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I just made this so I really don’t have anyone to get

Things off my  chest. Im just confused . I’m  13. I guess you could say I have a pretty good life or as people could see it . Nice house , family, boyfriend , all the friends . But nothing is never good enough. Me and my boyfriend are going through a rough stage and I’m really afraid of loosing him. I have to go and act like everything is find because I’m too embarrassed to tell my parents what’s going on. So I just have to suffer . I have big trust issues […]

I don’t understand how if we want to talk on the phone with someone we can privately message them to see if they are available.

Words on a screen are one thing but it would be nice to talk to someone.

I have other suicidal friends and I talk with them sometimes, but for me, scheduling of need is always an issue.  When they call me I am not available, and when I call them, vice versa.  I have found that I go out of my way and then have no one when I am in need.

I am so tired of being tired.

Things are hard for me […]

I’m not sure how this works but I feel like venting. I’m 25 years old. People say I’m pretty but most of the time I can’t stand who I see in the mirror. I’ve been reading posts on this website over the last few days and I was surprised to see my thoughts and feelings expressed so accurately by random people all over. You know when people say oh everyone’s felt like  that, like that’s suppose to help but this actually is kind of comforting. Anyway back to venting. I had a car accident this mornin and physically I’m fine but in every other way I’m […]

So basically, right now, I really do not see the point in me living any more, trying any more, even breathing anymore.

It all started to happen, when on day, my so called ‘bestfriend’ (Let’s call her beth) pretty much decided to stop liking me. But, i NEVER did anything to her.  I never bitched about her, never betrayed  her, I was a true best friend. She started telling a few people she don’t like me. Those people are my close friends, so they told me obviously. Now, I don’t have twitter, but she does. My other best friend (let’s call her Amy) does have twitter, […]

So why the fuck would anybody stay around after all this, fuck that, i know im still here but my body wants to die and i dont know how im going to get passed this, its really not worth trying, once im gone, i wont have to worry how im going to live, where im going to get money, nah..i cant, ive lived this way for a year and its not getting any better,

No one has noticed.
No one has noticed I spend all my time and money now getting drunk these days.
That’s all I want to do.
I just want everything to go away, And to be able to enjoy things and have fun and laugh.
Alcohol helps. But at the end of the day I still end up in my bedroom, Taking pills or drinking or just curled up in bed crying and listening to Radiohead and REM.
I’m such a waste of life.
Seriously, I am actually not good for anything.
I’v abandoned myself really. I just can’t do anything alone or without some […]

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I’m so sick of trying. I’ve had it. Just had it. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. Heh. But I guess so is everybody else.

Read this sentence, then close your eyes, take a deep breath and relax……Don’t worry.  You are highly intelligent and as long as you stay focused on what you want to do and how you want to live, you will find a way to accomplish these things.  You have a tendency  to worry more than you need.  I’m sure everything will be different and disorienting at first, but you’ll be back to your personal routine in no time.  I am always here 919 381 2658.  I don’t want you to risk contacting me anymore than is necessary, but know that I am always here and nothing […]

we fall and beg and cry then find someone, fall,beg,cry  then get up again, fall beg cry, over and over. but one day there will be someone that makes it worth it, something that makes the pain worth it, and the answers to your questions. it comes slowly and you have to run the cylcle many times but then  you fight and you make progress. im at that stage, iv  made progress but then i did the full run of the cycle again. and probably am still in it but the progress ive made has been through me, i dont have someone i rely on […]

It’s not working out so great.

Why is it that so many of the most beautiful and gentle souls one could ever meet feel so desperate to the point of being suicidal, yet so many awful people can just waltz through life without giving anyone else a second thought?  I suspect that the answer may be in this question.

It’s a sick joke.

I love venting on here, im just so fucked in my head, i cant see right, really am not taking much more, for real, i dont really care about anything anymore, and thatsmo re re

Let It Hurt – Rascal Flatts

I want help, but I want to carry on with this alone. I want my parents to realize that I’m not OK, but I don’t want them to get into my issues. I want to be with my friends, but I feel like I’m in other dimension whenever I’m with them. I want to love myself, but I have never hated me so much. I want the voices in my head to shut up, but they’re the only actual company I have. I want to die, but I want to live.