Well, the long awaited Christmas break started Friday and I dont feel any better. My hopes were that with 1o days off from school that i could pull myself together and maybe actually be happy again. I was wrong, of course. Dont get me wrong, Christmas Eve and Christmas were pretty great- probably the only happy days ill have for awhile. Ive basically been hounded by my family about school and grades (the cause of my depression relapse and suicidal thoughts) the entire break. My mom is putting pressure on me to do well so i can get into med school like i want and […]
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Death Date
At The end of the world, Or the last thing I see, You are, Never coming home, Never coming home….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
Damn. That song brings back so many memories. Happy-ish Memories from happier times.
Basically, I’m thinking of doing ‘it’. I don’t want to be around anymore… I’m sick of life and all it has to throw at me. It’s not going to get better like everyone keeps telling me. I want it to stop. I think… My mental health is also getting worse… I don’t want to be the crazy one. I did want to stick around for my nephews, watch them grow up… be happy with them. Looks like that isn’t going to happen. They will be ok without me. I know it. And sure, […]
Probably getting our hours cut at work down to part time in the next few months. And my other job is laying me off.
Which means even less money on top of the salary cut last year.
And they are adding considerably more work and duties.
Not complaining but this place is just jacking us left and right.
Even though we exceeded paramaters for a year without a manager and six months without a direct supervisor.
Was trying to hang on until January of next year for my birthday but seems like it will be sometime this summer.
Guess I can take someone’s advice on here and get a credit card […]
HeHe What Fun! Today my brother saw me jump of a 50 story rooftop what he did not see was me pulling my parachute! And I am sorry for the post he made, he thought I was dead. Only  he thought I was dead, I told my family! Oh hehe, I do love pulling pranks. It is the last thing i Can love in this world. Though my death date is still March 14th :(. And today is the worst, i was going to ask my now dead girlfriend to marry me! I thought it would be so romantic to ask her to marry me […]