LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

it irritates me soooo godamn much how everyone try to downplay my feelings and coin it as a sort of illness that can be overcome if I try. I’m not looking for sympathy. i don’t care about that either. ppl telling me im still young, i need to see a doc and such really ticks me off. when im angry, i throw things. okay, face it u do-gooders. u arent gonna save us. we dont need u saving. take ur nice ass off somewhere else. im trying my godamn best to live on. i dont need ppl saying to buck up, to try harder when im fucking doing it already. so what if i throw things? i dont break things. they dont break. books, stationary, wallet, phone etc. yes, i need to vent. if not i cut. if nt i hurt. why can ppl understand that? accept what we are. i dont go ard hurting ppl. plsss leave me alone. u’re the one who’s hurting me. every do-gooders on this site too. ur encouragments are poison and u probably enjoy that too. our struggle to u must seem funny. trying to help? hah! before u do, why dont u just accept that i hurt, that im in pain and im already doing everything i can. oh, and just bcuz i was never abuse, doesnt mean im making a fuss over something minor. hurt goes all ways. nt just physical. if u want physical,yah ***** i cut. yah, my dad dont beat me up. so what? im at fault. the most funninest thing is i talk to suicidals and what they practically tell me in my face is that i have never been thru what they have and im in no position to talk to them abt my feelings. gosh, perhaps dad need to beat me now. period.