I bought a regulator today on ebay for 70 bucks. It’s supposed to work for helium, ******** and argon. Made by Lincoln Electric. I called the welding supply a couple weeks ago, I think it’s a bit more than $100 for a smaller sized ******** tank. I’m undecided as whether to go ******** or helium, and feel somewhat lost though I am doing the research online as to how to go about this. I am pretty scared. I’ve chickened out so many other times, overdosing, trying to get my nerves up to be able to jump from a 7 story parking structure. Though after looking […]
Hey you out there.
Yes, you. I have something that for some reason, I just felt this incredible urge to share.
Don’t get me wrong. I barely know you.
So what I have to say may not really affect your life at all.
But it’s still something I’m going to say, so please listen to me.
It’s not your fault.
You’re just a human being like the rest of us.
Even successful people have problems.
And something else.
You aren’t a failure. You never were.
You may feel like you aren’t doing anything with your life. That all day long you do “nothing”.
But I just want […]
Only if only…my family would love me
Only if only…he would love me again
Only if only…my bestfriend didn’t hate me
Only if only…I didn’t mess every thing up.
It’s all my fault.everything
I want your opinion, guys. It’s about relationships… Should there be an age limit on love? I’m asking this because i’m 15, and i met this guy called Josh. He’s amazing and funny and so polite and kind…. And i think i’m falling for him, a little. Trouble is, he’s 20… O.o so i just want to know what you think. I know nothing will probably happen between us though… :/ <3.
I know some of you won’t care. But my one dream (the reason that I’m still here), is to become a writer. This is a story that I’m working on. You can read it. Maybe tell me how it is. I just need the most honest feedback as possible
http://www.quizazz.com/story.php/1547731/Til-Death/1/
I have a lot of questions. And many go unanswered. But the one question I’ve asked my self every night,
“Why am I still here if he doesn’t even care anymore?”
It has gotten very quiet recently.
I’m starting to wonder if I’m blending my thoughts with reality. Time goes slow and yet days go by. I’m no longer in my body, or when I am, its so painful I’m blinded. Other times though, its like I’m watching this really depressing movie, and how I would like to leave the theater.
If you cry and scream, curse and shout in the dark, and no one hears you, did you exclaim at all? If you live the nights in darkness and the days under a mask, does anybody see you?
I know I shouldn’t put all my hope in her. […]
Hey I jumped off a cliff! didnt work, i died i do believe and should of went to hell(cos thats where souls go, i been there – its black and white and you stay there for a long long time according to the souls there said) yep died of bloodloss, now im walking again and have no brain damage. sweet hey? God had other plans for me….. so im studying towards a childcare job. email me! http://www.abc.net.au/news/2010-06-24/townsville-teen-survives-cliff-fall/879988
they say when you love someone let them go and if they come back they r yours… and if they dont they never were… but what happens if you dont want to let them go??? what if you love them way to much to loss them; and you would be taking the chance that they don’t come back… then you find out that they were never yours… and what happens if the person you really like is dating someone else… it hurts… badly!!! I would know… anyway… i know that the whole point of this site is to talk about your problems and suicide attempts […]
going through hell
felt like a bottomless well
then she fell
I felt great. Life was amazing. All I saw was future. But now, my heart has been torn even worse, and I wonder if I’m even good enough. And I can sit here and wonder all I want, but life goes on. Unless I stop mine. I’m losing my will to live. I was halfway there, then he brought me higher, but now I feel like he doesn’t want me, and I’m still falling, farther from where I started. Until I smash into the ground. Life goes on.
The funny thing about the little things in life for me is that those bad little things can make me really upset or angry and ruin my whole day but the good little things never make me happy. Why is it so much easier to get upset? Why is it hard to be happy? Why don’t I feel happy? Does anyone else feel this way too?
I don’t want to feel nothing but anger and frustration anymore…
I tried to kill myself last night. I tied a noose, hung it off my ceiling, and tried to hang myself. I would be dead right now if the rope were stronger. I wish I was dead right now.
It’s days like this that make life difficult at this point. Today was such a great day, then suddenly everything starts going more than wrong one after another.. Staying sober on this days is highly difficult! I know it’s nothing major and it shouldn’t really affect everything, however at this stage in soberity emotions are very sensetive and over reactive. I really want to get high right now, so that everything I’m feeling can just go away; even if only for a little while! The things that are going wrong are things that are going to cost me a lot of money, and at this […]
Everyday it’s easier to not be missed. No one would notice anyway. Not even they know. There’s a huge mark on my left arm, my left leg and back. But no one notices. The only people who asked me, which was 2, was for mere curiosity. Ha, that laugh hurt. I wish I could bring more smiles. I just ruin everything I touch. No one would even know… I cover my darkness and evilness with the innocence of pink. I even blemished ‘pink’ now…. They see my life as if it were perfect, then perfect may my death be.
I care and want to listen for anyone who wants to talk.
I told my boyfriend last night that at the age of 12 I was sexually violated. In the dark, held down, “wrestled with”, and touched inappropraitely. My cousin and I were just supposed to wrestle to see who was stronger….atleast thats what he told me. Then it turned into something sexual for him. I felt very violated…even at the age of 12 I knew that what had happened was wrong. I told my mom but she did nothing about it. It’s like just because I was 12 doesn’t make it a big deal…no one believes a 12 year old.
Well I told my boyfriend and he […]
For a while I was okay.
For a while I felt everything was alright.
I thought I was going to be just fine.
But then I remember you, and my broken heart, and the scars you’re supposed to kiss. I remember i’ll never be good enough for anyone ever again and that you’re never coming back. I remember the laughs, the smiles we shared. Then I realize nothing will ever be the same. I will never find somebody as perfect as you. Nobody will ever want me.
I try to think about what you’d say if you were here. I put myself in your thoughts. […]
8 Months since my first suicide attempt (overdose), 3 more overdoses and hospitalizations added and the last few weeks more and more time spent at the psychiatric unit, so many weeks I have spent there and nothing helps.
I am really sad now, but I see the end. Have cleared my office out, written some lines to explain my pain (though I never thought I would do that) and now spend the days crying even more because I know that I really only have a few days left. This time I am not going to go for the OD, even though I should have died already. […]
I thought my meds were working, It has only been a week and they seemed great. But Ive started getting the thoughts back, especially in my dreams. The anti depressant cant control my dreams which is so frustrating. My best friend who has been there through everything with me, seems to find it funny im so depressed and that now shes just being a ***** and putting me second and the guys that use her for photos first. That hurts a lot,..I just into an fight with her ..,my other best friend…well shes constantly spending time with this guy. Its just so easy […]