just opened fb and saw this phrase, dont know who said it but… it pretty much resumes all im feeling!

“Its better to die on your feet than live on your knees”

want to comment on it?

I feel empty and alone
I don’t know why I feel like this
I feel ugly and the need to punish myself
Cutting myself is starting to become part of my life
I feel like I’m wearing a mask
Because I’m smiling on the outside when I’m dying in the inside
Talking feels useless my mom would drag me to a shrink
My dad wouldn’t care
I don’t want to burden my friends
I love being in my room, alone
My sister annoys me
I hate me and I hate my life!
Please Please help me!

so i guess i can say i did it for my mums (moms) attention she only payed attention to the dogs and her boyfriend eventually my brother and sister (17 and 15) there dad took them away from my mom so she stoped caring and one night when she wasnt home……………………i stole 30 $ from her and i took 2 of her old phones and broke them…….. and she hit me with the belt and i had marks so the school saw and got involved so i guess i can saw i think my mom HATES me she sent me away for a year i came […]

I wasn’t expecting miracles and fireworks or for things to suddenly take a turn for the better today, but it doesn’t hurt hoping. Once again hope has let me down

I’m 15. Living with my mum and her boyfriend – plus my two brothers. I see my dad on weekends. That kinda thing.

I suppose..I’m meant to say the problem here..whatever problem I have..and I guess that’s part of the problem itself – is that I don’t know which problem is the worst.

I don’t really get along with my mum. I mean we’re fine sometimes, but then others..we just clash. She’ll ask me to do something and I won’t do it, or I’ll just have a go at her for no reason whatsoever..I suppose that’s kind of typical teenage stuff. I went to the doctors not […]

I’ve finally done it.
Finally found someone who actually loves me back, resolved the best of what I could for my family and made friends who I could be sociable with… And yet, after all that bullshit I pondered on for 19 years of living…

There was nothing there all along.

I guess this whole time I was chasing a dream that I thought would make me happy. But in the end I just don’t feel any better. It seems that I’ve come to the end of my road. I’m tired of looking up at the stars, wondering why I’m never happy. It’s clear that there’s nothing […]

i really dont understand why im still here………. is there really any point of me being…. whats the word.. Alive???? I have done some pretty stupid stuff like well heres my story………….. so it started in 6th grade (last year yes im in 7h grade) when i made out with a girl… i was curious it was just me the girl i made out with and my sister and her sister we were in the bathroom we started making out and a teacher walked in and saw what happened so she called our parents and our parents starting telling their friends and some of them […]

Kay so ive tryed killing myself multipule times i am still trying to figure out how to kill myself i just dont see the point for living anymore i have tryed drinking bleach ive burnt myself ive cut so many times (so many scars to hide) i have tryed hanging myself and ive tryed being anarexioc none of those options worked for me so i need someone to tell me how to kill myself i dont want to be here any longer than i have to im done with my life i just want to crumble it in a ball and light it on fire so […]

I have my results from the surgery and they weren’t able to remove all of the cancer, so yay i have to go to chemo :'( well my hope has officially vanished, along with my dreams of being a lawyer. Fuck cancer.

My sister Audrey had previously moved out…. When she moved out, she had moved in with my aunt, who had attacked me not once, but twice or thrice. The thing is, is that recently a lot of things has been happening..;; Let me sort of break it down for you guys.

My mother got into a relationship to this nice, mellow guy named Guille. His not bad or anything, and there’s nothing too wrong with him. But, I think my mother rushed into a relationship with him, my sister here moved in with my aunt, and I moved in with my mother and Guille in the […]

Hello. I just joined, mostly because I’ve been looking on this site for a few days now and had some things I wanted to say or get opinions on. this was one of the things at the top of my list, and I’m finally feeling “good” enough to make myself actually write it.

So, I know a lot of people on this site have family issues, and I suppose you could say I do too, but since I only have 1 family, I’m not sure exactly where my family issues would fall in terms of how awful they are. Although, to be honest, my family problems […]

I have always viewed difference as a sign of intelligence, I’m a little different. I always have been. I’m a very attractive, well mannered, and educated individual. I’ve been taken for a homosexual throughout my life though Im very heterosexual, I have a fiancée. I’m successful in my constant trials as are most people, I’m getting my point I promise. I’ve always sensed there was a special quality that special people only possess. I believe that quality is thought… Most are devoid of original extensions of their own mind, the pure imagination that once guided us has been lost in our early years. I came […]

it is official i should learn to keep my mouth shut. got into a wee bit of trouble on tuesday. i bought a gun. i had been meaning to do it anyway and on a whim did it. as it was i wa s having a unhealthy mental health day. spent an hour at doc clinic trying to calm down. anyway little did i know that the clinic would be the scene of the crime. i had made an appointment and put myself on the doc’s cancellation list. not thinking it would happen that day i went about my business of buying a gun and […]

I cant anymore. I just want to be happy. I mean nothing. I’m worthless. I hate my self. Im so ugly and weird. How could anyone love me? Im not special. My body aches with sadness. I wanna die. Cutting myself feels so amazing. Im sad all the time. I cry myself to sleep. I have no one. I just wanna run in front of a car. I disappoint everyone I don’t keep promises. Can’t I start over? Can I be someone else. Im so lonely. I disappoint my parents my sisters my friends everyone. I can’t I can’t do it anymore. No one will […]

I haven’t writen here in a while. A lot has happened…well I guess you could say that. My depression has gotten to a point where I don’t care about anything anymore. I don’t want to get up in the mornings or go anywhere. I’ve lost intrest in everything that used to be inportant to me. Understands why I feel this way. If I tell them, they change the subject.

I’ve began to cut again…this time more often and more at a time. My boyfriend says I need to stop before I go to far…honestly I don’t care if I go too far. He never talks to […]

To my suicide project friends, please stay safe and don’t give up hope.

So Lauren came to me about a week ago, and asked me *is the brain a product of the mind, or the mind the product of the brain*

and automatically my response was *the mind a product of the brain* why? because the mind would not exist without the brain. the brain is a storage for memory, which can contribute to how the mind process and projects information. there are several parts of the brain that control emotion, danger reaction. memory, visual and auditory aid. but the question *where is the mind in the brain* has baffled even the most brilliant minds of all time.                             […]

I ..I just dont know why do i keep doing this to myself? My cutting addiction was nearly nonexistent.And then ,it got worse.I dont know how or why.It just did and i havent seem to notice that. I now do that even when im fine.It became somthing i do unconsciously, mechanically.
I want it to stop.I want ME TO STOP DOING THAT TO MYSELF.
But i cant.
Every time I decide to throw away razors, I change my mind in the last second and save them.

Like i mentioned,i was good.I took it nearly to the end,all of my scars began to fade.
I destroyed everything.Im […]

hey i know i said i was leaving the project, but idk i guess i cant yet, i like to write.

just how i feel of whatever’s on my mind and this is really the only place i can where people understand. so i guess i never left