I don’t know, I’m bored. I slept all day. I have nothing to do. So I guess I’ll tell you my story. I’ve been cutting for 4 years now, it started out as something small. Just one cut, then two cuts, and then before I knew it I was cutting all the way up my arm and on my legs and thighs and my stomach. It’s now an addiction. Wether I’m feeling shitty or not. I need to cut. I want to cut. But I’ve tried suicide multiple times, I’ve chickened out a couple times, I’ve failed a couple times. But I woke up one […]
Do you get that?
Because you think everything is “boring and a waste of time.”  You can’t actually believe it… it must be an excuse to justify you doing nothing to change your life and start living on your own terms.
They know nothing of how hard exactly you’ve worked to change it and they assume that it is indeed possible to change.  Knowing nothing about you, this is the pure assumption they cling to to discredit how you really feel.  That it must be impossible for someone to take no pleasure in doing anything and find that the mere act of existing is the waste of […]
first sorry for bad english
This is the last year of my life if i dont change my life in the next 11 months i gonna kill myself so this is my story i am 25 year old and weight 45 kg(i am male) i eat 4-5 meals a day but i dont get weight, most of the time i am mistaken for a 15 year boy and its driving me nuts nobody takes me serios or always makes fun of me i dont mind about when somebody make fun of me because living in this skinny weakling body made me funny(o i just tink […]
I’ve never had a true friendship until I met my best friend/sisster/coach. I mean I’ve had friends but never one I could go to about anything. I’ve had fake friends, friends that used me, friends that left me, friends I’ve pushed away. It feels so good to have a true friend that knows everything and you can always go to. A friend that brings the best out in you. A friend that loves you for you and not the person you make everyone else fall for. A friend you trust with your life. One that will do anything for you. One that you will do […]
Today I’m going to lunch with my best friend/sisster. She knows my whole life story and I love her and respect her so much. I don’t know what I would do without her. She has been through a lot with me and I make up excuses and she doesn’t buy them so that’s how I know she will always be there for me know matter how many times I try to push her away. I’ve lost many friends buy pushing them away with all my excuses. I hope today goes well for me and I will let you all know how it goes.
I want to say hi
But do I dare?
I don’t want to be annoying
I don’t want to be clingy
I always start the conversations
Maybe you’re busy
I don’t want to annoy you
But I worry
So much
I guess maybe another time
I’ll say hi…
I feel so alone.
I know im not though, im surrounded by friends, a thing many people wish for and want.
But i feel so dead inside, I don’t feel happy underneath that grin. I act like a joking clown and don’t take many things seriously. In return, when i am serious, they don’t take regard of it and over look it as one of my jokes. I’ve tried telling them that i hurt, that im sad and pitiful and it makes me hate myself because i don’t deserve pity but, once again, they brush it off and walk away. I act like a hero when i […]
I really dont feel like i have a place in this world.. i was born to die young.. I just know it. I always think of myself and i cant do anything righ, i cant help people in any way.. I always push people away from me its pretty bad.. I just really dont have a talent. Im not smart. I cant write stories i cant sing i cant cheer anymore i messed my knee up. i cant help people out. i just cant do anything right. I dont want anybody to pity me thats the last thing i want.. if anybody watched the twilight […]
I know many of you appreciate a good read… I’m almost finished with this book and trust me….you need to read it….verrryyyy enlightening…
anyways….thats all….have a great day guys….and remember SP is always here to help 😀
I’ve been dealing with depression for half my life. Originally I thought that getting out of my parents house would help. there, I lived constantly waiting for the next incident, next fight, and the only way I ever learned to walk was on eggshells. I tried diving into painting, but it didn’t always work. By the time I graduated high school, I was cutting, throwing up and eating as little as possible almost every day.
I thought that moving away and attending college would help, but instead things only got worse. All of my bad behaviors became more frequent, to the point that they actually caused […]
Life does suck day in and day out. That’s just how it goes. Unfortunately, (and I know I say that a lot) we don’t really have a lot of control over it. Shit happens and you may get depressed… You may cut. You may even think about taking your own life away just so you don’t have to deal with anymore of it. But think, that boyfriend or girlfriend who just cheated on you, that boss that just fired you, or those damn teenagers who bully you whether it’s all the time or just once, can always fuck off and get lost. Stay strong guys.
Heaven has called yet another angel
I can’t believe you are gone, but you are loved. You were always happy with such a beautiful and angelic smile. You had the most amazing personality and I will remember all of the hugs.
Rest in peace
Rebecca Larson
You were a angel on earth but now you’ve earned your wings <3
it’s not a big problem, sorry. And I would have discuss it in a chat, but hey, it’s blocked here at my work.
Why on earth do I always feel so stupid, disappointed and empty when I ask someone to see me, and they can’t ? Really ? My mind knows it’s not personnal, but I can’t help the feelings. I rarely am courageous enough to offer activities to people, and when I do, it’s always like this. Well, maybe not always, but you know what I mean…
Okay well first of all Hi my name is Karalyn and this is my first post so yea, hi!
I am 12 years old [pretty young for this website I know..] Anyways,
I was at the mall with my older sister one time, and I wanted to go to Hot Topic, But every time I ask.. My sister would say “You’re a freak for walking in there and wearing their clothes” I don’t know if she notices but it hurts me and that’s one of the reasons I cry to school. I feel that everyone just thinks that I’m a freak who wears all black and band […]
dear friends, yesterday was very bad ,bad today is even worse.everytime im outside i feel like sinking in that sea of sadness ,im such a tiny creation in a huge world ,and in the middle of the crowd i walk alone witha noticable weary face
sometimes while im walking my tears would be falling down and i cant hold them from falling ,but i become so afread from other people s looks ,because i have always wished to be strong ,carefree and self confident ,i never understand why i cant acheive that .this is not the only thing i question myself about everyday […]
the frost of frozen thoughts do stay
where hidden creatures tend to lay
among the canyons of my brain
where ice has festered in my veins
this vacancy begins to curl
and thoughts begin to twist and swirl
where heat and fire once had burned
but nothing ever lasts I’ve learned
how could you be lost again?
I wonder just how long its been
I bet youre fleeing, running fast
and making sure its me you pass
my hearts a bowl of pain and glass
where emptiness has now amassed
carved hollow from the thought of you
but you never even had a clue
shes […]
Im writing this letter for me to get my thoughts and feelings out… the person this is meant for will never see this, will never know i wrote this, will never care i wrote this.
Dear abselom,
what can i say we’ve been through alot together. I was there for you when you wanted to end your life. I held you when you cried, i cried with you for you. I tried to make you smile when you were low. I was always by your side i tried the best i could to take your pain away. Then i broke. I was hurting and i finally told […]
Why bother in the world of inequality, where billionaires have everything and the masses are destitute. Why work, why slave over, why even participate in the game of social mores and maniacal head hunts. Maniacal CV and Resume sending. This is not the way life is supposed to be. Spend all your money on pleasure, and then let someone else play it. Fuck all the GDP statistics and the deranged global money-changers.
Even though I’ve had my reasons, I still don’t know why I’ve felt so unhappy all of this time, why I’ve never been a friend to myself.
I am a huge disappointment to my past and present self, and my dysfunctional-but-loving family…
In retrospect, despite my flaws, I was pretty cool as a kid, I think. I should’ve given myself a chance…
I am in my mid 20s.
I don’t have my driver’s license yet.
I have little to no work experience or college education.
I have absolutely no friends, not even acquaintances. I hung around a few of my classmates during my younger years, but they were more like acquaintances […]
You all think that I’m the one
Who should be helping you.
You all think I’ve got life figured out,
That I would never be taboo
You all think that I am perfect,
Reaching for the stars.
But really I’ve got issues
And they are leaving scars…
You all think that I am independent,
That I don’t need a helping hand
But my world sinks beneath me
As if it is made out of sand.
You’ve seen something sad
When you look into my eyes
But you can’t figure what it is,
You can’t identify.
You figure that it’s nothing,
A gleam from a light.
But you’re wrong, it’s […]