Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
I hate my fucking life.

My girlfriend and I have been going out for ages now and we were on Skype together and I’m really self conscious about my body and we were, you know… Over Skype and she eventually convinced me to take my shirt off and then about five minutes later she ends the call, and having told her earlier that I was nervous and scared about doing this and that I didn’t want her to leave me if she didn’t like what she saw… Then about ten minutes later she called back and I was in tears because I thought that she had intentionally hung up… And she insists that she didn’t do it on […]

Sorry to be OT, just trying to locate someone.
I’m seeking a little gang on here I was talking with a couple of Saturdays ago. One was name Ratkity and she was a scientist and was having trouble with her medications. I am the one who was having surgery on my ankle. I’d love to chat with you again if you happen to see this. This site is one of the craziest to navigate I’ve ever seen. Anyway Ratkity, hopefully you will see this at some point, I’ll try again tomorrow if you don’t. Maybe we can set to exchange emails or something….I can’t keep […]

“LIFE”….yeah!thats the word that i hate the most.people say that after death u would go to hell or heaven but i think there’s nothing like this.This present world is the perfect hell.And To Live on in this world is worst then anything…….i hate life….i hate myself.,..i hate the whole world…….fuck!fuck!fuck!i can’t express my feelings clearly….may my death comes soon…..fucking god…..

Last night the gun did not go off the first time. But I got this far and I’m afraid to not go through with it. I was looking for a sign yesterday and said if the gun did not go off the first time, I would take that as a sign to live another day. Now I am sitting here in the hotel wondering if I should go ahead or give life another chance.  Was that my sign????

So I drank antifreeze for suicide twice. The first was about a glass and nothing serious happened. I threw up a lot, and felt very very sick for about a month. I didn’t get any medical treatment except an IV.

The second time, I drank a lot more. The hospital said it was about a liter. I also took all the sleeping pills I had before I started drinking it, and I threw up much less. I started feeling very sleepy after less than two hours. Unfortunately, I was carted off to the hospital. There was nothing painful about it, actually. The Zoloft the hospital forced […]

am so lost no one can understand the depth of my frustration and hate, i have keep everything cool but now i feel like am ready to explode my mental state of mind is slipping so fast from my grip . Studies are stressin me out ,school in general. i really dont give a fuck of half the ppl in my class but they want to act like they are so close to everyone i hate my life i really do when i was younger i would have cut in this situation now i only want to smoke …..plus i hate my prinicple and everyone […]

It’s my birthday and of course, another year goes by showing how unloved I am. Clearly I’m a hideous cave troll when everyone backs out of hanging out with me. I don’t Why I’m still alive. I don’t matter. No one cares about my birthday, no one cares about me.

I need a new hobby.  I am trying to get myself out of a rut, and meet new people.  I am trying some medications and I need a new outlet to test my progress biochemically. I need some new stuff to check out.  I need to go outside.  What are somethings you guys do to feel a part of something?

I guess I really don’t know where to start. I’m 20, not very good looking and have a hard time making friends. I’m in the National Guard for my state, graduated highschool from a military academy. My family hasn’t ever been close. My mother commited suicide when I was 10 and my brother and I found her. Since I was about 14 I’ve thought about suicide, but not because I have a terrible life, more so its because I fear what the future holds. I think of life as seemingly pointless, we go to school to secure a decent job, work a job to provide […]

Hey Everyone,

I know life is really hard at this time with many of you, therefore I need you guys to talk to me and let me know what hurting you … There is so much potential in each and everyone of you. LOOK at the sky at night and see how many  souls have died innocently, they never had the chance to live a full life and you have every opportunity to live and totally make something out of yourselves..  Remember I’m here so you can talk to me, and please do not think about taking your life. I’m there with you in spirit to make sure you don’t harm yourself 🙂 […]

I tried once i tried twice i tried again and again but….fail.I fail in Everything,sports study everrryyything…so i had very few friends.Iam fucking ugli so i don’t have any girl friend.Teachers also didn’t take notice of me.Iam always been ignored….by frnds,by my teachers.I wouldn’t say mom and dad,because they luv me very much and i also do so.My dad is my best frnd……he always give me advices in my failure that inspires me.My dad is worlds best dad but my dad is so unlucky that he has a son like me.Thats why i hate myself.I fear that i would not be able to repay the […]

My life was perfect, I had it planned out until I was 100 yrs old. I found the perfect guy, the perfect house, I made myself the perfect person..then, he cheated on me…I moved to Canada to marry him & there I met his mistress. She was nothing like me. She was tattoo’d & brash. Terrible language, rude, un-kept. What in the world did he see in her? So, I left him, came back to America to re-start my life but there is nothing in life for me here anymore. I hate myself. I hate where I’m living, I hate the people around me. I […]

I’ve failed. I am absolutely pathetic, and it’s my own fault. There’s no reason for me to have failed that class. None. And yet I did.

I’ve let my teams down, I won’ t be able to run in district  and I won’t be able to play in the first three scrimmages. I am a pathetic excuse for an athlete….for a team mate

This is just one more simple task that I have managed to fuck up, way to go Aj. Way. To. Go.

I went for a run on a busy road, and I couldn’t help but think how easy it would be to step off of […]

can anyone help me tell my parents that i think i have recurring deprresion and sucidial thoughts i feel like if i do that they will think im crazy or screwed up. please help

You can’t hide forever
From the things you don’t find-
You’re a fool if you think
You can leave the past behind-
Whatever you’ve lost,
Or not yet found,
Your mistakes will come to get you,
Determined bloodhounds.
You can’t teach an old dog new tricks.

I just wanted to write in response to your “not posting here anymore” post..

And just know that you’re not alone.. Theres always somebody here for you.. And you’ll find them by not looking for them, but by them finding you.

Im tired of trying.im tired of being “perfect”.”im tired of dance</3.Im tired of my family.Im tired of my everything” But the most of tired of is my life.

i cant handle it they keep doing more and more to me at lunch i was eating and someone threw food at me :'( adn guesse what that someone use to be my bestfriend adn the worst part of that all was i saw my ex looking at me with sadness in his eyes but he didnt do anything he just stared.</3

I am going to flunk out.

I suck at dance.

i am so fucking ugly

im done thats it i […]

im never posting on here again…

everyday its getting worse. ic an’t even try to be that happy,laughable girl i was years ago,because i am not anymore im letting my self fall into this deep hole and im really scare.  i keep on having ideas, dreams, thoughts about it it wont go away no matter what i try, i use to love to dance last year that go tme not deppressed but this year i feel like i have to prove my self, try harder all of my “friends” from last year moved up and left me:'(

the only reasons im not doing it

1. im hoping that it gets better but i […]