Dont sit on the sidelines.. its time to Fight back.. Ive always fought back..to prove i wont and dont have to put up with this..last option, Suicide if all else fails… your choice.. and its Always an option.. Keep fighting.. and if it comes to suicide.. then choose wisely..
I think we should all take a moment to think about how the choices we make affect everyone around us. When my sister chose to sneak out and do drugs, smoke cigarettes and get pregnant, she wasn’t thinking about the arguing that I had to deal with when she wasn’t around. I listened to my parents scream at each other nonstop over disagreements on how to discipline her. She didn’t realize what it was like for me to wake up to cops knocking on the door at 2 in the morning bringing her home. She never apologized for the panic attacks that occurred within me […]
A moment ago I had gotten home from yet another antagonistic day and was greeted by an update from iTunes. Â The choices were: Quit -or- Install 2 Items.
How I wish it were that easy. Â Anyway, with the theft of my capacities to see myself out in a quick and peaceful manner, I am resorting to another method. Â This is my final post. Â On Friday I plan to slip off into the night, drive to my favorite state in the country, and hike to a place where I will be dirt before anyone finds me. Â I simply want to vanish.
Thanks for the company.
It’s too late to say sorry. It’s too late to come clean. It’s too late to come back. It’s too late to be a “friend”. It’s too late.
You had a lot of chances. I rooted for you. You let me down and I’m ok with that.
I’m not ok with my life. I am not ok with having suffered as a result of my choices that were made while trying desperately to improve my circumstances. I am not ok for suffering and hurting for helping others. I am not ok with people who are mean-spirited, vile, and empty making my life miserable even though I try […]
User muspelhem posted this in a comment earlier today – it’s a good read and worth the few minutes it takes to read and ponder objectively –
http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-harsh-truths-that-will-make-you-better-person/
For the record – I’m an atheist – but that doesn’t change the relevance of the following parable:
Crosses To Bear
A young man was at the end of his rope, seeing no way out, dropped his knees in prayer. “Lord, I can’t go on,” he said. “I have too heavy of a cross to bear.”
The Lord replied, “My […]
I am stuck, and there seems to be no one to help me. I don’t know if I should take up Accounting or Management as my major. Accounting is too narrow, while Management is too broad. Seems like the university I’m entering is in the dumps.
That’s it, I have no future.
Everything is ruined.
No one is there to help me…
Choices, choices…
I want to give tuitions but I don’t have the place… my house is a mess…
I’m devastated…
It’s a fight for me not to revert back to the “I want to die” thoughts…
I want to do it, but like some people I have my reservations do to the simple fear: What if I fail. What if my suicide doesnt go smoothly, what if I mess up or half way through chicken out and its an unsuccessful suicide and I like.
I could live with the family knowing that I wasnt as happy as I appeared, and the disapointment of me not going to them. But would I get fired from work? I work in mental health, I deal with depressed and suicidal people all the time. We talk about what is worth living for and so on. I […]
I’m no longer intent on committing suicide. I’ve been told I can make a living will if I want! It’ss for me, but also to stop my grandparents from trying to destroy my family by arguements on account of the decisions I make in my life, especially where medicines and comfort level is concerned. Thanks, disability assesser! And thanks, apparently nice nurses, doctors and the rest of my lovely hospital staff now friends, who have somehow gotten me over my grief over the last procedure that my Nan successfully caused great discomfort from, by simply interfering with what the doctors wanted, subtly. And last week […]
This was a bad day. I feel hopeless, useless, and stuck. The choices I do have… I don’t like. The words are welling up in me but I’m tired of spitting them out… writing them out. It’s always the same. I wish I weren’t here. I wish I never ever had to be alive. This is shit.
My name is Luke, and I want to share my suicide experience with you, for any chance of reading and really making you think about the decisions you are about to make.
Before I begin, remember that I do not know you, and it is your choice and yours only to take your life. It is a natural feeling to feel like this, and don’t let people tell you otherwise…they’re either in a shock state or they’ve missed a dose of their anxiety pills.
Anyways, now to start…
I had just started senior year, I was 17, had the girl of my dreams, was playing in a band, […]
Whatever it might cost, a look into the future,
Forsaken but not lost,
Nor given in to torture,
Like noises in the wall, no one will notice,
You know you will fall
And drown in misfortune.
Crowned by the doom, you almost see it coming,
To stand or to give up,
You can figure nothing.
Then you retrace your steps, and when the world rejoices
You stumble back and forth,
You’re torn between the choices…
And the disaster gleams, beckoning the reverie
You’re dwelling into dreams
You know astral travelling,
Far away from scorns and senseless agitations
You’re breaking into thorns
Of […]
Yesterday I went to a family Christmas party on my mom’s side of the family.
Two years ago this party was something my entire family attended, all 5 of my sisters and I would go together, with our parents. We were all there every single year, together.
However since that time, everything has changed. My 19 year old sister was kicked out of my family when she was 17 causing my parents to accuse anyone trying to help my sister of taking sides. Because of my parents choices, I wasn’t allowed to see my sister, grandma, aunt, or cousins, except for once or twice a year. […]
Everything cleared – wiped clean.
I suppose there will be people who tell you if you change
your direction
your city
your name
your mind
you’ll be starting new. These people fail to recognize the nature of the problem: no matter what you change about yourself, you can never change your past. You will never forget those
choices
cities
names
faces
The problem is you.
In one second, a choice can be made to end someones life. In one second, somebody could be saved from an unfortunate death. In one second somebody could sell their life out to drugs, or someone could choose to reject the drugs. I one second, someone could take their own life, but in one second someone could stop them. All of our choices are made in one second, you’re mind is already made up even if you don’t know it. Fate is a tricky bastard, it let’s us think we’re in control, when it really is. It is unforgiving, and it’s partner is death. In […]
I have died in my dreams a hundred times. I have tried to kill myself several times in my waking life, which seems more like a living nightmare to me. Â In all the 20 years I’ve lived I haven’t done a single good thing. All I have is regrets, though when I come to rethink the steps I took and the choices I made there doesn’t seem to be another way I could have gone.
I have been a complete failure since my childhood. But back then I took life much easier because my childhood activities took me away from all the bad thoughts and my […]
Hi,
My name is Meaghan and I am 14 years of age. Ever since the age of 6 I have been a victim. I’m to scared to tell anyone. I break down everyday crying after the long painful days. My dad is the worst person I’ve ever meet. He is a drinker and gets drunk many days a week. This leads to my pain I’ve dealt with for to long. He violently screams at me every day telling me how ugly and stupid I am and how I will never get anywhere in life. Makes fun of me pushes me around and wants to fight when […]
so I would ask for people to list the alternatives they have tried to get out of the line of thinking that makes them consider taking thier own lives…as in what if anything did or could you try instead because yes, death is the final step but in the ‘inbetween time” what do you do???
I wrote this story last night on a piece of loose leaf.
“I don’t eat because I think I’m fat. I see a photo of me and I look fat. So I don’t eat. I had a talk with Dennis and Gloria today, both separate conversations. I realized I don’t want to die. I want to love and hopefully get sponsored by red bull one day for snowboarding and Roxy. That’s what I really want. I want to be happy again. I need a phone. Serious though. I need to smile and mean it. This is the starting point tonight. I wanted to kill myself and […]
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I don’t want to die.
I need companionship.
I need someone who will tell me it is alright. I need someone who will lend a shoulder to cry.
I need someone who will not judge me by my choices.
I am so tired of pretending to be strong. of pretending everything is alright and that my life is happy.
I am tired of pretending I don’t need someone.
somehow I feel like despite the fact that I have friends, I am disconnected with everything else. Â so I am seeking companionship.
how many of the people I know will cry when I die? in my mind, I know, they are not a lot. […]