I’m dead. I don’t seem dead, I can breathe and taste food and smell flowers, and I don’t look dead but I AM DEAD. My mind has turned into decay, bit by bit it’s crumbling to dust. A lunatic lives inside here, a scavenger that feeds upon my decaying soul.
I look in the mirror and I don’t see my silhouette anymore, all I see is this thing that’s consuming me and my shadow behind it like a forgotten whisper of who I was once upon a time. I’ve shredded everything that has made me once me, my faith and my imagination are gone and […]
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* Note: This was a Message sent originally to the Church of Euthanasia. What I need Ãs, the Quick & the Death.
That’s why I am going to sent Mails to Multiple receivers.
Hello,
For long, long time I suffer { but I think that you have already heard this out of email-Messages more than once. }
I have started several Suicide-Roads [ means thinking and/or/nor preparing & planning for several suicide Methods on which I have resigned due to reasons. ], and have committed one suicide attempt by jumping in front of a Van approximately, roughly, 5 years ago which failed, most importantly because I was being watched and so […]
It has stopped.  The agonizing cries have ceased.  No longer will I see shadows chasing my footsteps.  I have materialized once again to bathe myself in a world of love.  I see smiles and happiness all around me.  I am beyond thrilled to feel a touch or witness a smile guided in my direction.  I am a victim no more.  The sun shines on my face.  I moisten my lips and wait for it’s beauty to bestow it’s essence upon me.
Yet, Â I cannot feel it’s grace. Â It does not come. Â The faces start to blur and laughter no longer blesses my ears with it’s sound.
The dullness […]