Well, right now I’m feeling like a looser. I’m 16 years old, and I think I can do anything well. I just cut myself all the time. Im to coward to kill myself, Im afraid of that and I dont want to be. Do you think that if mu friends forget about me I will have the courage to do it? They are the only reason for my existence. Well, if someone is feeling like this mail me please: rodrigo-matos@hotmail.com
I’m 17, and everything about living is so shitty. I’ve felt like this for a long time, but everything just keeps getting worse. I’ve made the threats quite a few times in the past months. I’m on anti-depressants now but they haven’t helped. My therapist is lovely, but it doesn’t stop this feeling. I’m completely worthless. The only person who I could tell everything to broke my heart. Things will never be the same between him and I and I just want my best friend back. I want to die. I have a shit load of pills next to me and I’m just waiting and […]
I stumbled on this website when I was searching for methods. I wanted to know if overdosing hurts. Apparently, liver and kidney failure is extremely painful.
I’m ashamed of how weak I am, in fact I shouldn’t even be posting here. I don’t have the courage to kill myself. I don’t even have the courage to hurt myself. I can only imagine it. Meanwhile, there are people who have real problems, who cut themselves, or have attempted suicide. I feel like I can’t get help until I’ve done something to prove that I need it. Nobody, none of my friends or family, think I’m not ok, […]
4 months clean; only because my distraction was Nick, my amazing boyfriend we don’t talk on the phone at night anymore because he’s out and I haven’t heard from him in a couple of days. I realized that the reason that I was four months clean was because he was my distraction away from my depression and suicidal thoughts. But since I usually feel that way at night more so than during the day I’ve noticed my depression has gotten worse. Staying up all night drowning in my own tears and lost in my thoughts my mind is fogged up with suicide as I press the razor […]
My life just keeps going farther and farther downhill and I can’t seem to find any peace from the despairs of everything around me. Recently, I had tried to commit suicide.. And I told someone I had taken 17 pills, and gone to the hospital because I wanted to live for one person- my ex who I still loved. I still love him.. Now, he says he cares but it’s hard to believe he does and I just want to try again.. I’m tired of this world but I’m scared it won’t work again and I’ll still have to live in secrets of […]
For the past few month the only thing that seems natural to me is that tears fall and fall and fall. I don’t know why but these manic mood swings and unreasonable behavouir occurs every winter/autumn and it is exhausting. I’m in the process of applying to uni and finishing my A levels which causes an uncontrollable amount of stress. I can’t deal with it. I don’t know how to work anymore because i’m just in this negative hole constantly unable to break free. I’m not normally this person I’m generally quite jolly and happy-go-lucky but not anymore. I feel so drained. Every inch of […]
So last night I went to the movies with my friends. We went to see Perks of Being a Wallflower. (if you haven’t seen it and are planning too, I suggest you don’t read this).
My one friend, Lucy likes this reeeaaalllyyy douchey guy who has a girlfriend for fucks sake. So, without my knowing, she invited him and this other guy Dillon to come too. I was fine, I planned to ignore him and sit with my other two friends.
Right away I knew it was gonna suck. He texted his girlfriend the whole movie while flirting with Lucy.
Then about 3/4 of the […]
There was a girl. She and this guy dated a couple years ago, and she still liked him. As far as she knew, he still hated her. You see, after they broke up years ago, they still talked, and she confided in him, foolishly thinking she could trust him, and she told him how she cut herself. Well, he stopped talking to her. And he told everyone. He thought she was some crazy-psycho-emo-depressed girl who he wanted nothing to do with. So it’s 1 and a half years later. He starts dating this other girl. Now mind you, this girl has 100 averages in every […]
I wish there was a pill I could take that would make me fall asleep, forever. So I could just cuddle up in all of my blankets, and just sleep. and dream. And just live there, in my dreams, forever. That would be nice…
I know this might sound stupid, but is it possible to be addicted to cutting?
I’ve never heard of it, cuz everyone that I knew who cuts would have a pretty big problem when they did that, and when the problem went away they stopped cutting. My problems have died down but I still crave my cutter every day or so…
im think im going to end it tonight. i just want to find that reason to live. please help me. sholud i live or die?
So it’s been a couple of months since I cut myself.. Durring those months I was still Going threw some stuff but I had just enough strength to stay away from my razor..but lately I’ve been things have just gotten worse and a little to hard to handle.. With me moving back wih my dad..not hearing from or seeing my mother in so long and being mad her..breaking up with my boy friend and just feeling so alone.. Usually I would be rolling up a blunt right now to get rid of all this pain so I don’t hurt myself..but I can’t for certian […]
Im always so alone I think thats something that also makes me think about suicide I feel like no one cares about me..because no one even bothers to talk to me..at school all day I probably only talk to one person a day only because there forced to talk to me.. Even If I try to talk to someone they don’t listen they just walk away..I feel like everyone hates me for no reason.. I don’t stink..I’m not that ugly..I’m not stupid..I don’t know why they don’t want to talk to me.. It’s just one of things that makes me even more deppressed..:(
This is the first time I have ever written on this so I hope I am doing this right. I just cut myself again. I haven’t done it in so long but right now I just hate myself so much. I love to watch crimson red blood pour out of my porcelain skin. It calms me down. It is a simple motion that I would much rather face than my complicated life. I told myself I would stop but my razor just keeps calling me back. I can’t picture myself ever really stopping. I give major props to the people who have and I wish I had […]
Hi guys….how are you?
I do not have any friends. I know alot of people but none of them know me. They use me. Only ever calling when they need money or a place to crash. I don’t know how to make friends either. It’s easier said than done. Hell I even took out a want ad for a best friend-isn’t that sad? I’m too weird for people, I guess. No one understands my humor. I’m not great at getting to know people, but once I’m comfortable with them I can talk all night. It’s just a matter of getting from point A to Point B. What happens is […]
Why must I feel emotionless? Nothing about me is real anymore. No one can see past the disguise; Fake smile, big brown eyes filled with pain. I feel empty inside the only pain I can feel anymore is the cold metal on my skin with the pain that comes along with it. I wanna just cry until it hurts but every time I feel the need too I can’t seem to find the tears. My depression is slowly destroying me; I can’t deal with this anymore, I’ve been fighting with nonstop continuous battle with my depression and I’m losing. It’s becoming worse. To the point […]
Sorry to everyone.. i need to let this all out.. and writting one long thing just wont work.. just ignore these, or read them if your looking for a laugh at someone elses shit..
So fuck it all and good night.. you need me? call me.. only if its an emergency.. other wise.. dont bother..
its like whatever i do.. it doesnt fucking matter. so why the fuck do i even bother????????? WHY THE FUCK DO I EVEN FUCKING BOTHER?????????????????
if my mom wasnt home i would go downstairs and drink every bit of alcohol we have. i would take every ibuprofian in our house. i would take all of my melitonin. whatever i had to do to just sleep. not die. just sleep. forever.