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Lies abnormality

by blackexile 2/12/2014

written by blackexile

So I think about suicide. I have been thinking about it for years now.

My biggest problem is when someone lies to your face and tells you that its weird to think about suicide. To make a decision on if you do so or not is based on ideas, opinions, or thoughts about suicide.

So yes I do think about suicide everyday. Which isn’t entirely too bad of a thing. For one it led me to this site. To make a decision on not to kill oneself also requires some serious thought. Weighing different outcomes, and evaluating ones life is necessary.

I apologize if I am rambling, but […]

2/12/2014 3 comments

Talk to you soon…

by LetItGo 2/12/2014

written by LetItGo

You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye

Alright guys… This might be my last post… Am I dying? Maybe. Am I going to kill myself? Maybe.

All you need to know is I am stopping with posting things. Why? Because. People are starting to worry about me. People are starting to care about me. That’s more people that will be hurt when I go. That’s more people that will be in pain when I leave. So… I guess this is a goodbye in it’s own way… I guess I shouldn’t say goodbye… More like. Talk to you soon….

2/12/2014 1 comment

Early tomorrow morning

by whyyyy 2/12/2014

written by whyyyy

Early tomorrow morning 02/13/14 I’m going to go and try to attempt to jump off a very tall bridge/canyon. I guess I’m here just saying that I don’t know if I’m 100 percent going to actually jump, but there is a very good chance. Â Some of you may know a little about myself from my last couple posts. I guess I am just writing this because it may be my last post and I hope all of Â you the very best. This site has helped me live a little bit longer and try and get through but there’s just to much pain to endure.

2/12/2014 6 comments

Why won’t it end?

by Deamonborn 2/12/2014

written by Deamonborn

Every day I go threw the same thing, constantly being picked on and being asked things like “Why can’t you be like everyone else?” or “Why can you just be normal?” or “Get over it you have no reason to feel bad.”

But I don’t want to be normal, or like everyone, and I do have reasons to feel bad… Every year I move some where new because of my parents money problems, I am all ways alone and forgotten about, and just wish to die sometimes…

I have tried cutting, but get caught before there is even a mark on me… I have tried using a […]

2/12/2014 7 comments

Nothing is right

by b5544 2/12/2014

written by b5544

A little over a year ago I met the love of my life. We had everything in common, he made me laugh, and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. For a few months, he seemed to be in love with me, too. But after a few months, he just lost interest in me. He stopped wanting to have sex and acted like he was annoyed of me and that I was a chore. We broke up and 2 months later he was dating someone else. The girl he started dating is beautiful, smart, and has lots of friends. They are […]

2/12/2014 5 comments

by LetItGo 2/11/2014

written by LetItGo

Everything I do is wrong

I, my life perspective is “bad”
I befriend “bad” people
I listen to “bad” music

I do things “wrong”
I dress “wrong”
I talk “wrong”

Everything I do is wrong

The way how I live is wrong
The way how I care for people is wrong
The way how I worry about people is wrong

Why?
Why is it wrong?
Why can people not accept that who I am is who I am?

Everything I do is wrong

I am a mistake
I am not supposed to live
I am not supposed to be here

2/11/2014 3 comments

Emptiness

by Agion 2/11/2014

written by Agion

I really don’t know what to do anymore.

Some call it a phase of life, others just a small crisis.

But I don’t know and I actually dont care.

I feel empty. Nothing excites me. I don’t have goals and no matter how much I search, I just feel that I will be put down.

Everything I do is put down. I got support, but what does that count? They wont be there forever.

I wonder, why was I born? I feel empty. Don’t feel joy actually and just waste my life.

I tried many times to kill myself, stabbing, hanging, drowning and even throw myself infront of a train or […]

2/11/2014 3 comments

Help

by creeper tales 2/11/2014

written by creeper tales

what do i do? do i give up? do i stay? why am i here? i need help. nobody listens. im so close. im completely ready. im going to end. but when/

2/11/2014 9 comments

personal benefits of living

by addicted 2/11/2014

written by addicted

Right time period for suicide is before my parents die

At least I will be sure that someone is there to cry and finish the formalities. Except that, I see zero benefits of living life.

life : 1 to 15 —-&—- 15 to 30 —-&——- 30 to *

1 to 15 years: beneficiaries are parents (enjoy the kids innocence, dominate them in the name of guiding them, abuse them, teach them carp)

15 to 30 years: beneficiary is rest of the world. World baits them with money & fame.

Let them work very hard to innovate, create a company or new product or work hard in a company.

In reality with […]

2/11/2014 4 comments

by LetItGo 2/11/2014

written by LetItGo

numb

is how i feel

broken

is what i am

pained

is how i am

lonely

is what i feel

LetItGo

is who i am

2/11/2014 2 comments

by LetItGo 2/11/2014

written by LetItGo

i dont know
what to say
the blinking cursor
is taunting me
its a blank page
a brand new post
what do i write?
do i write how i am?
do i write how you are?
do i write whatever?
i dont know really
i guess my message
for today,
that is within this poem
is;
im going to stop posting.
i cant take it
i have made more people
worry about me
more people think i matter
more people care about me
more people to bring pain to
when i say my final Au Revoir
its hurting me too

2/11/2014 1 comment

Day 28

by LetItGo 2/10/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Impeccably tired and I do not feel like writing at all what so ever so..

How are you?

Au Demain

PS: I am doing… *shrugs*

2/10/2014 3 comments

Depression eating me

by Eyeore 2/10/2014

written by Eyeore

Endless hours of unbearable pain.
Unbearable pain that cannot be explained
Why do I have to feel this way?
Canâ€™t this feeling of hopelessness just go away?
I am so tired, so fed up
Canâ€™t I just die, get it over with?
I donâ€™t want to try anymore
I canâ€™t try anymore
I have nothing left inside of me.
I had enough
I had enough
Why do I have to feel like this?
I want to end my life
I just canâ€™t take this anymore
Please just let me die
The world would be better of

2/10/2014 4 comments

hi

by skullkld 2/10/2014

written by skullkld

i am not okay. im ending my life tonight i hate everything. goodbye

2/10/2014 3 comments

Just another story

by sheddingtears 2/10/2014

written by sheddingtears

Hi.

I started writing down my feelings in Â journal but I thought it would be nice to share with people finally.

I don’t know it all started but what I know is that I’m messed up. My family, my body, my mind, and my emotions. I’m not going to say I’m in this emotionless trance.

I still have friends but I hid my true feelings. It’s all starts with my family and how my mother is this fucked up parent. You can basically say I live by myself , but my dads the only one who supports me. He has to work all the time and my mom […]

2/10/2014 13 comments

by LetItGo 2/10/2014

written by LetItGo

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Breathe Me – Sia

That moment when you make a connection with a song….

2/10/2014 1 comment

Day 27

by LetItGo 2/10/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

This post is going to be bit short… Sorry about that… It’s a bit late here… About 10:30 here… Sorry about posting so late…

Anywho how are you guys?

How am I? Physically: Sore. Mentally: Let’s not even go into that….

My physical state… Soo I am bit tired… My trip was after school (around 2:30) the group I was with drove up to Menogyn (Took us about 6-7 hours? Maybe seven… Not sure… I think driving was 7… And then picking up everyone was about 1/2 hour… And eating dinner was 1/2 an hour…) Anywho so after that […]

2/10/2014 1 comment

Semper Vigilans- Part II

by Soldier1861 2/9/2014

written by Soldier1861

a few months ago, I wrote a poem. Here it is now:

For I am Civil Air Patrol. No single word can
Describe who I am, what I do or what I
Sacrifice at such a young age…there is no phrase
That can sum up what we do. We sacrifice
Ourselves for the needy, the misfortunate
And grieving. We cross boundlessly across
Dead and barren terrain, hopelessly searching
For one soul. We receive no pay. No special
Treatment. No acclaim. We simply fight.
Fight for freedom and tranquility within our
Borders.

For I am Civil Air Patrol.
The blood we’ve spilt within 72 years is
Tremendous. Over […]

2/9/2014 8 comments

Ouch…I have lost myself…again

by treebythesea 2/9/2014

written by treebythesea

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there’s no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold […]

2/9/2014 6 comments

by emily_olsen221 2/9/2014

written by emily_olsen221

In december of 2012 i tried to overdose myself. it obviously didn’t work because I’m typing this now. I’ve had some really serious problems with my mom but i mean most teenage girls do too… we haven’t fought in so long, but now here it is happening again the same way it used too, and here i am again just feeling more and more alone. I guess this is me just reaching out for help before i get completely hopeless. comment if you would like too.

2/9/2014 4 comments

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