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Failed at Death

by EvilKitten 8/31/2014

written by EvilKitten

Last week I slit my wrists, all the way up my arms, multiple times. Anywhere I saw a vein, I sliced hard and fast. Amazingly it didn’t hurt. Earlier that day I went to the store and bought a brand new kitchen knife, for exactly this purpose.

I’m still alive. I cut myself so badly that I turned my bathtub full of water dark red. I saw the blood spurting out of my veins. I wished for death. Irritatingly, my veins stopped bleeding after only a short time. So I found veins on my legs and ankles to slice up. I’m fair skinned, so finding them […]

8/31/2014 8 comments

Emotional Monster in the Mirror (poem)

by insecure angel 8/2/2014

written by insecure angel

This is all my words. Here it goes hope you enjoy…

I’m drowning in the darkness of my bloody lost soul
freezing and falling through this endless black hole
I can feel it all my blood is raining and the knife is sawing
but none of this will help the frostbite in my mind start thawing

I feel forzen isolated broken and alone as my depression leaks from parts unknown
Maybe from my slit wrists deep down to the bone
cuts and scars on my body never to be shown

So insecure and emotional it makes me cry
To the point where I lay in bed and pray […]

8/2/2014 5 comments

Earth-shack up in New-Mexico. Meet me up, twist-plot our next move. Go north, perhaps. We, the good vagabond.*

by Bisban 7/26/2014

written by Bisban

A “Solar Kiva.” An earth-shack, two States over from SoCal.
Can we survive the summer in Taos.
The UV radiation may be overwhelming.
There is nowhere to run. Somewhere to hide.
The moth smelled the blood. The blood.
Dead like the dead past. In transcendence.
Hell’s Satan is the root of our modern life.
Still small in time; the history of our modern human history.
Dead like the dead past. The crystal evolution.
The angels. God, the ancient alien.
The story. The cosmic-saddest, of all.
But our hearts, abyssal devoured. Our nature, a defect.
That is the story of “Man.” The devil has won since […]

7/26/2014 0 comment

not quite sure

by br0kensmiLe09 7/19/2014

written by br0kensmiLe09

I’m not quite sure of who I am.

sometimes I like to think that I am a perfectly fine teenager because isn’t the biggest symptom of madness denying you have a problem? if I admit to this I am probably not quite insane, am I?

but I’m too tired too tired to care too tired to live all I want is to fall into a deep slumber forever and ever…

its painful to wake up everyday dreading that you’re gonna live.

life has been deliriously tiring lately I don’t even know what I’m doing. sometimes I wish I could drag that blade across my wrist hard but no matter […]

7/19/2014 5 comments

Boredom

by seppuku 7/11/2014

written by seppuku

Most days I am so horribly bored. Do I ever need a bloody job! Not that jobs in general are a lot of fun, but anything’s gotta be better than sitting on my a** all day. Or going into town, killing time, no one to see, escaping into the internet on my smartphone, just ‘out’ for the sake of being out and because I cannot stand being cooped up on my own anymore.

I should not be contemplating suicide out of boredom! This is not a good reason (and is actually not mine). Work is a necessary evil in this world, it’s just the way it […]

7/11/2014 15 comments

Quietly being overwhelmed.

by nias 6/25/2014

written by nias

I suffer from depression, paranoia and loneliness, I really hate this life I lead,
there just seems no point to it, why do others have lives that they enjoy while I
struggle to get my backside out of bed each day. I dislike confident people most,
those who push themselves forward at the expense of others, I’m being swamped by them,
my voice drowned out. This guy at work is like those people, he thinks he’s so great,
always talking about himself and his wonderful life, I’m sure he talks about me to his
mates behind my back. I wish, and I may be pushing […]

6/25/2014 1 comment

I can’t get rid of psychological pain

by SGR 6/22/2014

written by SGR

I’ve recently moved to a new place, in a new state, away from all of my precious people. I can no longer afford my depression medication, and that, combined with the loneliness, anxiety, and feelings of unworthiness are pushing me to a point I’ve never experienced before.

It hurt so intensely earlier today that I cut my thighs to bloody ribbons, but not even that helped ease my pain. I can’t go back home, because to do so would only add a financial burden onto my family’s already burdened shoulders.

I know I can’t kill myself yet, but I’m afraid. I’m thinking of it more and more, […]

6/22/2014 2 comments

one Bloody mess

by beyonddarkness969 6/21/2014

written by beyonddarkness969

I stand looking at myself in the mirror and what do I see….?
One bloody mess.
I hate everything I see….
I seem…. so unreal to me
….I’m in utterly disbelief….
Hands bloody…arms bloody… face bloody….
the blade is my best friend and my lover.
We go together like ice and vodka..
I feel I’m in hell… I’m tormented in this shell..
I slice open, watching my flesh strip away…
While my mind goes into a relaxing place….. I feel good now… well almost… let me go a little deeper… almost there!…just a little deeper…now I’ve climax into one unemotional mess… now I hate myself…For […]

6/21/2014 1 comment

Even Then. .

by Wilful Muse 6/8/2014

written by Wilful Muse

You never came back, you said you would but you didn’t, and I guess it’s more fool me for ever thinking that after all that’s happened you would. But they said have faith, in time you’ll see, he’ll come back. But time was of the essence, so I took it upon myself to come find you and even tho I thought I never would have I did. You were happy and I saw that which only made it worst. Cause I was miserable. Couldn’t you see what you’d done to me? You made me want you so much that noone else would do. So […]

6/8/2014 0 comment

failure

by thedrowninggirl 5/27/2014

written by thedrowninggirl

Just sinking so low. I haven’t written in my journal (which I’ve kept since I was 15) since that night. that fact in itself scares me. I don’t want death, I’m certain of it, not when my head is clear. But I just urt so bad, nearly every morning I wake up and brace myself for the wave of misery, hope it’ll be over fast and won’t keep welling up on and off all day.
I am… no nice way to put it, I am a failure. I’ll be 29 tomorrow. I ave never been able to have a relationship in my life: just the […]

5/27/2014 1 comment

Life is beautiful

by Apoptosis9 5/17/2014

written by Apoptosis9

I am so bloody happy. Life is beautiful.

I haven’t been on here for quite some time, and I’m here now to see if I can make friends, chat about philosophy, and help out a little.

Anyway, I thought a joyful post would be a be something different here.

Have a splendid day/night, darlings!

5/17/2014 8 comments

Ticking time bomb.

by LifeafterDeath 5/12/2014

written by LifeafterDeath

Do you ever get the angry side of being suicidal ? i was just surrounded by people telling me that i’m perfectly fine and theres nothing wrong, the same people who spoon feed me the pills that are designed to basically make you humble in your intolerable situations, and they laugh and poke you as if waiting for a punchline in some massive bloody joke.

my mind instantly went to that place, which most of us probably call home, and i thought.

if i’m willing to end my own life in the most brutal of ways

then what’s stopping me from massacring my current tormentors ?

its a little […]

5/12/2014 3 comments

Okay… abyssal. My atomic cry. You, reader; unknown other champion of the “Present.” Your saber of light will ingnite, or let me die. Whoever you may be, in the land of Gotham City. Light to the light, reaching to the outers limit. Dr. Faith.

by Bisban 5/2/2014

written by Bisban

No more herb, and forever.
No more green ignition. Will the Joker have the last laugh.
I, versus Lobo’s chain and Deathstroke’s Claymore.
Back to the place where “simple,” beaten to a bloody death.
Attempting words, into the lost faÃ§ade. Fade.Â No echo.
The cry of the millennium.
In arms chain, and iron mask. A bodied spirit.
The Lucifer. Crucified upside-down.
The Bringer Of Light. The hidden suffer. The secret truth.
A sad child of Satan world. This is the voice of the “New Age,” dying.
The preach, sabotaged.
My humble children. Our mothers of life.
Change, why does it not. Grace is dead.
The truth, […]

5/2/2014 2 comments

It’s happening again.

by Lea 4/13/2014

written by Lea

Hi,

I’m thinking ’bout it again, it’s like a dream ’bout dying. You know just to forget everything, the stress is just to much.

I’m sure I will cut again, but still gonna go to school tomorrow.

When I tell someone what is happening to me, they just have those eyes that are cold and painful to watch.

I hate to open up to people.

I so wanna end all of it.

But there is the guilt, what are my family and close friends gonna think and fell?

I just want my blood to flow out of my body, drop after drop.

And maybe the gushing out part is gonna be the best!

I […]

4/13/2014 9 comments

Blind eye

by ClairDeLune 4/5/2014

written by ClairDeLune

Floating, staring at the sky,

telling myself I should try.

Can’t lose anything, or can I?

Am I afraid of her reply?

Will she say forever good bye?

What to do, but sigh;

I’m not that kinda guy,

just quiet and shy.

In the blink of an eye

last chance passed by.

What’s left is tears to cry,

and asking myself why

am I so bloody shy?

4/5/2014 0 comment

Suddenly…

by Terri-ble 3/22/2014

written by Terri-ble

I can’t remember how I got to this point where I don’t want to carry on.

I thought I was getting better but my wrist are raw and bloody and my tears taste of salt.

Gradually and then suddenly is what I tell the few who notice.

It’s like waking up one morning, afraid you’re going to live.

3/22/2014 2 comments

Life hasn’t improved…

by yikers 2/9/2014

written by yikers

So I turned to this blog last June in the hope of relieving myself of some my bottled up stories and emotions. It helped for all of 10 seconds. I’m still a closet gay (by my family’s demand and not my choice). My family would have me locked in a cage if they could, they have recently told me I’m the biggest problem my family has. I’m at university now so I’ve had a little bit of free time to experiment and be me. But being me has come at the price of my family and their respect. When I came out they took it […]

2/9/2014 2 comments

I almost cut.. but i made 4 videos instead

by BrooklynBoxx 1/2/2013

written by BrooklynBoxx

So for you who have been following up on my post you know i self harm quiet a bit and quiet deep to. Instead of self harming the other day i chose to make some amv ( animated music videos) for vampire knight.

Please check them out and let me know if their any good. Also subscribe if you wanna keep up with my blogs and other videos.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCaTinffnkI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjnYh6GRmVo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmrCUV9BdHY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m35rBe1iYKc

I hope this new coping skill works for a while.. and doesnt die in a matter of a week.. like most of the others..

1/2/2013 1 comment

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