I recently gathered myself together working on a better me but things have been making a comeback pretty bad I think this life just isn’t made for me I don’t think I can take the pressure or pain anymore
“Little girl messed up inside
Wished that she had wings to fly
Away from sadness
Away from pain
Away from all the things they said
But when the darkness comes at night
She tears down the walls inside
Little girl messed up inside
Told me there are reasons why
She takes the blade into her skin
Killing demons deep within
But when the sunlight sets to rise
Still she wishes she could die
Little girl messed up inside
Cries and pleads, asking why
Some just die without their will
But some can’t even settle, stay still
Without the urge to end it all
Only wanting to […]
Every Tear Drop That Falls is a Tear Drop of Guilt all it Took Was Me To Break up with My Pakastani BF That Meant The World To Me and It Also Took was Just 1 Text From My Abusive and Jelous Friend That I’m No Longer Friends With and My Abusive and Jelous Friend Ruined My Perfect Life She Made My Perfect World Turn into Dust and Ashes While My Friend Ruined My Perfectly Built World I was Stuck Repairing and Fixing it Again My Eyes Are as Red as Blood From All The Tears That Has Fallen From My Eyes It Hurts Me […]
I can’t be the encourager and you the discourager. I can’t tell you not to kill yourself while I’m over here cutting and getting blood all over my mattress and internally screaming out to God to strike me down right where I sit.
I really should be studying for my history exam but I can’t seem to stop thinking about suicide. I don’t know what to do ,I’ve been like this for so long. I’m scared of my own mind , I’m afraid of what I’m capable of. I’m only 14 by the way. I just feel horrible about myself , I try so hard in everything I do but it’s always not enough for some people. I push everyone away from me I’m so isolated in my own little world. School gets out Friday . I guess I made it through my freshmen year. I wasn’t at […]
Breaking
I feel broken
I know its not good
To keep feelings bottled up
But I feel if I do tell my feelings
I feel annoying
I don’t know why
And I don’t know how
But I do
I will fake a smile
To make people happy
I will give you a compliment
To make you happy
Sometimes I want to be happy
But sometimes we can’t get what we want
I live a life of lies
I lie
I know I know it’s bad
But its not really lying
More like not telling the WHOLE truth
I want my friends to be happy
I know that in […]
the title speaks for itself. why would i make any more promises when you have broken EVERY single promise you made me. if this is truely what you want. then fine. just go. leave. but your angel wont do shit for me compared to you actually being here.
promises are bullshit things so people can munipulate others into doing what you want them to, or not to do.
I don’t smoke…I never have smoked…and I never will smoke…and yet today when I couldn’t handle anything anymore I bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked one…I didn’t enjoy it…but I didn’t not enjoy it…I don’t want to be a smoker…my stress made me do something that I don’t want to do…I am breaking more and more each day.