I haven’t been diagnosed with a bipolar disorder but i am sure that i have it because it is impossible to have so many shifts of moods. It just isn’t normal. I am such an emotional brat. I can’t stand things going wrong. I had such a good week and experienced wonderful things and met so many people on this festival and now i am back to reality and to my responsilities. I just became so sad in one moment and now i feel so helpless because i can’t remember anything good to keep me on the righ path.
I am so mad at myself […]
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Bad Situations
i dont know when the pain forst began, or if it ever did. maybe i was just born with it. stuck in a life where dead ends is all there ever will be. that everytime i leave it, i get something worse. its become the normal. and sometimes, well most of the time i feel like i need it. like it will always be there and i have nothing without it. it seems to me that i am inviting it, that i look for it. im always down and depressed for no reason at all. and maybe the reason is me. maybe i truely am […]
I simply do not understand people that are “driven”. What’s so different about them that creates such a huge difference between myself and them. I’m a decent fellow, cordial to my friends, says “yes ma’m” and “no sir” and yet I’m so troubled and they are seemingly so carefree. I frankly cannot comprehend how it is possible for them. But I digress, I suppose by this point you can extrapolate the fact that I am not driven. I fear responsibility and any situation that could potentially turn out badly. For some, this would result in focus and determination to create positive outcomes, to avoid those […]
Life what the f*ck is it about cause I truly don’t know anymore. I mean nothing makes sense anymore. People tell you bad situations don’t last long but I would like to challenge that theory. Happiness doesn’t last long so if you ever achieve it cherish it because it’s temporary. However, misery can last a life time. I’m living proof of that I know I’m only 19 but I’ve been miserable for the majority of my life. And right now I’m just exhausted. My life has no meaning to me anymore. I have to be the loneliest teenager in the world. You know people think […]
i just start this by saying that iam none ohther than a desparate girl who wants love and affection.don’t know why god have designed my life in such a different way.In my chilhood i used to be a dancer,singer,script writer and even more a cheerful happy go lucky girl.all of a sudden everything changed dramatically.Being only daughter everyone called me lucky.in my 11th class i started my journey towards pain and day-to-day crying.Who knows that a single girl gets cheated from her own friends just because she looked pretty than her friends.i always wanted to smile even at bad situations too,,but see my fate […]
hi to all my fellow suiciders out there. i would like to encourage you to just read what i have to say. recently it was drawn to my attention that there were so many suicidal cases through out america even in iraq where all of our soldiers are fighting.  so in all faithfullness i along with many others have dedicated our time to help or talk to those who are going through these episodes. I am a soldier deploying to Iraq. please email me when you get the change at virgak47@yahoo.com or google virgak47@gmail.com. please take this as a way out of realy […]