http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qH6iRec4TvI&feature=youtu.be
this is the video of my story, please watch it. its wat has happened in my life. please. im all alone.
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Simply put… I am tired of feeling like I don’t belong. In fact, wanting to belong felt like the only thing I could believe in.
Up till this present moment in time, I have been a poser. That may not be the right word to use but it is true. I have lied about my feelings, my personality, and in general, my life. Now I won’t go into details about how I hate my life and nothing is working out, so, here is a rant for you.
Optimism is a false belief which many people face. I, being a teenager and a homosexual, have learnt this the […]
Hello SP
I have returned to post this video I encountered an hour ago. It made me think of some of the people on here we deal with weight issues. You are perfect the way you are, don’t let the world change you. you don’t have to prove anything to anyone but yourself. Some people crave the approval of others, this is bad for you and your mental health. I hope that someday soon you will be free.
I know I cant really understand how people really feel, so feel free to tell me to go fuck myself. Â I am doing the only thing I can think of to help.
Peace
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I am a 33 year old mother of two, I was with the father of my son & daughter for 12 .1/2 years. I was 16 when we started our relationship. He was 10 years older then me and how I found out was though finding his driving licence as he told me when we first met that he was 21:- (26)was the truth  even then he still tried to say it was a fake. I should of realised then what he was all about but being only 16 young and being my first love I was blind!! I […]
Why do i feel so .. merr slutty ? Heres how it goes.. I’ve been talking to L as friends since April.. Now hes saying he loved me.. Yet in October he totally fucked me over.. Ignored me started seeing a new girl.. Now L is telling me he likes me alot & shit.. but i kinda like G .. G & L go to school together.. Same grade I do so believe.. FML :((((
L is a sweet guy.. but doesn’t say much..
G is a charming guy.. says alot.. understands me more.. Makes me smile a bunch…
I just feel horrible! I was talking […]
Everyday all I want to is cry. Nothing has every really worked out for me. My mother has gotten breast cancer twice and my brother is stuck with a chronic disease for the rest of his life. I can’t trust anyone because they are all judgemental fucks especially church, the one place you would expect to feel free and even there there is no peace. Only a bunch of hypocrites. I can’t talk to anyone that’s why I’m writing here, I can’t tell anyone how I feel in person I just seem to burden them. I tried to overdose on pills but it did nothing, […]
Actually SAYING whats wrong, or that youre upset, or cutting or whatever.. just makes it THAT much more real… so i think thats why depressed people keep it to themselves. As soon as we say that somethings wrong, it all becomes real.. completly and truely real.. and thats the worst thing…
Deny it… maybe it will eventually work if we just deny it all..
Denial… maybe it will work someday.. hopefully…
so i will continue to deny it, and fake my happiness…
Okay so lately i have been a real dumbass getting myself a lot of stupid things & i might do ecstasy pills this week &; i might also do weed brownies:/ i have never ever done drugs but i feel my old depressed &; suicidal self is coming back & i dont want to cut anymore but it seems like im turning myself to drugs :c i dont know what the hell to do cause i truly dont have no one who truly understands what im going through. I feel like if i done drugs i will be happy again & i wont have to […]
You know, I’m married to a wonderful man.
But all good people have a limit too. They will shut down also if they are constantly bombarded with negativity, bad bosses, bad coworkers, shitty clients, shitty company policy, problems in the home, depressed & suicidal wife….
I think him and my kids are the only reason I haven’t done anything. That and how outsiders will view them if I did anything to bring them down. They can not experience what I have in my past. Not them. Please not them.
But when I’m alone, I want it all to end.
I’m tired of being sick. Physically and mentally tired of being sick. Some […]
For those who’ve kept up with my post. I almost cut last night but chose to make this video about self harm. The pictures are of my self harm they are graphic so if your easily triggered please dont watch.
Leave your comments on the video do you like it?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KH0xxe3Kra0&feature=youtu.be
This is what I want, true love.
I’m falling apart and I’m so sick of trying, I’m so fucking sick of it, because I’m fighting so hard and I have been for so long but things are only getting worse no matter what I do.
I’m 17 and this shouldn’t be happening. I’ve been clinically depressed for over a year now, been self harming for a while, and have an eating disorder (bulimia). I’ve taken 2 overdoses in the past and have been admitted to hospital for 1 of these. I’ve also been admitted another 2 times for suicidal ideation/self harm. So that’s my story I guess.
My […]
I think it’s possible I might have the hardest life of anyone in the world.
I love someone, I’ve loved her for 2 years since we first talked on Skype. She is from Colombia, I’m from Canada. We have never met but we talk all the time, on facebook… & have talked many times on Skype. The only problem is… I was sent to a mental institution, because my parents called the police & told them I was psychotic. I was just visiting my parents house over christmas, & I think my meditations & abundance of energy kind-of freaked them out. Anyways, the cops came… and […]
Im tierd of crying , im tierd of always getting hurt in the end.
I want to have one fuckin day to not cry . Daddie , why did you leave me ? I love you dad , why did you do this to me && mom it’s unfair your being selfish i will always love you though .R.I.P dad. && this guy I “like” he don’t like me there is no way he probly desprate . After all im a ” LITTLE GIRL” ugh I hate crying . :/
Yah no i feel a whole lot better. Glad i joined this .thanks everyone for saving me . Y’all mean alot have a safe holiday and merry christmas && a happy new year loves take care . I hope you all Change your mind. <3 with love , hailey <333
I spent a couple hours reading the posting below. Still not done with them yet, but post #75 was bothering me all night:
http://depression.about.com/b/2005/09/04/suicide-and-god.htm
I can be your hero baby , I can kiss away the pain & I will stand by you forever , you can take my breathe away (:
When you left its like you took my happiness with you & left me with all the memories. Every moment we ever spent together replays in my head over & over again. You seem to be all I ever think about. I can’t escape because its all in my head. I wish I could sleep for a long time because when you sleep you don’t feel. I won’t have to feel the pain in my chest or the twisting in my stomach. You’ve moved on & I’m in the same place you left me. Its hard letting go to everything you’ve ever wanted.
*I once tried to cut myself out of my life ,, so..
yeah…. IÂ went there- & tried that..
December 11th, 2009,,,
2 weeks be4 Christmas..
yuck.. an awful mess
I made of all..
but?
I’m posting this 3 years after-the-fact..
There’s much to learn about Love..
& there’s much to love about life!
..it’s profound *& beautiful..
I know you’ll see Clearly..
*just stick around!
Posting for you all
Please share this.
Enjoy..
Peace!
~v~
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http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/popup-frame.html
Let me end it , if you don’t want me to show me why I cnt do this anymore the pain is to much !