Haven’t been on since Lucy4 was beinq well herself towards me.People I’m on suicide forum so why In the hell do you care about my qrammer?Did I mention that I don’t want to live anymore?So yeah everytime Lucy4 finds It necessary to say do you fear the letter g.First of all arn’t you Shaolin qumby?You know that asshole that says the exact same thinq you say to me.After the thinqs you said to me on Teenqirl’s post,I couldn’t take It anymore.I cried.I cried cause you won’t leave me the fuck alone!!!Even tho Teenqirl makes me want to live,you made me realize that It’s just not […]
Keep me, alive
everyone is damage inside
don’t deserve anything of what I have
life is selfish, so am I.
Dead elms turn alive
while the virgin is mourning inside
dark poison and puke
blood and dead flowers .
Pearls resting inside the water
I am the mad hatter
insane, lost, sappy
I filled my lungs with love .
Haven’t been here for awhile. Mabye that’s a good thing in some ways. I just wanted everyone to know no matter how bad it seems it gona get better. At some point you will be ok. A quote that’s always helped me when things keep spiralling is “Its gotta get worse before it gets better”. I hope mabye if someone reads this it can help them as much as it has helped me.
Allowing myself to drink a little is probably not the best way to make choices. But its been another one of those nights. The kind you find yourself reading the back of prescription bottles, and the kind where you mosey on over to Suicide Project and look for someone hurting who can be helped..
In this case all I have reverted to was reading the suicide letter I wrote over a year ago tucked under my bead. Still there, still unchanged.. Still reads…
“I want to thank everyone for the world they’ve built around me. And unfortunately its not a world in which I feel ever had […]
Everyday.
Everyday I feel like giving up.
Why don’t I just give up right now?
Because,
Something, or someone’s holding me back.
Who? Or What?
That’s a good question..
That I wish I knew I had the answers to.
Does anyone know how to contact “foreverasleep”? Their last post didn’t seem too healthy. If anyone knows them personally, please contact them and tell them that some of us ” DO notice” when they leave and would prefer that they return to discuss other possible options, because I don’t think that any of us had a chance to say our “proper goodbyes” and perhaps pleads for the reconsideration of their future actions.
I’m broken.
I can’t be fixed.
A girl can only take so much..
I can only take so much.
I’ve had enough.
I want to give up.
But I have to stay strong.
For my family & My friends.
It doesn’t just affect us. It affects everyone around us.
I’m feeling worse every day. With every breath I feel emptier. I’m doing a lot of shit for trying to survive, because I’m hurt and empty and that fucks me. That’s why I’m so self-destructive. My strategy for survive every day makes me feel more empty, but calms my pain temporarily. I don’t even know why I am hurt. I mean, my whole life is so normal, my family problems and all that stuff are really common. Everybody have problems and I think I’m too dramatic so I hate myself for that. No one fucking cares, I talk about all this with a few friends and they also […]
So i had a boyfriend. i was only 12 going on 13 at the time and was not thinking straight. we started dating when i moved back from texas and this is what happened. So i had alll my friends over for a welcome home party and everything was going amazing but one thing. my best friend gina was depressed because her and her boyfriend broke up, but the thing is she broke up with him. i was playing around and started to flirt with him not thinking anything was going to get serous till my friend emily stepped in and say we should date. […]
This is a trailer for a movie that is free on netflix. I just finished watching it and I would recommend it to family, friends, anyone.
I’m seeking a little gang on here I was talking with a couple of Saturdays ago. One was name Ratkity and she was a scientist and was having trouble with her medications. I am the one who was having surgery on my ankle. I’d love to chat with you again if you happen to see this. This site is one of the craziest to navigate I’ve ever seen. Anyway Ratkity, hopefully you will see this at some point, I’ll try again tomorrow if you don’t. Maybe we can set to exchange emails or something….I can’t keep up with the […]
Night is rapidly falling upon me. My night is here. Â My thoughts are shaking in the dark. Here is my dilemma. Â I guess it’s not really a game of russian roulette when you load the gun completely. Maybe if it doesn’t go off in my head the first time, I’ll take that as a sign and as another chance for another day to live.
I hate when evangelical christians and their political allies say that they are     pro-life.If a person says they are pro-life he or she should work dilligently to make this fuck-up world better for the rest of us.
lately all i can think of our positive scenerios..which is a good thing duh! but then why? im a negative person thoughXD my life is hella negative..some positives of course but it really sucks. so here is my idea? i live? i die? one positive and one negative. which one is which? who knows. some say death is positive some say its negative. thats not the point. then what is? thats up to YOU. if we all live? look at what we learned? A LOT! if we all die? what did we learn? we learned we had ENOUGH and we took a stand and put […]
i am going to go take those pills i am going to soon. after our last volleyball game. i am going to i have no purpose anymore
Has anyone thought of ways to make it less painful on those close to us? I know the suicide of someone close is going to be painful, no matter how you try to justify it to the people who are left behind. However, there have to be things we CAN do to make it go along smoother. Has anyone given it much thought? I suppose a lot can be done in your suicide note by just assuring that it was your decision and that there is nothing that anyone could have done to make you change your mind.
I was supposed to log some medicine in before I left work.  I hadn’t done it, because I thought someone else was doing it. I called work back, and my mood instantly down-spiraled when I was on the phone with my boss who clearly sounds disappointed. She said I’d have to talk to my direct supervisor about it tomorrow, who had to stay to finish it. Obviously I screwed up on this one. Granted I don’t think this is the end-of-the-world mistake, but I still feel stupid. I try and convince myself all the time that I am not stupid, and I just keep coming up with reasons for […]
Well when I woke up this morning I went onto Yahoo and saw this.
“A distressed woman with a baby was heard yelling into a phone shortly before a pair matching their description plunged to their deaths from an (town) apartment building.
The pair fell from (the building) on (the street) about 5.20pm on Wednesday, police said.
The relationship between the woman and the baby was not yet confirmed.
Police have secured the scene in the swimming pool area of the complex while an investigation is carried out.
The bodies will remain there while examinations continue.
Residents told the (the countries paper) the pair fell from the 26th storey of the […]
I will never give up, i have so many thoughts of suicidal actions, so many times thinking the world would be better off without me, but you know what, people care, they may not show it, but they do, they care, they love you and they care, i have the same dream every night, being on top of a 20 storey building, people banging on the door, telling me to come down, i look down, it looks so free, i jump, spreading my arms and becoming free, from all my worries, i wake up crying, i ignored it, it comes back, it encourages me to […]
He is my sunshine, my only,Ethan…….He is my moon……..He has his days and his bads…..Why is he my sunshine?
I hurt him before he was my sunshine……Now I cut myself ad been though alot and i know alot of you have been though way more….but….I wonder if I am his sunshine……………I love him…………………..because he is the person who I care about…………..I am 12 years old………Am I head over heels and obessed?