Whenever i think of committing suicide, there is nothing going through my mind. It just revolves round one word SUICIDE. I think it to be the escape of all my worries and sadness of my life. But then i think, No i cant for i have to stand for myself in the most worthy way and live above all. I dont want to get noticed all i want is love. So why dont i love myself. I started earning and doing things for myself. Pampering me is the best way which i think anyone can do to get out of this feeling of suicide. All […]

Y me?! Y is it always fuckin me?!   Once again I’m sick as a dog… I can just barely get my ass out of bed to go to the bathroom or eat… My tonsils r swollen to almost blocking my airways, I’m gaging on them, coughing, and have a fever at 106…. We cant brake my fever and my dad hates hospitals almost as much as i do.. This happens every month 2-3 times… Ill get so sick i wont even get out of bed… My mamas bf will have to carry me upstairs to the couch so they can watch me, i hate […]

Hi i was a guy suffering from schizophrenia and bipolar disorder from a young age. But i never knew there was treatment available for these problems. Alas i was destroyed completely by the age of 22. i think my few friends understood i was mental and kept giving me positive comments even when i was unintentionaly rude to them. Then i decided to change myself. i went to a martial arts school first. it was useless because the problem was with my mind not my body. Then i turned to Yoga. i tried inventing new methods of meditation. But accidentally i aroused my kundalini. i […]

Life is so dismal right now.
I’m not really suicidal. This isn’t like straight up depression. I’ve been there. This is just intense pain. Not the black cloud hanging over my head, just the knife in my chest.
Nothing can go right.
My mom just got diagnosed with cancer. It’s far along. I can’t bring myself to ask if she’ll be ok.
This summer, my friend died.
I was ill for months.
My little bro was diagnosed with epilepsy.
My boyfriend was away all summer.
My ‘best friend’ lied to me for months and is abusive to me. I can’t seem to make myself get […]

It happens to me every time..

I’ll be in the car. My mind will start wandering. I’ll look out the window and look for oncoming cars. I close my eyes, hoping that as soon as I close them, a Semi will crash into my door. Just like you see in the movies. But for me, I’ll die on impact.

-A.C

I’ve been trying to write a post on this site for hours, but every time i write what i am feeling, i think it is too whiny.
It sucks that the things people say to me in RL holds control over me, even in this setting.
I’m pathetic

I’m 16 years old have had depression for 3 or 4 years have felt unwanted and not loved every body around me is fake even my own family talk about me behind my back my dad is always yelling at me for not being who he want me to be and compares me with others, my mom is always depressed saying she wants to die i am so tired of the same things fights and arguments i have thought about suicide but i am scared of pain i never been scared of death i’m just scared of the pain i am going to experience and […]

how to end the pain? how to get out of the laberynth of suffering? i think i will feel this way forever. Months pass and i never seem to find happiness in my life. there are days when i don’t cry but im always hurting. I hate myself and i hate all the things that have made me this way. why cant i be a normal 17 year old who is out making memories with her bestfriend or enyoing her teenage years. something blocks me from reaching happiness. i feel numb and i feel like i just want to cry and die and lock myself […]

i have one friend.   i cant confide my feelings in them becuz they dont wanna hear about death.  so  i dont say anything.  my family gets upset.

everyone says im imagining things.  im talented, pretty, smart, …everything that i know im not…..

i dont know why they keep saying those things.  they KNOW its not true. they just dont want me to feel bad.  but it just makes me more angry becuz i know they’re just trying to “ease my mind” of some sorts.

every boyfriend ive ever had, has left me.  its cuz im not pretty enough.  i KNOW thats what it is.  im a GOOD […]

   Every day is the same. I wake up every day at 5:3o, get ready for school, do the same thing every day, then go home. I have to get off the computer at 6:30 to 7:00, otherwise I’m up all nigh due to y insomnia. I hate this, I just want freedom. We can’t do anything fu or different because everything cost money nowadays. Nothing is free, and everyone my age is a complete fucking idiot. People are asses, and I feel older than I am. I’m only fourteen and I feel wiser than I sshould be at my age. I hate to sound […]

not only do i feel alone but i just want to die everyday and every thing just seems black and white to me i lost my boyfriend of  6 months on and off dating for 3 years with him… he just completed me and made me feel happy now i spend most of my days trying to forget him i try not to think about him but every time i look at my wrist i remember how much i really do care about him… the cuts on my wrist are deep long gashes that took a lot of medical tape to cover… days have passed […]

i am freaking out right now, over absolutely nothing. my anxiety is acting up, and i’m about to cry. i have no way to calm down but listening to music and i can’t do that because i’ll get yelled at for it. i don’t know what to do at all. i’m afraid i’ll end up having thoughts of suicide, as i do almost everyday, only sometimes i act on it.

hey my name is angelenia schneider,

ive done many things in my past. Ive regreted so much.. My reason for suicide is im trying so hard to help people who are going through this and i cant. the reason for this is because i want to help so bad…. ahhhhh

fuck

ill be famous for talking one day. about my story.. but right now it feels like i cant go on anymore

Its bad enough I want to kill myself but I also want to kill others.. Not just anyone but certain ppl close to me….. I love to hit things nd ppl.. So I’ve decided to join wrestling… I wud love to be able to choke sum one out knowing I cud possibly kill them if I wanted to….

I’ve been depressed for about 4 years now. But nothing really hit me hard till about the end of last year and steady increased through this year.
My family is overly Irish. They live in the old Irish Catholic ways, meaning: you marry young, girls don’t go to school, family always comes first, and leaving isn’t an option, meaning you can never think about leaving, because once you move out, you’re officially disowned, and I can’t live knowing that.. which is why I haven’t moved out.
I’m extremely different from my family.
The first girl to ever graduate high school (i had to fight to […]

I’ve always been the unattractive girl. People called me ugly, and I believed them. I’m ugly, and I want to die.

Period.

I’ve been writing a book for about a year here’s an excerpt from it.

I felt, once again, that my heart had been ripped out of my chest and torn into shreds. I wish i could explain the way i feel, all the pain and sadness; I don’t know what to do. I’m confused, why do I have to be put through this? I wish I could be normal and be able to do whatever Outsiders do, it’s got to be better than being in here. Normal on the Inside is to be wary of everybody, even your roommate of three years because they could snap […]

I used to use tv as an escape. Like I hated my own life so much, though it was so pathetic and meaningless, that I would just sit and watch tv all day long- to get invested in character’s live and live vicariously through theres because they had something significant with their stories. Now just watching tv makes me feel even more depressed. I can’t stand the fact that my life is no where near what it should be and watching tv just makes met feel even more inadequate about my own. So now its like the only thing that kept me even somewhat sane […]

I try to tell others how I feel….
But I just get ignored.
Fine, you can.

I wish I was PERFECT.
I wish I had a BOYFRIEND. But I am not good looking like the other girls.
I wish I was SOMETHING to somebody.
I wish I was better than OTHERS. But I am not.
I wish I had real FRIENDS. But I don’t.
I wish somebody would kiss ME. But who would want to?
I wish I was somebody ELSE.
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I am crying everyday… I don’t know why.
Blood is everywhere on ME.
I have so many problems, it’s hard for me.
I am […]

i’ve just come out of a relationship, and before you all start, that isn’t the reason i’m feeling the way i am. i can deal with not being close to somebody, its the fact that when something goes wrong in my life, i have nobody i can talk to about it? if i tell my mum she just gets the whole family involved, and i don’t want that. all of my friends seem to have turned against me these past few days, and i know break-ups are hard, and it isn’t the end of the whole, but this is so difficult and i can’t express […]