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I am a complete disaster today

by claritee 3/8/2016

written by claritee

I woke up completely unhappy and lonely. I tried to take a shower, turned on the water and just collapsed into the corner. I was annoyed at myself afterward for leaving the water running, such a waste of water. I was in the corner for like an hour.

I don’t understand why I have to be this way! I walked into the kitchen afterward… and seen knives and had every desire in the world to end it right then and there. I ran to my bedroom and just got under the covers. I finally got strength from somewhere and started feeling a bit better, but I […]

3/8/2016 5 comments

Why does everybody only see my mask??

by Engeltje 1/16/2013

written by Engeltje

Why??!! Why??!! Why does everybody always say that I’m happy, and I’m funny and laughing and stuff?! Do they really don’t see that HUGE mask I wear most of the time??? It’s just so crazy. Today too, I was at the part-time therapy (monday till friday from 9am till 3pm) and the group and the therapists thought that I was happy and that everything was okay, and so on. And that while they know I wear often a mask and that it goes really bad with me right now. But how hard I tried, they wouldn’t believe me I’m feeling really bad and that all […]

1/16/2013 9 comments

Forever Trapped

by newsflash 9/20/2012

written by newsflash

Normally when I have aÂ flashback or nightmareÂ I write about it in my journal. Today I decided to post about it on here just so that I don’t have to keep this mess hidden inside me. This is hard for me to write about so I’m sorry if it doesn’t make too much sense.

I don’t usually have good sleeps, some nights I don’t sleep at all. I’m terrified of the dark in fear of my abusers getting me. Last night I dozed off, I didn’t fall asleep, just went into a trance to try to calm myself. Around 10am this morning I was triggered when I […]

9/20/2012 4 comments

im crushed. im hurt. ive hit rock bottom.im screaming for help but no one cares no one is listening.

by thegirlwhocryedwolf 1/18/2012

written by thegirlwhocryedwolf

I very much hope that at least one person

in the entire world reads this,because

it would make me feel as though someone

somewhere gives one single flying fuck about me.

I did a stupid thing I put my heart out there

and ended up getting crushed

So here’s the story is:

Jasmine, her boyfriend James,and his brother Nick where having a

sleep over at jasmines house.They only invited Nick because

Jasmine thought I would come over to keep him company.

He had recently been dumped and he was a bit sad.

But I was at my dads house for the weekend.

So since Nick felt like a third wheel James asked if I would […]

1/18/2012 11 comments