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Day 17

by LetItGo 1/28/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

So… Yeah I’m here… Yay? So yeah… Um yeah…

A lot has happened to me… I started talking to an adult about my problems so that’s good… Bad thing… It’s someone that’s not related… I mean I guess it’s not that bad but I don’t know….

How am I? Physically: Could be better Mentally: Could be tons better

My physical state… I don’t know…

My mental state…. Suicidal thoughts are taking over….

I’m sorry this is short… It’s been a rough day…

Here’s your poem:

i don’t know much
im afraid to speak my mind
im afraid to say
im afraid so much
i don’t know a lot
all i […]

1/28/2014 2 comments

Day 16

by LetItGo 1/27/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

I don’t feel well… I feel suicidal… So suicidal… So depressed and sad I don’t know what to do…

How am I? Physically: Broken Mentally: Broken

My physical state… It’s just not the best right now… I have no cuts… Well not yet… Maybe later tonight my body will have a few… But who knows? Maybe I’ll be pathetic and not cut… I just don’t know… I don’t feel well… I don’t feel like I deserve to live… I’m in so much pain… So many tears… Why should I live when I’m in so much pain? Can’t I go?

My mental state… It’s just too broken […]

1/27/2014 2 comments

Day 15

by LetItGo 1/26/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

I guess my life is getting too boring to keep writing these things… So sorry… I might not continue this… I don’t know… So… Might not continue with this… Sorry.

Normal day routine.. Get up and stuff. Except one of my friends and I got into this little mini fight about my weight and I just don’t know. I mean I just don’t know guys… I just… I’ve never liked how I looked. I never loved what my body shape was. And now I’m expected to suddenly love it? And I just don’t know guys…

And ugh. One of my friends just keep threatening me […]

1/26/2014 1 comment

Day 14

by LetItGo 1/25/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Phew! It’s been two weeks, well 14 posts!!! So thank you for sticking with me and I hope you continue to help me through this journey of my life.

This post really isn’t going to be about my day, more of what I am feeling like right at this moment.

This moment. Right now. I’m curled up in my room, on my floor, with a comforter over my head, The Scientist by Coldplay on repeat crying my eyes out. Why am I crying my eyes out? I can’t find something. Now before you go and comment, “Oh stop being a drama queen,” or anything like that. […]

1/25/2014 11 comments

Day 13

by LetItGo 1/25/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

So today was a reaaaaaaaallllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy good day. 😀 I’m actually kind of crying of happy tears. 😀

So let’s start off. Normal routine with school and stuff, BUT I GOT TO MEET SOMEONE THAT I’VE BEEN DYING TO MEET. And oh my goodness. I’m just really happy. Of course me being the awkwardly social human being I am I just blushed and didn’t really speak. (Sorry about that, Michael). And it’s just amazing.

I finally feel happy for once. I’m finally smiling. 😀 It’s just great. And the best part is that when I got home from where I was, it was about 11:00ish. My sister […]

1/25/2014 2 comments

Not Sure I Can Wait Until 2019

by Counting Down the Years 1/24/2014

written by Counting Down the Years

On Mother’s Day I wrote that I wanted to wait until my daughter turned 18. I don’t want to check out while she’s so young, but I don’t see myself holding on another 6 years.

1/24/2014 13 comments

Day 12

by LetItGo 1/23/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

It’s day 12! Woo!

So today was a snow day for my school. Which is great! So my friend and I went to a humongous library!!! It was amazing! I love books and libraries and it’s just gah! So that was awesome. I was feeling great. I was feeling happy for once. Then my sister had to go and ruin it. She threatened me again. *sigh*

Let’s start from the beginning. I woke up late today. (woo!) At around 10:30ish. I got up. Read a little. I did have breakfast/brunch. 😀 It was pancakes. Then I started talking to one of my friends and […]

1/23/2014 13 comments

Day 11

by LetItGo 1/22/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Welp its day 11. I just want to thank all of you who stuck with me. No this is not a goodbye note, but just a thank you. Your comments (well most of the comments) helped me and comforted me. 😀 So thank you especially to Michael, OnlyLOVEisReal, and The Koji, you guys have helped me so very much and I hope you continue to comment on my posts. 😀

Another note thing is that I do post poems, but sometimes they’re at random times, and I’m sorry for that, and so maybe you don’t see them. So I just wanted to put that out […]

1/22/2014 7 comments

Day 10

by LetItGo 1/21/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Yes I posted yesterday…. It was a bit earlier than normal… Sorry.

So today. Today was an sdjkjsskfjk day. Nothing really exciting happened… Well I guess I shouldn’t say that. A new semester began today at school. Which means a new schedule. Which means new seats. And new teachers. Well of course in one class guess who I get to sit by for a whole semester (about 90 days) MY BULLY. Wooo…. Not. So that’s that. On the bright side I moved to my honors English class :D.

So yeah. How am I doing? Emotionally: Unstable. Physically: In Pain.

I don’t know how long I […]

1/21/2014 5 comments

Day 2

by lostandconfused113 1/21/2014

written by lostandconfused113

Today sucked…This has got to get better eventually….All that i can think about is ending it all….I dont know what to do…There has got to be more than this…i cant keep going on like this…everyday i feel another piece of me die……

Days since suicidal thoughts: 0

Days since cutting: 0

Feelings at the moment:

~Anguish

~Numb

~Wishing for death

1/21/2014 0 comment

Untitled

by painterofmusic 5/20/2009

written by painterofmusic

So, what happenedâ€¦ Thursday night, I downed a bottle of medicine, because someone three fries short of a happy meal wrote on a website that â€œliquid is absorbed faster than pills.â€ So I thoughtâ€¦ I die faster, and I fall asleep before I suffer. So much for that ideaâ€¦

Obviously, my plan didnâ€™t work. I didnâ€™t have to go to the hospital or anything, though. I downed it, and my heart was pounding, to the point that I just knew I was going to die. So I laid down in bed, pulled the covers over my head, turned on Relient K, and tried to go to […]

5/20/2009 3 comments

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