled up everything for so long without being able to tell a soul. All of my true feelings about everything have just been trapped inside me. I have to lie to everyone about everything all the time. It’s horrible. I literally refuse to […]

I’m really tired tonight. Another long day of supply teaching and tutoring. I can’t even find the time to help out around here. Goodnight everyone. Stay safe.