Today I went to a farm and got some milk and visited the baby cows. (Oh my god, I sound like I’m 5) I really did, isn’t that sad? I talked to the baby cows and they were so cute and I actually felt they accepted me. I’m sure they looked at me in an accepting way. It’s the most social I’ve been in awhile. There was a rooster too, but I didn’t talk to him. They had this tea called kumbuchu? And it’s almost like hard cider , it’s kind of giving me a buzz. That was all after I’d gotten lost for an […]
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The guy i’ve been in love with for the past year is my everything.. but recently he completely changed!! hes continuously hurt me over and over again. Then recently.. i attempted to kill myself and he texted my sister saying this ” ahaha well you should really come out!! come on i’ll help make sure you have a good time, your sisters saying she’s gonna kill herself can u call her? ugh such a buzz kill! dont tell her i said that” and then continues on to beg my sister who is his exact age to come out to eden with him and his friends. […]
hello, well as you all know my life is a complete down buzz. if you dont well heres y… i have leukemia (cancer)
i get seriously bullied and no one cares about me. i have not told a living sole but i am planning my death and i need help…
i am seriously ugly now i have no hair and im always purpley blueish like a giant bruise. do you think if i was to dink half a bottle or more of bleech will it kill me i might even add in the meds i take. i wanna give up but then again i want help, what […]
sometimes silence can’t be undone.
I sit quietly and close my eyes.
I hear the world about me whir and buzz from a distance.
TV announcers raising their voices
debating this and that, arguments and choices
I wonder about the relevance
Of the questions of mice and men
inquiries abound, relentless in their prevalence
I grasp at them desperately, floating mid-air.
Always above my head
They fly by, with me unnoticed.
They tell me, that the answers to all my confusion
are just a step ahead, just a wisp away
But always my battles, end with Pyrrhic victories
Losses more than gains, condemned to mere memories
And…just
Just;
Just when I […]
Lights off. Ears plugged. Doors locked. Notes placed. Water running. Blade cutting. Perfect. All according to plan.
Lights fading. Consciousness slipping. Room spinning. Parents sleeping. Blood pouring. Finally. Time to go.
No more. The End. Black. Infinite black. Peace. Calm. Eternity.
Then noise. Faint. Distant. A hum. A buzz. Audible only because it it the only sound in the beautiful void.
The hum won’t stop. Won’t go away. Won’t leave me alone. I have to find out what it is. What is it anyway!? Look around. Just black.
Wait, I didn’t look around. I couldn’t. There is only black. Maybe if I open my eyes. Then I could find the source […]
Sometimes you live, and your so busy that time just vanishes, tomorrow turns into next week, next week turns into next month, and next month turns into next year. Before you know it nothing gets done…
Well this past week has been interesting, they say the thrill is in taking part. I’m running for Student Union President, I am going laugh if I win though as I will not be here. However its the buzz of running a campaign, of talking to different people (I absolutely love talking to people…) that gets me. I’ve got tons of support from random people which is amazing, however the […]
personality keeps splintering, can’t choose a way to be, it’s tiring carrying on multiple faces. What am I talking about? Am I insane. I laughed when I read daniel radcliffe was drunk during a bunch of the harry potter scenes; i laughed to tears. Addicitve personalities man.. i started back drinking coffee again, appetites completely gone, was doing so good eating naturally.. had chocolate this morning after 2 months off.. was doing so well
i was set on not coming back here ever, set on trying harder to be positive, but even then I knew that it was the lingering buzz of the nights events still […]
I just found this site after googling “I can’t do this anymore”. I feel awful.
by Lost45
written by Lost45
I know I am depressed. I know I need help. I have felt that I am lower than EVERYONE else since a very young age. Around nine or ten. I am now eighteen. I just can’t keep my life together. I feel like shit every day and it is getting to be too much stress. I was just spending my evening with a nineteen year old guy who lives on my floor. He invited me over to watch a movie and get drunk. I really just want a friend. I said sure and went. He claims he had no intentions…other than getting to know me, […]