hi have a questions for people that cut? how do u clean your wounds. i just run water of them. what do u guys do.
The more honest you become with yourself, the less honest you can be with others, because you the more you sound like a nutcase.
Wheeee
I love my bycicle, it’s so worn and loyal. Getting rusty, and it’s a couple notches too big for my size which makes stopping and restarting a hassle and the front brake’s busted.
I daydream about getting straight out rammed by a monstrous car (then again what car isn’t a monster? Is there something uglier and more insulting than concrete?), a mangled bloody mess of broken nerves and metal lying on the pavement, a brainwave sliced by a cog.
An acrobatic improbable tumble where […]
May 31, 2012
9:30 p.m
I feel nothing. I feel useless, dull, and dead. I want to die. I’ve thought of dying. I need help. I NEED HELP! I have so much work to do I feel like I’m drowning, I feel empty. I feel like I have no emotions, I feel lifeless, that my life has no meaning. Nobody understands, at least I don’t think so. They all say it will get better or to suck it up. I can’t suck it up; my body and mind are betraying me! I know intellectually that I need to do things but then my mind […]
Sometimes, my depression keeps me up for hours at night.
When this happens, I roll around, trying a bunch of positions, until I find one where I can feel my heart beating.
What I do is, every time my heart beats, I imagine being stabbed in the chest. With every beat, destroying what I hate.
Stab.
Stab.
Stab.
Until I’m dead.
….Then in the morning, I wake up and sob.
i throw up every day
cut today
arm looks like shit
oh yeah i fucking hate my damn body!!!
I haven’t done anything yet but I’m about to either cut really deep or go down some meds. I need help from anyone. Please I just need to talk. If I don’t comment back, either my iPod is taken away or my panic attack may get the best of me. Please someone talk to me. I need the distraction or I might not be here tomorrow…
I started cutting in 5th grade. I always thought of trying to commet suicide but I was always to scared to try because i thought how will my parents feel ? When i got in the 6th grade things got worse I moved to a new town and my parents got divored and I didnt know anyone in this town, but i knew one person and they knew me to but not in a good way. It all started on facebook I met him and he looked cute but I never met him in person so I thought I would lie to my friends and […]
Liquor barley helps. Sleep is non existent. Letting go of life seems so pathetic and dramatic. Yet its the only thing that I know right now that will stop the pain. I just want to feel peace even if its for 5 measly minutes. Anything to drown the pain of knowing every time I open my eyes in the morning or shut them at night.. that I’m entirely alone. Maybe some people were born by mistake
I joined this community because I was at a loss. I have not been able to find support groups in my area or surrounding area. Since finding this site, I have felt some form of connection with individuals who understand and are struggling too. My story started the day I cut a bit too much and had the gun up to my head.  Then next day, I had been admitted to the hospital for 7 days, and treated for cutting and attempting suicide. The amazing thing since I have been out which has been approximately a month, I wish to God that I would have […]
This was supposed to be my official last day posting here.
Mainly because I’ve a lot of trabveling to do before my demise.
But heck I’ll probably still try to help out a little up until the day I go just not as frequently.
I know i’ll be dead within three months as I’ve procured my methods, already quit my job, and already put all the legal things in place.
It may be next week or it may be in August. But there is no turning back now.
My compassion … ah you know how it is.
Anyway… gouki99x@gmail.com if anyone wants to vent , insult me, or just talk.
I can […]
If you want peace, prepare for war! Basically the motto of the world
Every day is the same. I wake up , ready to fall back to sleep. Back to the darkness of my mind thatswallows me whole, place of peace in a world of hate. No motivation left… Sleep through every class, can’t focus , cant process… Feeling stupid; can’t think. It’s only getting harder, everythings getting worse. Things get to me more everyday. I’m close to my breaking point. Sometimes I wonder what the easiest was is to go.. Would popping a pill bottle worth of tylenol do anything? I feel like im going to go no where in life as it is…
If anything could explain […]
In case those saw my last post I don’t thonk today is the day. I just heard from employers within the last 30 min I have interviews set for Friday and Monday. Thanks for all the support.
wasted time… doing nothing… helping no one… being alone… was my life completely in vain? to me it seems that way… oh well… one day i will understand….
i don’t know why but i feel really happy today, im loving my life today and can’t think of a better time to end it…
why not now before things go bad again?
Everyone ignore nbarules12 he is an obvious troll.
Thanks to everyone that replyed last night. I was so desperate and I don’t think I could have made it through the night. I was too determined to end it. I slept all day today and I’m a little better now.
I can’t believe I finally posted here. Last night is  still a haze, I’m a bit dizzy now too. Been on my own for so long, I’ve been staying in this house for far too long. I’m not too good with words but I just wanna thank you all! 🙂
I told him I smoked weed this weekend n that back in April I had smoked even though I told him I didn’t. I thought it was better to be honest with him but apparently I was wrong. Now he’s all serious n don’t really want to talk to me. I feel horrible now, but I don’t think I did anything wrong. Did I?? Oh well I guess I won’t care. FUKK IT!!! I’ll fuck up my life. Summers here, if all goes well I won’t have to put up with anything anymore.
Yes life can be difficult, I won’t deny that. We do go through our good times and bad times. Ive had depression for 2 years and still trying to heal from it. I used to cut myself, which eventually made me feel worse. I never really had friends that I could talk to, so basically I thought that I was complettely alone. Then I realized that i’m not, because I have people at my church that I can talk to and God. Oh btw i’m 15 and my name is Deana. For the people suffering from depression try to look at all the positive stuff […]
I feel for all of you here. I wish I could help you all escape the misery of this awful world! It is so hard in this world. I don’t know how I’m still here! My fear of death stops me from taking my life these days but boy do I think about it every fkn day. I have tried so many times in my past, to end this misery of a life, but UNFORTUNATELY I’m still here! I don’t want to be here anymore! Since childhood, I have tried to hold onto just the smallest amount of hope,that one day things will get better, […]
I know how it feels to be sad. Depressed. Like no one cares. Like you don’t want to live anymore. I feel that right now. I would think a lot on how would I kill myself. Finally I made up my mind.. I wasn’t going to hang myself, or cut my throat or wrist. I figured the best way was to over dose. What could happen. I wouldn’t feel the pain. I would just take the pills and go to sleep. No big deal. I would say no one would care. I am just some ugly stupid girl who is stupid and worthless. I am sitting […]