Well, I’m not sure if any of you guys can remember a young woman on here that went by the name of bex21, but a month ago today, her life ended due to overdose. On that night, January 17th, at about 2030, she emailed me and begged me to reply, telling me she had already done what needed to be done and she was playing the “waiting game” and she only had an hour or two left to live. She was in a lot of pain. I emailed her and we sent messages back and forth for about 2 hours, sharing each other’s stories, but […]
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Blade
I stare in the mirror and see my reflection.Â
The girl standing there isn’t beautiful.Â
Beautiful is what I want to be,Â
Even if it is only in the eyes of the one I love.Â
But beautiful I will never be for my love sees me through my eyes.Â
Tears fun down my face as I take that blade, I cut deep so that I can forget my sorrowÂ
and focus on the pain.
I lost the control that I’d maintained for so long…trauma…attempted suicide one day and the next…”saved” by my best friend…the loss of my best friend…I am collapsing into myself as I have destroyed my life and continue to destroy this moment and the next.
I look to people to talk with but all I see are names…all I can tell them is a story of self-pity.
I wish I didn’t tell me best friend I took 60 pills…
I wish I hadn’t told her anything…
I wish I had used a blade…
I wish I had the courage I did a year ago when I brought the handful of pills […]
And she was, like a blade of ice, Like a lonely road, clear as day, alive, Always sharp and cold, always beautiful, I am such a fool….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
ok, so…. I’m depressed. Most of you know that….. I know how you people feel because I’m the same.
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, I want to believe that too so I know how hard it is….
If you want to vent or just talk, then email me. I like finding out about other peoples stories and situations….
So email me ?
EmoQueen221@live.co.uk
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I miss the cutting so much.
It’s odd.
For a while.. I didn’t think about it.
I didn’t think about anything.
I was numb. But now..
It’s like a need.
I have anxiety attacks now.
I will start crying.
I need cutting.
Not burning.. nothing else.
Just cutting.
But I just can’t get a fucking blade.
I am worthless… and what’s worse is I know I don’t like me I don’t think other people really do either. I’ve been through more in 30 years than most within the worst circumstances will have to deal with. All I want is the curage to press that much harder on the blade… I hate me. For so many reasons I don’t deserve life but what ever governs this world won’t see fit to let my suffering end. Haunted with only 1 way out but too much of a baby to do it. I don’t want to deal with it anymore […]
So, i guess i’m here.. just to share with you my experience..
I guess the stress of sports, losing friends, family, and getting my heartbroken over and over.. got to me.. I started cutting, which was a big mistake.. I know that, and i’m done doing that now.. One night, i couldn’t handle anything anymore.. I ran to the bathroom crying my eyes out.. I locked the doorbehind me, and grabbed a blade, and slashed my arm.. I kept cutting up my arm, slashing it, over and over.. Telling myself what a fuck up i am.. And how it was all my fault.. Each cut, deeper […]
Don’t bother trying to save me
Just let me be
I don’t need you anymore
So please shut the door
And walk away
I’ll see you again someday
I know it’s dumb
But IÂ wanna be numb
I’m tired of hurting for you
So sick of trying, too
I’m sick of trying to hold on
When all hope is gone
I’ll let it all go tonight
I’ll give up the fight
The stains on my shirt
This addiction to hurt
I can’t take it
I’m weak and I hate it
The blade at my wrist
IÂ just can’t resist
I’m weak and I hate it
The blade at my wrist
I […]
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