Hardest life of anyone in the world… no exaggeration

I think it’s possible I might have the hardest life of anyone in the world.

I love someone, I’ve loved her for 2 years since we first talked on Skype. She is from Colombia, I’m from Canada. We have never met but we talk all the time, on facebook… & have talked many times on Skype. The only problem is… I was sent to a mental institution, because my parents called the police & told them I was psychotic. I was just visiting my parents house over christmas, & I think my meditations & abundance of energy kind-of freaked them out. Anyways, the cops came… and they kind-of freaked me out because they arrested me without reading me my rights or saying I could have a lawyer.

I have dealt with blatant corruption there (in the insitution), I even have proof of it… but I havn’t wasted my time lately with that because there are more important things for me to do right now. The big thing is the problem I gratefully found.

Mental Insitutions are the governments biggest tool, to get rid of massive ammounts of people who might become inspirational to other’s in their future. Why? Because people sent there may have had mental health issues in the past, but they can learn to grow and heal from them… and being a wounded healer can be a huge inspiration to others. With mental institutions they have a way to destroy the patients quality of life, & no I am not talking about medication. I’m talking about how they specifically deprive you of oxygen. Mental institutions around the world, have no windows, & are built in a way so that the cold air return’s in the building have to travel (20-40 minutes) across a building to where you actually recieve the air. These vents are extremely small on the recieving end, & the doors to the building are just as far away (and there’s doors inbetween there too).

I watch people come there, & a few of them seem to think they are better than everyone else… because they are more social & have more outgoing personalities. I feel bad for them because I know that within a month, (this is how long it takes) their voice will become less interesting…. their ability to manipulate their voice in creative and unique ways will disipate. Their memory will fade, and they will stop recalling memories from their past as much, and actually “feeling” the memories (reminisce/nostalgia). After a month and a half, it is the breaking point… the damage is completely permanent, & they will lose the ability to astral project through deep meditation. Almost every human has the ability to become a famous person through their creativity if they never give up… but people sent here for 1.5 months will lose that ability. The lack of oxygen will cause you to have a small fraction of the euphoria you had before. Meditation usually can build up, same with simply using your voice a lot… will make your voice actually sound differently. People from the institution lose that built-up gift. The affects from their meditation will be short term, lasting a couple of hours… and maybe affecting their day and life much, but not building up and making you happier each day.

So now it is my mission in life to be the first person to prove that mental institutions cause extreme physical and mental health conditions due to lack of oxygen. By the way, psych wards & jails both usually have sufficient oxygen to keep you living a good quality of life. It’s just the mental institutions. I know it’s possible to prove, you just need money. Charity’s & petitions will help. Once you have the money to donate to the institution and offer a method for better air circulation… like bars on the windows, slits in the walls, mesh screens, etc. Then you pay for studies done on people coming out of the new insitution who have never been affected by lack of oxygen, & studies from people who have been to the old ones.

The people coming out of the old ones will have extremely poor memory, and probably won’t even be able to memorize a few lines out of a book. They probably have diagharea almost every day, and there’s lots of other ways to prove it. Their skin will even look differently, more wrinkled. I am trying to make 1 million $ (i can’t tell you how, but it’s not charity) that way I can prove this well enough, and hopefully even start a revolution.

The reason I think my life might be possibly worse than anyone else is because, I already found the women I love… and I think she was attracted to me, for my voice & my personality & character. It definitely felt like we were flirting a few times. She compliments me a lot. I knew she was the only girl I would ever love, even if she died I wouldn’t find another women. But now the problem is, I believe most of the reasons she was attracted to me have now faded away. She is a very special person, and how is she to know how special I was before I got sent there. We only talked a handful of times, and we took it pretty slow.

But she hasn’t seen me on cam since I went to the institution. I talked to her more about how I felt I would no longer be famous as a musician, & I think she might finally have realized how severe the damages are on me. So okay, either my life is the worst… or her life, because she might never know if I was really her soul mate or not in this life.

WHO HAS EVER FELT THAT FEELING I ASK YOU…

and i won’t commit suicide, because i have so many important things to do… & i strongly believe in god (in fact god has proved himself to me in my life). But I think about all the different ways to die, & oh how I wish I could. I also told a famous hip-hop’er (he added me on facebook before he deleted his profile, though he posted a status with his phone # I don’t see why I would ever call it though) about this problem & he talked with me a bit, & said it was sad. He really motivated me to start a petition and get the ball rolling though.