I want to share the change that happened in me. Maybe my words will mean something to someone. I met some people that shared some ideas with me and their words hit me where i needed it. These were those words:
I am not my thoughts, feelings or states, those are the things that are just passing through me. I can choose if i want to relate to them. I am the one that is aware of the thoughts and feeling,s, so they are not a part of me. They are the clouds and i am the sky. I exist even without any of […]
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Boundaries
I do. It seriously feels like a disability often. You have so much that you have to worry about like making sure you don’t get raped. Every time I go out somewhere, I’m always told not to be out too late since it’s “especially dangerous for girls.” I hate that. That makes me try to dress as much like a boy as I can, so maybe I’ll be mistaken for one. I think about cutting my hair short and not shaving, but then I’ll be labeled as a “butch lesbian” since I am gay. It’s not fair. Aside from the obvious things like getting your […]
Do I have a sign saying “shes vunerable, take advantage” on my back?
by lonelyinside
written by lonelyinside
This crap is getting really old. My new boyfriend, the one afore mentioned, turns out to be nothing that i was expecting under pressure.
The story starts on Thursday after school. Im texting him and his ‘best friend’ takes his phone and starts a convo with me like she knows me. Being the polite girl i am, i keep talking to her. She then tells me she has feelings for my bf and so my friend takes my phone and politely tells her(under me) that there needs to be boundaries cuz were dating. This girl starts trippin on me and i leave with my best […]
so just need to rant here…I am not having a good experience at the new place where I am living. The older room mate is a talker who is unaware of boundaries and when to just shut the fuck up. I humour her and say the appropriate things but it gets old really fast. I am feeling manipulated when she starts off with “so what are you doing tomorrow?” I now turn it around and say “Why would you ask that? Whats on the go for you tomorrow?”
I do not need to “check” in with her if I choose to […]
I live in a world that is not real. I feel like I don’t belong in this world. I was forced to pursue a career that I wasn’t interested in. I talk five sentences with my parents on a maximum. Â They have never once asked me how my day went. I never tell them. I don’t tell them about all the nights I sit alone and cry my eyes out into the pillow. I don’t tell them about the bad days I have, or the good ones either. My joys and my sorrows are entirely my own. I love learning about the Universe, but the […]
I’m soo depressed, sick & tired of being sick & tired!! Why does life have to be so damn hard? Why can’t I ever be happy? Why do the people you care for hurt you the most? I just want to end it all!! The HELL with life!! What I wake up, get dressed, go to work, kiss my fiancé goodbye & head out. But what do you do when the person you swore was your soulmate betrays your trust & violats your boundaries? I’m in love with a woman whom I grew up with, even as kids we were always together. Now 16yrs later […]
greed and materialism will never be constructive values:
(a) never heard of any item that can fulfill that feeling of emptiness and (b) the things you own end up owning you (fight club quote)
on the other hand, to enjoy sharing and being good-intentioned seems to mainly attract opportunists
it’s like you have to spend your whole life defining boundaries, keeping your guard up, waiting for your next desillusion
you’ll be identified as the weird, paranoid one because you refuse to give people the opportunity to take advantage of you
(…..)
I feel like I should go live in nature: no more forced interactions, no more hierarchy to submit to, no […]
its coming closer. every day i find myself pushing the boundaries of what i can live through. Every night i want to die; every night i wish i wont wake up tomorrow; i just want to take my sword and drive it through whats left of my heart. i dont care about pain. i dont care about anyone else. All anyone ever does is lie to me. Even the people i used to trust. Everyone else breaks their promises to me. why cant i break mine? i promised that i would keep my heart beating. Its time to break that promise.
I don’t have anything to write, because I can’t put it into words. Â I’ll just complain.
I’ve pulled away from my friends, and I’m dating a guy that I could care less about because that’s easier than getting hurt.
It’s been a long process, but I’m finally at that point where I can really say that I don’t really have friends. Â I have people that I can count on, but nobody that I would talk to. Â People have tried to help me in the past, but they always end up doing more damage. Â And as for the guy, I don’t really know what to do with him. […]