My wish is this one day I have it all ended. Where Do I began? Im 16, Just faking everything. I attempted Sucicde countless times from anything from Suffocation, Overdose, Cutting, Strangling and have tried hanging. All of them have failed and caused pain for me. I have a girlfriend I hate my life and my family. I wish I could run away and not be affected by anything. I got into trouble at school for Depression thoughts, Self-Harm. I was sent to the hospital twice for a week. Put me on meds and never really helped. The Hospitial is out and I will run […]
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Dear God
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You did say that if my right hand caused me to sin, then I should cut it off than to have my whole body thrown in hell. But the thing is, I never said I want to be a part of any of your divine agenda–I never agreed to be born, and to put someone in this nightmare they cant wake up from, is an act of pure evil.
You caused me great pain from the day that I was born, and all I am worth is hell. WHat other unthinkable ways of torture have you thought of throwing at me in the future and in my life […]
Thank you for this fucked up spine of mine, as if life isn’t ironic enough. Thank you for the pain and this poor excuse for a body. I appreciate you having my “back” -yes, pun intended- and making sure that I have a strenuous job to fill my time which gives me juuuust enough to survive on. Thanks for not cursing me with some horrible disease where i wouldn’t be able to afford treatment..I won’t piss and mone about that..that’s for sure.
Oh and don’t worry.. I found a wife.. No need to jump in and save my sorry ass anymore. I’m sure you were […]
Dear Readers.
Wow, that sounds weird for some one as new as me, because i tend to not gain attention, Internet-wise or not, but thats besides the point. I am a 13 year old girl, nothing special, and to be honest, i’m not that serious of a case, compared to other people, But what my problem is that i suffer from my negative emotions, and i do mean it quiet  literally. Let me try to clear this up for you. For example, lets assume that you and i used to be really close, but then our relationship… fails. Like i wasn’t as great as a friend then you […]
Dear God
I hate you, you’re an asshole. Why am I still alive? You can’t do this to me, this is not fair and you know it. You have millions for torture, why me?  Is this some kind of revenge? This is a mistake and you’re  wrong. Is not fair and you can’t do this, is the worst thing you’ve ever done. Why you didn’t kill me, as you promised? I hate you, I hate you, I hate you.
Please Dear God,
Take me away from here. I’ll do it myself if you’ll take my fear.
I’ll take the knife so sharply, so swift, the instant release will be like a gift.
Jumping is not the answer : I would fear the fall. Pleasae Lord, Send an Angel, for Death has come to call.
I can’t wait much longer trapped here like a mouse, i feel like a prisioner within my own house.
Thank You, Dear Lord, for allowing me this escape, thank you thank you Lord, to meet you i can’t wait.
To embrace me in your gentle hug, to finally feel the warmth of love.
So Dear Lord, Please […]
My birthday, just another day. 17 years of age and somehow, I wish I were older, perhaps wiser, because if all of the things I’m facing now are making me want to end it all, dear God, what will I do when I’m older?My parents didn’t say happy birthday, and my best friend called me at 3:00 am to tell me it, he’s my everything, he’s the reason I get up in the morning. And I can’t tell him that because of what everyone would think. It’s not that, I wish, but it’s not. He’s had my back since 1st grade. He’s just amazing. But […]