she said that to me three times at 11:09. at 11:10. i smiled. i haven’t stopped. i love you too. im scared tho…
So I forgot to close out this website before letting my mom borrow my computer. I don’t want to talk to her about it. Why? Because there is no communicating with her. I’ve tried before. -chuckles- You know what she said? “If you do it don’t do it here”. Like that is going to make me open up to her. I wont say I HATE my mother, cause I don’t except when I’m mad lol but I do dislike her ALOT. I just don’t understand why people are so blind. I’m not perfect. There I said it. But I am trying to work on myself […]
Suicide, suicide
Your presence is near
Suicide, suicide
I wish you were here
Suicide, suicide
Take me away
Suicide, suicide
Please make it today
Suicide, suicide
An answer, for me
Suicide, suicide
I need to escape, be free
Suicide, suicide
I’ve had too much
Suicide, suicide
Take me, do your touch
Suicide, suicide
Leave the rest behind
Suicide, suicide
You’re all over my mind
Suicide, suicide
Let me pass in peace
Suicide, suicide
I need to release
i find myself smiling a lot. mainly because of A.S as i talked about in a previous post. there aren’t to many people on this earth that can make me smile and happy and actually truly laugh every time they open their mouth…. 3 to be exact… i wonder whats gonna happen when they leave me like everyone else.
I used to be a happy girl that is contented with what I have in life. But not anymore, I’ve actually grown kind of tired living in this horribly morbid world. I have just turned 23, and for the past 22 years or so at least since the day I could remember, I give my best in everything that I do. Yes I admit that sometimes I am lazy and all but when it comes to work I make sure I give it my best.
There is something I never understood though – I offer the best that I can to my family and friends and […]
Thank you, Lord!.
Thank you, Father!.
Thank you, God!.
You truly are the path of happiness and joy.
I have never in my life felt more happy than now at this very moment.
The darkness of the world confuses us, and makes us pursue earthly desires… money, vanity, lust, fame, food….
Lord break our chains to these sins. We have become slowly slaves to these earthly desires. We wallow in our sins, and we rationalize to ourselves that this is the way. That such pleasures that never fill but increase our void is what is right.
Lord break our chains to these sins. Let us break free. Slaves no more […]
I cut myself again. I guess I don’t really mind because at least now I can think straight….. It’s been two days since my first attempt….. I honestly didn’t think that i was gonna fail either…. for some reason i know for sure that im going to try again…. Is this insane???
I’m still wrestling with the thought of being remembered as a coward for “choosing the easy way out”……but to be honest that choice i made 2 days ago, to end it all AND go through with it….it was one of the hardest choices ive ever had to make….. anyways I have another question: What […]
i wish everyone will die. i wish my family will just drop dead. i hate this fucking world they put me in. they have no right to give birth to me. they have no right to make me suffer. im not ever going to be normal like everyone else. im just me, me myself. nothing will ever change. i dont want to change either. i try to be nice but i get hurt. if i have fire, i will burn my house down and everyone will just die. isnt that nice? if they have the right to give birth to me, don’t i have the […]
it irritates me soooo godamn much how everyone try to downplay my feelings and coin it as a sort of illness that can be overcome if I try. I’m not looking for sympathy. i don’t care about that either. ppl telling me im still young, i need to see a doc and such really ticks me off. when im angry, i throw things. okay, face it u do-gooders. u arent gonna save us. we dont need u saving. take ur nice ass off somewhere else. im trying my godamn best to live on. i dont need ppl saying to buck up, to try harder when im […]
I’m 58 years old, working in Iraq so my wife could spend time with her sister and our nephew who died of brain cancer 1-Nov-11. I came here for her, for my family and stayed though I hated being away from my home and family, I stayed because they were proud of me.
Up until coming here in May-2011, the longest I’ve been separated from my wife was three weeks while she visited our son in Japan. She has wanted to go to Japan for as long as I’ve known her and when our granddaughter was born there, my son was in […]
This prayer really touched my heart.
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, faith.
Where there is despair, hope.
Where there is darkness, light.
Where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive.
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
Amen.
Hello, I’m a 21 year old male who has been struggling to find a reason to live. I’ve thought about suicide quite a few times but deep down, I know I am not capable of it. Instead, I suffer through deep depression, which is always sparked by the simple question of ‘Why?’ I know this answer is unique to every individual, but I was wondering, as an individual yourself, what is your reason to live?
So who all on here self-harms? I’m just curious because I do and have been for about 6 years now. I’ve been trying to stop but I’ve been having a hard time with it. My progress has been great though. I just keep having little slip ups and do it about once every month now. Has anyone ever completely stopped self-harming? And how did you do it? Was it difficult to stop? I just want to hear from somebody who has gone or is going through the same thing I’m going through. None of my friends had a hard time quitting and I’m the only […]
kay so i really want to make a difference. like do something! you know what i mean? but i have no strong feeling about any idea. well kinda stereotyping and stuff but how can i stop that? i want to make a movement type of thing… i need ideas and people
anyone willing to be with me on this? email me morgie222@hotmail.com.
I’m serious about this!!
Yesterday? It’s 2.49 am. I don’t want to be 21. It’s a bloody Black Jack number -_-
So that’s what i am now… Black Jack? I really don’t want to be 21. I hate it. It means I’m one step closer to the year ending. There’s nothing for me there. Not that i can own up to.
But i don’t want to die. I’m in limbo, and everything is so dizzy outside.
As you may have noticed, I write a lot. I came across this website in an effort to find some research for a very large essay I’m writing. Needless to say, your stories and poems moved me to tears. I know where most of you are coming from and I too often contemplated suicide. But I made the decision to share the times in my life when I believed I couldn’t move on. That is why these stories are here. My hope is that someone will be able to read my story, relate to it and realize they’ re not alone. You can do this, […]
Im a 16 year old on break, not alot of plans, wouldnt mind helping someone, send me an email jmtoverbeck@gmail.com, if u have an american number send me your number and we can txt
I don’t particularly think my story is of any significance, nor do I think anything particularly bad has happened to me, but I shall share my story anyway because of the simple fact that I want to.
I shall begin with the fact that I’ve always hated my father, as far back as I can remember he has always annoyed me, with his selfishness, lack of manners and personal space, I swear, if I even began insulting him, I could never stop. People say I have a really good memory but the truth is, I don’t I can’t exactly remember anything before the age of […]
Two friends, archeology and medical students, had no choice but to work as gravediggers but one day they made it big running a very expensive suicide hotline… and causing many deaths.
http://adam-niezgoda.blogspot.com/
I’m a roller coaster that won’t let me off. Sometimes I’m at the top of the world other days the world is smothering me. I’ve told my story to alot of people, i don’t really know why, maybe cause I love to talk. *shrugs*
1. Mother was a drug addict (never saw her doing any)
2. Was in foster care (but saw my parents and got to stay with my many siblings, five of us)
3. Molested and Anally raped twice by my own family (But I forgave them, I mean we were kids, they didn’t know any better)
-Think this contributes to my sexual issues. Lost my virginity […]