If i’m only 18, why do i feel like my life is over? I ask that question as if I dont know why. I wont sit here and complain about how I have no friends. Any friends i had, i lost a while ago to death…or something worse. What am i doing here? Why am I trying to find evidence that there’s going to be more to life than this…when you get tired you sleep, right? What do you do when you get tired of life?…You sleep…

I’m a freshmen in college and I have not made alot of friends. I started getting anxious junior year of high school and it ended up being a social thing where i felt like i was constantly being judged by EVERYONE and still do. Either the social anxiety has caused me to be deeply depressed for about 2 and a half years or the depression has made me so withdrawn from being social with old friends and trying to meet new friends that my life has become a very boring one.

For an extrovert like myself it is literally torture to be sitting in my room […]

I am cold and callus. I am a *****. I am always tired, no matter how much I sleep. I am always angry, always upset, and my days seem to have become very very long. I am very young but I despise the person I am. I always have. Not even eighteen, and I already believe that it isn’t going to get better. I am unhappy. I can’t be proud of myself. I can’t be around my friends anymore. I have no love in my life because I don’t know how to accept it. I am too afraid to talk to anyone. I need help. […]

awake again…anybody wanna talk?

Just recently in January on the 14th, my BFF committed suicide. She was basically the only one I had to keep me thinking positive and always knew something was wrong. I miss her hugs, her laugh, her boston accent even though we don’t live in Mass.

Me and her were both “depressed”, going through hard times in both of our lives. Except, the only thing that was holding her down was her sexuality and Bipolar disorder. I was being bullied and heart broken almost every day.

She was a cutter and harm, I was a screamer and a crier. Still am.

If only she was […]

In my bedroom closet, I tend to write out how I am feeling about probelms that make me want to kill myself. Most of them are about my parents and how I feel that they never make me feel appreciated.
On the wall one of the messages talk about how my mom always takes sides with. My 5 yr old brother. It gets annoying to know that she has favorites already. I renenber one time when I was upstairs in my room and my brother who was downstairs started crying. Automatically […]

Im A Female .. Who Keeps Emotions Bottled Up. UNTILL THEY EXPLODE !!!!! Which Makes Me Go Crazy And What Makes Me Look Crazy. Im So Depressed And Theres Nothing Helping. I Just Want To Die. 🙁 And Its Ashame I Don’t Know WHYYY !

I Have Depression .. Really Bad. I Get Blamed For Everything, I Find My Self Ugly , Fat Or Even No Good! When People Tell Me Im Pretty I Think There Lying. When Im Upset And Somebody Askes Me “Whats Wrong” I Usually End Up Crying Right At That Moment. I Been To A Clinic To Get Help. Im Now On Depression Meds Now! When Im Upsett Or Real Low The First Thing That Comes To My Mind Is Suicide. It Feels Like I Have No One To Talk To. To Trust. I Feel As Though Im A Loser 🙁 I Get Picked On At […]

After my marriage broke down Dec 21st 1995, I was locked out of my place. I had lost my family, had no work, and was homeless. The long, and short of it, I went back to the townhouse took a bunch of Ritalin. I went to a motel in Vernon B.C.
and overdosed. Fortunately I ended up in a hospital in Vancouver. I should of died the doctor told me. By the grace of God
I survived.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xe2ixspWuvc

im really confused D:
this site confuses me :\\

Drones since the dawn of time
Compelled to live your sheltered lives
Not once has anyone ever seen
Such a rise of pure hypocracy
I’ll instigate I’ll free your mind
I’ll show you what I’ve known all this time

God Hates Us All, God Hates Us All
You know it’s true God hates this place
You know it’s true he hates this race

Homicide-Suicide
Hate heals, you should try it sometime
Strive for Peace with acts of war
The beauty of death we all adore
I have no faith distracting me
I know why your prayers will never be answered

God Hates Us All; God Hates Us All

my baby girl loves me. I know she does. I love her, so I hold her as I cry, or I force myself to smile back at her. It feels like my life is falling apart right now. Maybe it’s not, but how do I know? I have made so many mistakes. And I googled the phrase “would someone care if I die”, even though I know the answer. She would care. She loves me, and I love her. So I bear on. And sometimes I think :”she doesn’t deserve a broken mother” maybe if I… But no. No one will love her as much […]

http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Place-In-My-Heart-For-Broken-People/2097905

http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Place-In-My-Heart-For-Broken-People/2037075?csb=true

http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Place-In-My-Heart-For-Broken-People/2006073?csb=true

http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Place-In-My-Heart-For-Broken-People/1118092

http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Place-In-My-Heart-For-Broken-People/2097749

Hi
This is my 3rd time posting on this website, i guess it’s because i have no one else. I am getting more and more depressed every day and don’t no what to do.I was thinking of taking an overdose when i looked up consequences of an overdose and it said brain damage and that put me off that idea.
I have being depressed for nearly two years now and i guess things are getting worse and worse lately. i think it was my friends that kept me on the right path, but now i’m no longer friends with them. i suppose i have […]

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keep on believing guys,

it’s not the end<3

i’ve been through it, and i’m alive.

now my job is to keep you alive too

Just today one of friends told my other friend that she was ugly, fat, a hoe, obnoxious, and that she should just die. My friend was at home when she got called those disgusting names and was told that rude comment,plus she had the flu and she felt awful. Of couse she got the message on facebook the one place where you can talk trash to somebody without them phisically hurting you. I stood up for my friend because we are best friends aand just because I’m friends wih the other girl neverr meant that I had to agree with her. In fact I […]

Okay so I am making an effort right now to talk.  My hands are busy on the keyboard but my self control is kind of waning.  But I thought I would try and talk instead.  Will someone talk to me?  I tried calling a friend but that didn’t work.

It was valentines day, the day of love, and it was perfect. Things went on normally as they do, except everything was just so much more happier. Because as i had suspected, it would all just go down the drain instantly. Like it always does, i can’t have a great day without something twisted and messed up happening. So it’s 6:30pm and i get back from my new job i was working at [I just got fired from that job as well]. I get called into the residential advisors office because he was looking for me, really, really bad. I thought i was in alot […]

So, my mother keeps a bottle of her Ambien hidden in her dresser, and I’m usually home alone for about 4-5 hours on weekdays, 10 hours on Friday nights. I keep planning, saying my goodbyes over and over again, but every time it comes to that time, I freeze up. Not because of myself, but because I’m afraid how it will effect the people I care about. It’s a hard thing to think about, balancing a pill between your lips and debating what impact you’ve made on the people around you, no matter how small. Then of course, there’s the fear I’ll find myself  awake, and […]