I was wondering what kind of emotions people have when they are logged on this site.

If you could spare 2 seconds of your time, to just comment with one word of the emotion you’re feeling right now, that’d be greatly appreciated.

everything hurts. this pain is too much. the blade races across my soft skin and i escape this terrible place for a few seconds. and then im back in this place. im done. i cant do this anymore.

After my suicidal thoughts,well I feel happier now and feel like I should somehow put that experience to use. I mean these charities I have looked at usually involve selling things, and theres no way I can do that. Others well dont provide me any feeling of helping others. I mean I would be okay with just hiding and doing art by myself, but I just need a way to put this experience to use and cant find a way to do so. So any advice?

I’m so extremely depressed….it just seems like it’s building up little by little…a couple days ago, I finally caved in and cut 🙁 I felt so weak & controlled. I really wish I could feel happy…truly happy again just for a day.

just a random impulse to kill myself tonite, i need to be free fromthis sick joke called ”life”. i probably wont be successfull tho… im a very confused 18 y old girl. life hasnt given me reason to haveany interest in it.i love being alone. wish icould describe how i genuinely feel. i havebeen stronger than anyone could be if theyve been wat ive been through…idont even know watim thnking let alone saying..ive been hurting for farrrr tooo long,, i dont wish this pain on anyone.

Anyone else on here been in a psyciatric hospital? What’s your story?

So, I’m going to be on therapy soon. For years I’ve been trying to cope with my past psychological traumas with heavy alcohol and drug use, had various sex partners I barely knew, nearly got killed several times, got injured heavily and got myself even more psychological traumas and now it seems they have reached their critical mass.

Worst is that I wanted to spray some positive graffity on the wall of my room and I googled “love” and ended up crying after seeing a whole lotta couples. But deep inside myself I am laughing about myself still being affected by my classmates making fun of […]

Hahaha nothing really matters anymore and no one acts like they care so why should I. My hatred for everyone who talks/looks at me continues to grow. I care for almost no one and like i said they don’t seem to care about me. I wake up feeling numb and emotionless my nightmares wake me up in the night giving me the only sense of emotion I have.  I hate life tonight i think i am going to try suicide for the 4th time and it most likely won’t work ( let’s just say I would make a really sucky murderer) and when it doesn’t work it […]

i think that im going to write the same of my last post, my first post…

but i need fdkhfslkjskjgh  something, i dont know what, why i feel alone when i have my friends around?

i mean, i love them… “love” them… but so many times i feel that i dont want them to be close to me…

like i need a breath, like i need a second life, like start over again and be who i really want to be…  but why i cant be who i want to be right now? why is so difficult?

i just sdfuhslriutfriu

i dont know but almost all the world dont make […]

Why do I still care?

Why do I think about you every second of every day?

Why do I have my heart race when I see you?

Why do I get jealous when girls talk to you?

Why do I want to be near you?

Why do I just sit there and let you hurt me?

But most of all,

Why do I still love you?

Sometimes I wonder why people like me are even alive? I mean what’s the point? To suffer? My life is getting nowhere. I feel worse everyday and now even the rest of the things started to get bad too. I  might consider giving myself less time than I actually planned. World sucks.

Jst as i am without one record of hapines.an overdue chronicle of sadness.i hpe it arowses ur dead conscience 2 realise dat all tru dose yrs dat i ws down and u kept on kicking.still wit dose scales dats on my arm..all tru d nite u stole d light and left my lyf in total darkness.a perfect being i still remain 2 d few who cares i ll gve ds seemingly worthless lyf of mine 2 share a moment wit all u angels.here i stand a perfect being.not dat i am free but that i am loved by those who bruise.here i am 2 draw […]

I promised you I will saty here but the thought of it I fear.

A breath or twoI can manage but eternity sounds savage.

To enjoy life and love no longer seems realistic

but to breath and exist noe that’s more simplistic

I once had a dream but now that’s long gone

so now I just weep and sing my sad song.

Tommorow is just another day

and this game called life I will play.

hi all my life ive been called fat and many more names. so i turned to drugs and it made me feel free but then they stopped making me feel like that. i always think of killng myself and i used to be too afaid to do it but now im not and this is a problem. i dont know what to do anymore, IM LOST!

18 and hanging in there, realising its way easier when i decidei dont care lesz, drinking helps (i’ve just started) , it makes me feel good about myself, and confident and motivated. It bugs me how iam legally aloud to move out, and start my own life  and stuff and i want to so bad because my lifehonestly kinda sucks right now but i dont even know how to move out? idk im scared to? im scared to be independant?I dont have a job yet for reasons……i honestly wanna move far away from everyone i know including my family, because of certain reasons, bad memories…fml […]

I’m hurting so much and no one seems to care. I just wanna give up. I’m done with living in HELL. i cant take it anymore

I quit my job about a month back bc the manager kept blaming shit on me or twisting my words around to get me in trouble. i couldnt do it anymore plus I had another job lined up. well of course nothing goes  right for me the other job fell through and I didnt recieve a call back. of course i should of known that but I was actually thinking things would ge t better. Well so i decided to […]

There are people that are impossible to live with. I am one of them.
I accept that. I hate myself, i wouldn’t want to live with me either.

But you would think after living with my family for almost 20 years they would have picked up on my traits and understood how to deal with them. I think everyone does.
I know that if my mum is really upset about something and shes sitting outside having a smoke to just leave her alone. Then when she comes back inside to say nothing. Don’t ignore her, but be there for her in silence. Then when she seems […]

My brother hasn’t talked to me for over  3 weeks. Not a word. If I fully directed a question to him, he would continue what he was doing as if I hadn’t even entered the room.

And as I’m sure a lot of you have felt and known, being ignored fucking sucks.

He’ll come through the front door and I’ll grin over to him, about to yell out a greeting with an obscenity after it (a thing we siblings do in this family), but he’ll walk straight past me. I wouldn’t give it a thought if he ignored all of us, since he usually is a bit […]

I was introduced to my depression at a young age, in elementry school. I had ADD, and was given medicine that didn’t help. Wanted to know, why I am like this. My mom told me I had control of it. I think that pressure made me frustrated and unable to focus on learning at school even more, to where I drift off. Just feeling inadequete. I was called names, like retard and stupid. I never recovered from the ADD, so Its not like I could prove anyone otherwise. My mom is deeply religious, and believes that God […]

Its odd for me because being suicidal has left me down low but at the same time It has been freeing. I feel like now I can do whatever I want to and I don’t care. I am a good person so I am kept in check there, but I feel like now what ever I want to do I should. Thats the only way I can really live.  I could never get a boring job and spend my life for a little money to survive and living mediocrity and boredom. Now I don’t ever have to because survival isn’t a priority, I would rather […]