That is not tough love or correction its pure hatred. U like fut jmIcan guy, your dad ends w f, im going to hell. They cup prt of my hip off…u know I died in the wtc. I’m a pig. True love always wins. Who in their right mind ever loved or wanted you or even considered u a beautiful.girl. God wants winners not bum dirt fornicating lowers or liars. What a cruel tool I am. Future jmaicn guy I love.
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I’m losing it. I can’t go on. I once thought I was strong. I once was able to help people, some very simular in my situation. I once thought that I had a life to live and a life to give. No more. Suicide is a daily hell I have to face. Depression from 17 years of shit and depression and bullying and attacks. I’ve gone too far. I thought I could make it. I need help. I have lost all hope to go on, all hope to live. I am a author, a carpenter, an artist, an engineer, an interior designer, programer, computer technician, and […]
I see how all the teen girls are killing themselves. And I’m scared that i might accidentally kill myself well to be honest i wish someone would kill me right now or i wish i could die from cancer which i might have because i have a brain tumor I’m just waiting for the neuro surgeon to tell me if i have cancer or not. I’m hoping so. But at t the sane times i want kids and i have so much love for other people. I’m a living girl but I’ve had lots of things that have happened to me I’m i guess […]
We are gathered here today, brought together by sadness and a young girl’s demise
A conclusion reached because of the boy with the lies
Her told her things each day, no one should have to hear
So often in fact, she lived in constant fear
She no longer looked forward, always looking back
Building up her defenses for the boy’s next attack
Day in and day out she heard the boy with the lies
Make fun of everything- from her feet to her eyes
Even the way that she walked was absurd
She remembered every mean thing she heard
Even when she was alone, […]
Whoa boy, is it Sunday, again? It’s like this week went by so slow.
I’m not Christian, I’ll admit it. I don’t go to church, because I gave up on religion when I first tried to commit suicide when I was.. 12 I think? I can’t remember a lot. But since I’m a good little boy, I guess I can ‘offer’ up a little post from home. Just so any stuck-up Christian people that may see this don’t chew me out for ‘not going to church’ and ‘abandoning the “lord” ‘.
I was going to type up a religious and suicidal comparison thing. But then I thought of a […]
I was supposed to kill myself almost 3 years ago on my 24th birthday. I wish I had.
I can’t bear the knowledge that my ex is moving on with her life and happy and doing well while I am so tortured over what transpired. Losing her love is horrible, but losing her as my best friend–that’s what just makes me wish I was dead. I’ve been optimistic about life, and doing OK sometimes and looking forward to the long vacation which I just got back from. But now I’m back and all alone and feel like I’m at square one. There are times when I’m […]
i’ve never posted here before. i’ve read a lot of posts, and wanted to respond to many… but i never could find the right words, because i would feel hypocritical telling someone “it will be okay”, when in fact it very well may not be. i know that’s not the point, but still.
i had everything i every truly wanted. i was married to the most beautiful girl in the world, who also was my very best friend. i have been head over heels in love with her since we first met in 2001. i was 19 then, she was 16. we both made some mistakes, […]
Life seems to be like piano keys: black & white.. black & white.. We make decisions what cause a chain of actions. We make fails, we make victories. Nobody’s fault.
Jill Bolte Taylor, scientist in this video, made me think over my life and things around… Really good stuff to watch.
These days seems great – i bought a new car, spoke with my bro (made him apologize and little peace between us), my boss in job sent me to teach kids how to make CPR – it was great expierence. Before a few days boss saw me smoking in the yard of ambulance.. Come on! She […]
I’m fine again. A few weeks ago I was about to kill myself but right now I want to jump from a bridge just for fun and feel the adrenalin, I know I’m crazy but this is my high and as long it gets, as hard the down will be.
I hate this thing on my life that I can’t never be happy for a while, if I get some hapiness then something bad happens and it’s taken away from me. Right now I have a crush on this beautiful girl (I’m bisexual) so all I want is speak to her and spend time around but […]
Today I left my house For the first time after such a long time. I went to the dentist to get my braces removed, the last time I went was a year ago. I was on anti depression medication and life seemed fine, I was fun to be around at the time. since then I fell of the face of the earth and well most of you know how that feels like.. Well anyway I went to the dentist, my eyes burned from the brightness of the daylight. By the time I got there my eyes looked a mess. I went in to see the […]
6 months ago, on Aug. 10, 2011, my best friend/cousin Keira, a beautiful girl full of energy and love and courage, tried to kill herself after bullies hurt her physically. She succeded in her attempt. I was 11 minutes late from our meeting place at the Chain Bridge in Budapest, and i could have prevented her death. She jumped off the bridge, but would have survived if not for the fact she hit her head. She was 13,&would have been14on Dec. 10, in 5 months . RIP Keira, we’ll always remember you.
When I registerd here I was seriously considering ending my life…I felt that I just could not go on anymore…my heart was broken, as well as my spirit. I had just finished crying my eyes out, and cursing God, why when he had the chance did he not take me…I had replayed are the hurtful things my husband has said to me over and over in my head…I also had just watch another amature video of him and his girlfriend post on the net…I watched and listened to all the things he said to her…and thats not the only one of them that he has […]