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my story

by sasha 7/31/2013

written by sasha

no, I dont cut. No, I wasnt abused. I’m sorry if you have been.

In 5th grade I started taking pills (amphetamine) and some for sleeping. I started getting really skinny, never eating, never hungry. I turned pale and gaunt, my parents thought I was anorexic. I couldnt explain to them that I just wasnt hungry (a side effect of amphetamine) so I lied. A lot. “yea I ate a sandwich when you were gone.” I hadnt. Ya this wasnt bad, i was a pretty happy kid, just really skinny. Then 6th grade rolled around and i weighed around 60 lb for the first half of […]

7/31/2013 8 comments

im an awful person

by skylark 1/22/2013

written by skylark

i don’t even know why i try. no matter what i do ill always be this crappy. I’m too fat, I’m too ugly, I’m not smart enough….im worthless. and idk why I’m spending time writing this post because i don’t even matter. sorry if your reading this. i can’t do anything right.

1/22/2013 21 comments

what has to happen

by passionfruit3 10/14/2012

written by passionfruit3

Its come to my conclusion that i am going to try and off myself again.Im scared to death cause its a past method im using one that almost killed me.Im scared to death of doing this.But that little short lived happy time is over.Its left me and its always going to come and then not be there and i cant stand that.I am filth thats all i am while im alive.
The method will be successful this time.I would check myself into a mental hospital but there all crappy except the one i recently came from.That is to far away to go to.
I dont […]

10/14/2012 3 comments

Not again

by AW92 6/11/2012

written by AW92

Hm well I haven’t really felt any better since the last rant.
I’ve finally finished it with my long term on and off boyfriend of 4 years, I don’t feel bad about it at all, i am not in love with him anymore, but I do still love and care about him, he doesn’t seem to understand how you can feel that. He also can’t stand hearing about my “life” with other people.
Is it bad to have slept with more people than your actual age?
I don’t regret any of the things I’ve done ever! I did regret not doing drugs, but ha i […]

6/11/2012 0 comment

by SilverShadow 5/15/2012

written by SilverShadow

I’m sorry. I’m really sorry that I lied. I’m sorry I couldn’t face the truth and covered it up. I’m sorry I tried to hide everything so I wouldn’t have to deal with it. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you the full truth.

Mom and dad… I’m sorry I couldn’t be that perfect daughter. I’m sorry that I don’t get good grades and panic while in public. I’m sorry I let myself get beat up. I’m sorry I don’t tell you things anymore. I’m sorry I didn’t try to help you when I knew things were getting tough. I’m sorry I fight with my brothers. […]

5/15/2012 6 comments

Tonight is too much for me, To get through, Tomorrow’s just a darkened hall, To an empty room, When I’m far away from you….

by Nat.... 3/2/2012

written by Nat....

Im so depressed. This week has been shit. And the worst part was it was all little things that have made me think about how good that shiny piece of sharp metal would look in my wrist.

1. School stuff- things about a crappy tattoo portfolio and being called wierd and having something taken away from me? which is quite confusing.

2. Maths exam- ah…exams. doesn’t everyone love them? espicially those with OCD who are terrified to write in pen and hate the thought of people staring at her because her seat was quite near the front.

3. i not long ago dropped my iPod touch in the […]

3/2/2012 7 comments