someone, message me. please, i need to get something off my chest!.
NaiomyHernandez@gmail.com
I’m begging , please help i really need to talk about this

It feels as if there is no light in the distance, just pitch black darkness. I wake up feeling like a failure knowing that my parents keep thinking when am I going to do something with my life and just not hang around being a waste of space.there’s no better way I can put this knowing that it all feels true, to feel there’s no need for me to breath. *sigh* why is it that I still breathe, why is it that everyday I wake and feel the same way. Is that the purpose of my life to feel like a worthless piece of nothingness. […]

i was not cut out for this world. i dont know where to start so i wont im sure you have all heard it before anyway. does it ever get easier to accept? im such a coward because i know i can do it i know i can cut open a vein or suffocate myself with coal its fast its easy but im so afraid that if i back out half way then what? walk around explaing the scars or brain damaged from the fumes of the coal? does this mean i still have a sparkle of fight in me? todat i tried hard to […]

I am in debt so far over my head that i’m afraid of everything. i don’t answer my phone because it is always the bank. i shred my mail without reading it.

I have watched myself do terrible  things to people i supposedly loved for no reason with no way to stop it and it will happen again and again. no reasons, just pain and anger and manipulation. words i can never take back. i strangled my ex until  i could feel his pulse in my hands and i wanted so badly to kill him for what he’s done.

I’m so broke I started doing porn and […]

yeah nothing has gotten better ever since i finally listened to what she told me and left her a lone. i got accused for a lot of things, a harraser, a stalker, just a complete jerk for something that my heart was telling me to do. which at that point i feel like i can never trust my heart again.. i tried going out there and finding someone to replace her i really did but no one is like her and no one will ever be like her… im depressed and i miss her so much but its always in my head that she never […]

give up how to edit two posts. wasn’t at all I want to say. I tried edit over and over I feel worse now than ever. what I was trying to say is I lost my house , my daughter did everything she should to complete high school, even a year early. have lost my house and living in temporary housing. I really dont want to be on this earth anymore. I am in no way helping my family. I’m not scared to go, I just don’t want them to hate me.

I wrote a song I don’t even know if anyone can understand me. think there’s anything anybody can say or do change how much I want to see sun from the earth

I tried to be so nice to people I am I think a mistake my kindness for weakness. I have a lot of learning disabilities. true while I was really feeling well. I got my real estate license and I started really doing well. now I have lost my home to foreclosure. my daughter has done everything she said she finished high school are your early. and now her friends are going to college and I cannot help her. I’ve lost the house I built and now im living in temporary housing. I know money isn’t everything but I can survive and I’m not […]

I don’t understand. My life is fine. Good, even. I’m a straight A student, smart, funny, Christian, been awarded multiple scholarships recently. Teachers love me. But when I go home at night, all I can think about is what they would do if I were to kill myself. What would my friends say? I want to get out of this hole. This hole of not feeling anything. I was in the same spot three years ago, ended up in therapy. It helped. It did. But now I’m back.

The only way to get out is to do it. And I don’t want to and I can’t […]

I already posted on here, and I’m sorry if I get annoying, but this is the only place where I can let it out where people won’t hurt me. I feel so alone and sad and like no one cares. I’m crying for no reason, sobbing, really. I can’t take it anymore. Every time I try to get help, I’m shut down by others. They don’t say anything other than oh…or something of that sort. I just want to cry and let it all out and have someone hug me and tell me everything’s going to be ok, that will listen. Someone who understands, who […]

Things were starting to look up, but it’s all coming crashing down. I was getting stronger, not having the violent and/or scary thoughts anymore, my grades were getting better, and I was just starting to go back to my old self. Today I realized that I’m apparently not ok. A girl working in my group on a project we presented today shoved my copy in my face snobbily sarcastically thanking me for my help. I tried to help write it in class, but she took it home and never contacted the rest of us like she was supposed to, so she ended up doing it […]

I’ve had about a week of feeling completely robotic.  I just keep doing things to distract myself from my own head.  It’s seems as though as long as my hands are occupied, my brain is going to stay quiet.  But I have to go to bed eventually, I need to sleep.  I have so much time to myself.  I like being by myself, but the thoughts are hard to control.

I had a bad day a couple days back from this one (worse than the usual bad), and I let loose for the first time in a long time.  I cut 26 times, all in places […]

I can’t keep this up. I always fall for the wrong guys and I’m starting to hate myself. I hate the way I’m too nice. I hate the way all I want is attention and I work so hard for them to notice me and they don’t.. I hate everything. I hate my body. I hate my smile. I hate my laugh. I hate everything.

So, the story is that… I live with my grandparents, my dad died when I was seven by shootin himself..and my mom wants everything to do with me now. But didn’t when I was born.. Today, my grandparents don’t want anything to do with me because I party and leave “home” to much,yet when I am home no one shows their love or shows that they want me there. I party to get all the hate and pain off my mind.. My grandparents hit me occasionally and that’s another reason I don’t want to be here. It’s hard to live with people that say stuff […]