i cant. everywhere i turn his name is mentioned or brought up. Everything reminds me of him. everyone knows him. i try to seperate myself but i cant. I LITERALLY CANNOT FORGET YOU. I loved him so much. I LOVE him so much. if i saw him idk what id do. id break down sobing. id run up to him and jump on him. id slap him and curse at him and let him know how much he hurt me. how much he is hurting me. i cant breathe when i think about him. i see pictures with him and his new girl on fb, […]
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Babe
Bitter, broken dearest
Can only sullenly repeat
How hurt she is, the pain she feels
Like babe suckling at teat
Slashes at her wrists
Like a toddler with a knife
Yet expects you to acknowledge
The hell that is her life
Tis the ones just like her
That leave me only silence
The ones that are those proud to wear
Their suicidal violence
Yes your pain is justified
And your wounds are real, I’m sure
But witnessing your selfish acts
Makes me want no more.
They drove me to ignore
The hands, the words, the plea
Bitter, broken darling
I blame you for losing me
I loved you, I loved you so so much, but I could just never tell you, I wanted to keep you as my friend and I tried, I tried so hard to keep my friend. I always try so hard with you and I just can’t do it anymore, you don’t understand how much it’s hurting me that you don’t even acknowledge the effort I make, it might not seem like much but it’s hard for me to just let go, but i’m trying but I just don’t even see why anymore babe. I’m sick of of you throwing me aside for what you consider […]
Why would you pretend to care for me? Act like you actually liked me.. Dang dude.. You fucked with me.. & It hurt.. Especially not knowing what I did so wrong for you to stop talking to me.. You put my number into your friends phone.. Why? To see how I’m doing? Fuck with you dude! Rog says you stopped talking to me because I’m ‘Different’ … How? I don’t even want to do this anymore.. I can’t stop thinking about you.. You really hurt me & I don’t know if I can except this one.. The pain in my heart is strong this […]
I did it. I told him I did it. I didn’t just ‘leave him a message’ on Skype. I got up, called his ass at 2 am and spoke quietly.
“Hello?”
“……………………..”
“Hello? Domino, babe?”
“……………….. I told you I’d do it..”
“Do what?.. Domino are you okay?”
“I told you I’d do it. I’d–“
“Domino, did you have to call now?.. It’s 2 am…”
“…. I’d thought I’d be safe from it all..”
“… Safe from what?”
“The thoughts.. the paranoia, the facts, everything.”
“.. Domino is someone with you in the house?..”
“……………… Just me, mi amor.”
“Domino?”
“Hm?..”
“How old am I?”
“[protection purposes, I’m not putting what I said, but I was right.]”
“Okay, so you are up, […]
Not sure if thats necessarily a good thing.. I used to live on this forum a few months ago.. I don’t know what changed even. One day I just got confident. I thought I could finally live without these thoughts everyday. I don’t need this forum, I said to myself.
Well here I am again. Lower than I was months ago. I can’t handle this anymore. I have access to a gun now. That’s probably the one good thing about right now. Otherwise I’m completely broken. I just need him. why does god do this? ugh not even god why does MY HEART want him […]
Come on baby do you think it’s good to feel
Like I’m lying here swimming in memories
I fear God because everything dies babe
Got a gun in the back of my Car
A spasm of good sense is making my eye twitch
I’ve had enough on your consolation.
I’m drowning caught in a shit tide
Tape my face to the inside of love
Nothing to eat but fingers in the back seat
Well i’ve met God and he had nothing to say to me
I pray to god that you’re right before my eyes,
Bathed in white light with halos in your eyes.
Don’t wanna waste no […]
Im ending my life tonight. I am tired of being bullied and abused. I’ll always love you babe</3 Don’t forget that! Well i guess this is goodbye. Goodbye guys, thanks for all the help you tired to offer.
 Remember, Your body is to fragile to be hurt.
-Lexis
My blood litters the bathroom floor;
Another fight with you,
Your up against the door,
Begging me not to do it,
Dont go away, you say,
Please stay.
I dont want to leave but I have to,
If I stay, one of us is sure to get hurt;
I hate seeing pain in your beautiful brown eyes,
So therefore I know it is me that has to die.
I’m leaving out the front door!
Your sitting on the couch,
Hoping for one last kiss,
But I know that if I give in now,
I wont be able to go,
You say ‘I love you babe’.
As one tear slowly runs down my face,
You say that we’ll get through this;
We alway do!
I love you babe!
I love you […]
so a few days ago. i here from my ex who ignored me for over a month. this is kinda secret since were a long distance thing, my parents say its not healthy to talk to him, well fuck u. so they took my itouch and cell away for either a looooong while or forever. so there goes private contact, so then we start e-mailing and after a week he ignores me for over a month, then wednesday im sure it was he e-mailed me. i was soo happy. then it wet to silence again. well earlier i was home for 7 hrs watching […]
i just changed my facebook to pirate, and laughed because my email from the suicide project was in junk.
interesting life youve got the babe
he came back last night. it was him trying to break in. i yelled out, babe? is that you? he said yes in a very tired tone. i opened. i can’t describe the feeling i had when i saw him standing there. he said he was there knocking our secret knock for a while. that explained the sounds i was hearing but was too scared to check it out. he was physically and emotionally drained. so was i. he held me and i just cried. i cried because i realized how weak i am without him. he cried too. he said he is scared to […]
Your mom finally knows the real me now..suicdal..n she says she dont want you to be with me cuz of that but what do you want..u laughed when she told you that..and you say “I’m glad every1 is starting to see the real me” so what your saying is you want people to make you break up wit me or something cuz im pretty sure they’re guna tell you that…every1 has there limits babe
Apparently when I tried killing myself it was for “attention”….u dk what its like what iv been through..I know that I’v put you through so much but what else can I do..I’m hard headed I get mad over everything and its different now with us…Im never guna change Im always guna be suicdal..but I would die for you …I care about no one else but you babe!!!…and even though you don’t wana admit it..I believe I came in between you and your past lover..me and you were best friends and I did like you so much and I’ll never let you go…if you say its […]
i cant take it anymore….
I dont know whats been going on lately….me and my mom have been fighting so much to the point i cut myself last night…last time i did that was in September when everything around me fell apart… and when i found out my boyfriend was calling anther girl babe i forgave him and im starting to trust him more and more…but today he asked me if that girl he was calling babe could go to our church to meet me… i dont know what kills me more the fact hes still talking to her after everything that happened or he would […]