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Had to tell somebody

by jennjenn 1/20/2015

written by jennjenn

So for starters, I’ve tried to commit suicide maybe half a dozen times. Through pills, a few vain attempts at cutting my wrists, which have left my arms embarrassing and cumbersome for finding work. I have been a cutter since I was 15, but those scars are hidden.

I used drugs for many years, meth, x, and shot coke for awhile. Well, I did it, I quit drugs. At 22, but than I started drinking. Real fun drinking, but managed to keep a job. When I didnt have a job, I drank all day and all night.

So I meet a man. Also an alcoholic. We moved […]

1/20/2015 3 comments

My story… And still no recovery

by Mercy 1/6/2015

written by Mercy

I am not normal… well lets face it is anyone truly “normal”? I’ve always had problems as a child with bullying I never really had any friends as well, no one I could really trust anyhow.. I was always to myself very secluded and alone… Then just as I thought things were looking up for me…. everything fell right back down with no ladder to climb out of.

It was my sophomore year of high school and I finally felt for the first time in a long time I belonged somewhere, I fitted in…

I even met these two girls, and at the time I thought they […]

1/6/2015 4 comments

I want to cut

by gabreialla 12/23/2014

written by gabreialla

I want to end up my pain not my life but to end up this horrible pain I need to die. I want to cut my hand’s arteries so I would die quickly in 15 minutes so even if they took me to the emergency there will be no time to save my life . I think this is the best solution for everyone and to make everyone happy . I don’t know when will I cut because I want to say bye to some people . thank you everyone in this website yes you were strangers but you helped me more than […]

12/23/2014 8 comments

Nobody Dictates Me

by IndigoMasquerade 12/15/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

My “friends” have been cut from my life because they always believed it was fair that they could get mad at each other, but I couldn’t get mad at either of them without severe punishment. My family is starting to act the same way. My sister will confront me and threaten me if I get mad at my mother or grandmother, and my mother will do the same if I get mad at my sisters. It’s not reciprocated though. If someone gets mad at me, nobody fucking cares. These people who are supposed to love me and care about me don’t listen when I try […]

12/15/2014 2 comments

i want to die

by hbw 12/9/2014

written by hbw

12/9/2014 8 comments

113 years

by jaberpuddle 11/24/2014

written by jaberpuddle

I have believed ever since i survied a suisied attempt at age 15 that i will live 113 years. i am 50, almost 1/2 way there. every day, i choose to live. i also believe that if i meet God,after a natural death, i will ask it if i could please not exsist . i don’t see myself chill’n with God for an infinit amount of time.

being married helps. so does having 5 cats. i had plants, but plants & cats do not mix.

to the owners of this web site, thanks for the safe place to let this out. i feel about 5 lbs. lighter.

11/24/2014 0 comment

How Do I Fix This?

by marypie2000 11/16/2014

written by marypie2000

Hi, My name is Mary Jean. I have this small problem, well I guess you could say it isn’t small. I have been trapped in a world of self harm and self hate for nearly 4 years. The biggest reason is the huge rumors going around that I can’t ever seem to stop. They all keep asking me if I’m pregnant, which can’t possibly be true.. because I’m a lesbian. Shocker.. right? This girl named Caytlin has been helping me through my problems since the beginning of this school year. I’m head over heels for her and I know that she is, or at least was head […]

11/16/2014 1 comment

I’m Sorry

by Skeleton100 11/13/2014

written by Skeleton100

I really am sorry. There’s no reason to complain. I have a supportive family. I’m not starving. I’m just a selfish self-absorbed pathetic shrimp. And yet, I hate falling asleep because I know I’ll wake up to morning light, and another 15 hours of pain and guilt.

I dream of a spontaneous accident. I wouldn’t have to raid the medicine cabinet for a “suicide attempt”, only to detonate my liver.

I don’t even cry anymore. I don’t feel anything, really. I’m just a blob, a shell. A disgusting grey mouse. People suffer in the world, yet my scope of life revolves around my trivial problems.

Please, be honest […]

11/13/2014 2 comments

I hate myself

by angelamarie 11/12/2014

written by angelamarie

Ever since I was little I dealt with a tumultuous relationship between my mom, my dad and my brothers. I’ve been abused my whole life. I use sex as a way to feel loved. I’ve had over 15 sex partners and I’m not even 18. I hate my brother most of all. He rubs his achievements in my face like he’s better than me. He makes fun of me cuz I had to stay back my freshman year of high school. I do recreational drugs to numb how I feel. But sometimes, I just want to die. I don’t want to feel anything anymore and […]

11/12/2014 4 comments

Should I go to the ER

by kat.fizzy 11/5/2014

written by kat.fizzy

I just took 15 ibuprofen . I did it because I want my parents to know I need help. I don’t want to die. I’m home alone should I call my dad to take me to the ER? PLEASE HELP I DONT WANT TO DIE 🙁

11/5/2014 6 comments

my first post

by mad_shit 10/1/2014

written by mad_shit

i have been an unwanted child of my parents since my birth. My old fukking asshole of a father didn’t realize the mistake that he was going to commit on that unfortunate fukking day. it kind of just happenned and I got fukking born.

Now this is only the start of my fukking life and I have been wanting to kill myself for over a fukking 15 years, but somehow have still not been able to do and am fukking living on.

Have read the peaceful pill over a dozen times, but can’t find the fukking ******** or the fukking exit bag. Have decided on CO death, and […]

10/1/2014 2 comments

Trying something new

by timetogonow 9/30/2014

written by timetogonow

Instead of taking a bunch of pills in one go as I have done in the past, I have been taking 15 extra strength Tylenol a day with alcohol. This way, I won’t puke it all up. Wish me luck.

9/30/2014 18 comments

Painless suicide

by B 9/27/2014

written by B

I know there are endless threads on this topic but I can’t seem to find a consistent answer. Does anyone know of a painless way to commit suicide (either from research or from a painless past overdose)? I do not know if I will get a response and if I do receive one I am not looking for some form of moral support. I understand that there is much to take out of life and that, as the 15 year old I am, I have not yet experienced many of the joys life has to offer, but I have suffered for too long. Medications and […]

9/27/2014 8 comments

Decided to join…

by lightweight 9/24/2014

written by lightweight

I survived a rather serious attempt on my own life almost exactly 15 years ago. To be honest, there have been a lot of times since that I have felt truly sorry I failed. Unfortunately, it seems like this is more and more the case.

At any rate, I thought I would try to participate in this community a bit. If you are reading this, you are already probably aware that “normal” people don’t understand what this is like. Indeed, they freak out. Maybe there will be […]

9/24/2014 4 comments

Broken…

by thepillboy 9/19/2014

written by thepillboy

This whole thing started about 5 years ago…i was 15 then…life started to hit me even harder than before…i grew with my grandparents,not so nice,they we’re always fighting over silly things,my grandpa was an alcoholic dog,my grandma was always nice,miss her btw ^^.I grew with my grandparents because my parents left the country when i was 8.So,after my 15 th birthday,you know,puberty,all of that shit,started to smoke,drink,party,it was good,you know,so good,until love started to hit me like an hurricane,i was so in love…she knew,i told her so many times,but she didn’t care…for 2 years i couldn’t stop thinking about her…that’s not nice…a few sleepless nights,drinking […]

9/19/2014 3 comments

what would have to change for you to stop considering suicide?

by 45caliberdeath 9/7/2014

written by 45caliberdeath

I’ve been thinking about suicide for the last 15 years and at times, the only thing stopping me from doing it was fear of pain and surviving with brain damage (I could only kill myself with a gun or possibly hanging if I could figure out how to get partial suspension hanging right). But I realize that there are things that could make my life better and stop me from considering the suicide route, if only temporarily.

For me, it would have to be forging a deep important commitment to someone or something. I would have to learn to forget or not think about all the […]

9/7/2014 36 comments

My wings are tired…

by killthemallthenkillme 9/6/2014

written by killthemallthenkillme

I my name is G.O. and i have 15 years, i know dat maybe im too young, but my life has been shit since mmmm ever?My family is so f***** up, my dad is a bastard, since i was 4 he would always beat me up and my mum would only say”ohh it’s your fault, u know how is ur father” … 3 years ago my dad divorced from that slut of my mum”she was a gold digg, i could always see her wit some dude, my dad didn t care, he was whoring 2…”

Then at 12 i thinked that i could become happy witout […]

9/6/2014 1 comment

Feeling sad

by candygrl 8/18/2014

written by candygrl

Im feeling very sad! Extremely lonely, hopelessness is like a black hole Ive fallen into. Some days are ok, some days I just want to sleep all day! Weekends seem to be the hardest to bare because I live alone and have no one to hangout with! My boyfriend has been pulling away from me for the past month, we haven’t spoken in days! He’s angry with me because I didn’t answer my phone for a whole entire day! Really, I called him 15 times in 3 days with no answer and he is furious with me for ignoring him for a day! I had […]

8/18/2014 14 comments

wow! this place exists.

by heliumhood 8/17/2014

written by heliumhood

I’m new to this site, so hello and hi to everyone.

I’m a man in my 40’s based in the UK. Up until 2 years ago I had everything I wanted in my life. It was then that one person’s vitriol cast a shadow over my life, that can never ever be lifted. I’m in a long term loving relationship (15 years), and I’m trusted implicitly by this person, and this person has never doubted me for even a second.

I have decided that I wish to embark on the journey of self deliverance in approximately 3 months time.

Why the delay? I have to prove my innocence […]

8/17/2014 8 comments

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