I am not a wall
I am not a door,
Why is it okay for me to always be ignored?
Lack of importance, lack of self-respect
Suicide conquers alot of people,
please let me be the next.
Day by day,Night by niight
No more battling
I can’t win this fight.
Scars are there to remind me, how I used to feel,
but I take a step back to look,
nothing seems to be real.
I go through the motions,
every fucking day,
but when you ask me what’s wrong,
I don’t know what to say.
Darkness is around me,
everywhere I turn,
Happiness is what […]
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Since I was born my dad has beat me for everthing!! He has made me a baseball player and anytime I would mess up he would probably leave me at the place I messed up and always hit me and tell me horrible stuff ! He even hit me hard if I just got on his nerves. He told me that alot of people are better than me at a lot of things and that i’m not his son. And since 8th grade my grades have dropped by a lot and he tells me that im worthless. My mom barely talks to me.i have […]
I shouldn’t complain about my life.It’s not like I wasn’t hugged as a child or anything. I should be strong like my dad and not complain about anything.I wish I could just stand there and take what life throws at me, but I can’t.And that is why i’m worthless.I know i’m not the first girl to be bullied at school ,to have to experiance death of a friend, Not the first teenager who feels like she is the stupid kid or the first girl in the world to get moslested or the first kid to get pushed around the hospitals phyicatric wards’ system when I […]
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i just wanna write something what i think of stuff, hope you can underestand what i mean because english is not my first language. I found this page by searching google for information about hanging. Sitting in my room alone ( im not going to kill myself) just thinking about that if someone wants to kill themselves they should be allowed to. If youre over 18 and havnt got any mental health problems which would affect your ability to make decisions. its your decision and alot of people are lying that they care and just talking stuff like they know but they just saying […]
i no alot of people here are probley going through worse then i am but i still would like to share my story so here it goes………….
in 1999 my parents and older sister older brother and younger brother and me wwere all drivin and we got in a wreck killen all of us exept me iwas onlyy 2 and i had to liv in an orphange and it was very scary in there wen u r that young but wen i was 9 i was adopted. iwish she didnt even see me that day because wen i was 13 she pulled me out of school […]
So I’m startinq to let the real me out.I miss sayinq bi power on my status on Myspace lol.(Like three years aqo)I don’t know If I am bisexual.I’ve refused to answer that question In the past year and a half.Am I still attracted to boys???I don’t know,I just don’t know but I love qays tho!Yall judqe to much tho.It started when I was In eiqhth qrade.I started to qo boy huntinq with my old bestfriend causse I didn’t want her and my ex to do It and I quess I qrowed a feelinq for them.I only told three close friends,One was my old bestfriend.Couple days later two […]
Everyone Thinks That I have It All,
But Its So Empty Living Behind These Castle Walls,
If I Should Tumble,
If I Should Fall,
Would Anyone Hearing Me Screaming Behind These Castle Walls,
There’s No One Here At All,
Behind These Castle Walls.
I live a very different life. This is my first time trying something like this, I’m not doing this with the intention that it’ll bring me pity or sympathy from others, Im doing this hoping that it’ll bring me some FORM of peace.
Im not like alot of people out there. I live a very different life. Luxuries people would never even dream of. […]
For too long i have kept up this charade. Pretending to be happy when im not. Im probably like alot of people…for a long time, everything seemed to be going ok, and i had dreams and aspirations and a plan for my life.
But, somewhere along the way, i failed. And i dont have any resentments about it, i know most of the reason as to why i failed rests with me. Im not perfect, im sure if i worked harder, i couldve accomplished more, made something of myself. But, i didnt. I understand that, and thats not what really bothers me anyway.
For too long, my […]
well i hoped for a new start and i truly believed it would work , but the same as myself that failed , so im screwed i guess what to do now , well theres one thing in my mind and alot of people wont do it but ive heard about the helium hood method , it looks promising….heres hoping
ok so my problem is …. me and im ready to admit alot of mistakes iv made …. but im also ready for another life … death to me is freedom from my problems and i dont exspect alot of people to try and understand it …. i feal blocked out from this world and iv always felt iv never quite fited in .. yes i have met alot of people in my life and im happy i met them and wish them no harm but i want them to understand why im ready to die as why im rightin this .. not because i […]
Well I get high everyday !!!. I’m only 13 so I should stop. Well my self-esteem is really low. Alot of people calls me pretty but i just don’t see it. The sexual abuse I went through really tore me down completely!!! Well when i get high , that’s when i be having sex but I be telling myself im going to quit doing the stuff  im doing but when I smoke I feel happy , laugh more, and feel more prettier. Well everyone please give me advice