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Absolute hopelessness

by Agiroso 5/9/2015

written by Agiroso

So you think you have had a bad life? Well let me give you some insight on what a bad life is…I was conceived by a teenage girl with a teenage boy, of whom she does not know who my father may be. She had planned on having me in her bedroom closet, and then who knows what would have happened to me.

After discovering that my egg donor was pregnant, my grandparents forced her give put me up for adoption.

I cant ant say anything really terrible while I was a child, other than being molested by my “brother”.

I was a rather strong willed child, with […]

5/9/2015 2 comments

Darkness imprisoning me All that I see Absolute horror I cannot live I cannot die Trapped in myself Body my holding cell

by bornfordying123 7/2/2014

written by bornfordying123

Metallica – One

7/2/2014 2 comments

by Zephyrus 5/1/2014

written by Zephyrus

“Deceit dispels the boredom of the Absolute.”
— Dejan Stojanovic

5/1/2014 0 comment

Too far gone…

by r3a9an 5/19/2013

written by r3a9an

I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m extremely suicidal, I have no fear of death and I welcome it’s emptiness. However, I have this insane little happy part of myself that won’t shut up about all of my hopes and dreams and how they could still happen. I really feel like two people at once sometimes. I don’t know whether to feel good or bad that they both agree I’m ugly and look nothing like they do in my head. (I have a lot of self-hate.)

I think it might be worse because I don’t feel like I have the right to feel this way. […]

5/19/2013 5 comments

It’s been a while..

by Foreverdancing26 5/8/2013

written by Foreverdancing26

So it’s been a while since I’ve posted… Hope everyone’s surviving. Overall, I’ve been ok. Since my last post, I’ve been in therapy to attempt to put an end to my cutting. I had been clean for 3 months. A few days ago I cut for no reason, absolutely none. I just made up my mind and did it. Since then, I decided to ask for an antidepressant and my therapist was all for it.

She said it will be easier to listen to the rational voice in my head, I really hope she’s right. Living has been an absolute struggle. I want to be ok, […]

5/8/2013 2 comments

Maybe i might be getting somewhere…?

by lonelyinside 3/20/2013

written by lonelyinside

wow, what i crazy past few weeks.

lets see, um i week ago, after not being able to talk to my bf for over a week, he actually messaged me back saying that it wasnt going to work out.. that he only asked me out on spur of the moment feelings and that he did care about me… what a load of crap. I actually did cut some more, and i do regret them this time. For once, i actually found someone that i wanted to be with and he dumped me. I feel like absolute shit.

Anyway my 16th birthday is in 25 days and my […]

3/20/2013 0 comment

It’s killing me.

by greygirl 2/5/2013

written by greygirl

Long story – Short(Believe me, I tried):

I was 17 last year making my brother 23. He started seeing one my absolute best friends until she decided to start dating someone who could be around more, his work kept him out of town.

He told me that it really hurt him and we bonded over it… or so I thought. I had a complete falling out with one of my oldest friends and he decided to take her virginity as a way to get back at my best friend. He’s not very mature for his age – I know, and hes been told by many, including my […]

2/5/2013 2 comments

i wish i lived back in the old days…

by Angel 10/21/2012

written by Angel

do you enjoy starting drama? i cant love my family because all they want to do is start drama because its what you thrive on. my father hid me and my sister from the world just so we wouldn’t end up like them and now we have terrible social skills, shes doing better than me though, i cant make friends because when i try to reach out to people they think im creepy or weird. all the people that supposedly love me keep treating me like dirt. i cant find my way and i just dont know what to do anymore but look back on […]

10/21/2012 1 comment

I Exploded Again

by alance 6/18/2012

written by alance

There’s no way to even really describe this. My god, all I wanted was to convey the terrifying EXPLOSIVE power of what happens within me, but I’ve no idea how.

I get angry. Or rather, perhaps I’m always angry, it just get buried nice and deep until I’m numb numb numb numb numb numb

And then everything starts combusting within me. And all I want is to SCREAAAAAAAAM. But I never do. I never do. It’s always just an internal internal scream of despair or anger or sadness or loneliness or DISGUST. Oh yes, a word I know well. Absolute, vile, putrid, festering, poisonous DISGUST. At people, […]

6/18/2012 2 comments

I feel infinite

by annabelle_lee 3/12/2012

written by annabelle_lee

“And I swear at that moment, we were infinite”

Is my favorite quote from my favorite book Perks of being a wallflower.

I must have read that book a thousand times, it always use to help me when I felt down, and I had a lot of favorite quotes from the book, that’s myÂ absoluteÂ favorite, because I think we’ve all felt infinite at one point or another.

One time I felt like that, is on Halloween when I was really little and I was trick or treating, and I saw the moon and it was big and full and I couldn’t stop staring at it because I thought it […]

3/12/2012 4 comments