i think that it is very sad to see people going through these rough times in their life and i can relate because im one of them. my name is faith and this is my real story. my depression started when my parents put down my dog, they didnt realize how strong my connection with her was. after that my depression got worse and i resorted to cutting and trying to kill myself. i wasnt happy anymore i wasnt that happy little girl who loved life and would help everyone else before herself. the only part of that little girl that is still alive is […]
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I have attempted suicide more times than I can count from as early as a young teen and more recently over the past year. Finally a social worker basically yelled at myself that I was being selfish and if I suceeded I would be guarunteeing that they will have the same struggle with mental illness that I have had. That is one of my biggest nightmares for my children to have to suffer like I have for 20+ years. But now I almost resent the children for keeping me here. It’s a horrible thought and it […]
hi. well my name is zoe I’m 14 and I think I’m really depressed I’ve had emotional issues since I was in fifth grade but I haven’t ever told anyone about it. I’m a middle child in between two brothers. my dad neglects me and verbally abuses me while I think my mom is great. I hate my life so much and no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to find anything to do about it. I’m so scared that I’m going to end up killing myself cause that’s not what I want to happen. I cut myself on a regular basis and […]
Nobody believes I’m depressed. My parents say depression isn’t real. My friends think I’m an attention whore. He thinks I’m not suicidal anymore. Truth is, depression is real and it hurts like hell, I don’t want attention they give it to me because they saw my cuts, and he just doesn’t want to believe that I’m still planning suicide. I think it’s funny that they can’t cope with my depression. I mean, it’s MY depression, not theirs… I just wish it would stop or that I could talk to somebody who I don’t have to look at face […]
I give up. On everything. Nothing is worth it anymore. Nobody loves me. My family hates me, especially my dad. Everyone loves my sister more than me. She’s skinny, smart, popular, and beautiful. Multiple crushes and my own father (he shouldn’t even be called that) like her better. My father calls me stupid, a whore, and a slut. The one boy I have loved since kindergarten told me repeatedly he hated me, that I’m a freak, that I’m ugly and fat and a lot of other stuff that’s completely true. I have practically no friends. They all left me in 6th grade. I was left utterly alone. […]
You know what feels like it sucks the worst about depression and wanting to off yourself? It’s knowing that really, when you get right down to it, no amount of therapy, psychotropic pharmaceuticals or loving intervention-type talks with family and friends is going to “cure” you. You have to go through the pain of taking steps and accepting help and being receptive to the above to make yourself well when you really have stopped caring (or think you’ve stopped caring) whether you get well or don’t get well.
I used to think positively.. I used to believe that everything I could see beyond all the bull the world has put in front of me, of us, was beautiful. I used to admire what beauty the world offered us beyond the structure of tall buildings and society itself, beyond the pure ignorance of these fellow people who believe their opinions should rise above those of anyone else.. I’m simply disgusted. Disgusted that I’ve been alive for the years that I have and still feel like I’ve nothing to show for it. Disgusted that I somehow believed that after all I’ve given with nothing to […]
my bf was going to commit suicide. we’ve always talked about it, but this time he sounded serious. he made me promise not to tell. he said he was going to write him suicide note and leave as soon as he was alone, most likely the next day. he said goodbye, and thank you for being an amazing gf, and sorry about a hundred times. But i was scared so i told my friend who knows all this and happens to be his ex. ive convinced her before not to tell anyone, but this time she said fuck it im telling, and told her mom. […]
i think im getting better. im not eating what i should be but im eating. Last week hit me hard,but i survide its just i dont now how much i can surivie anymore. this up coming summer will be my 4 year dealing with an eating disorder and depression i just want all te pain to go away.
I spent a couple hours reading the posting below. Still not done with them yet, but post #75 was bothering me all night:
http://depression.about.com/b/2005/09/04/suicide-and-god.htm
Ive been thinking of suicide lately and this is not the first time i have attempted before and failed, i really thourght i had got myself over the worst of it after that until recently. Me and my gf split after a long period of being in a kind of together but technically not situation after i messed up an hurt her (wasn’t the worst thing i could of done but it was bad) all the guilt of hurting the person i love the most has kickstarted my depression and i did try to deal with it but im getting nowhere, i dont feel like […]
I’ve never felt like i’ve belonged anywhere.On paper i have a pretty perfect life… but i spent 10 years with a secret that drove me to depression.Now the secret is out, i feel like i lost that one thing that defined me for so many years…i dont know who i am anymore.my mom and my bf love me and im trying to survive for them but i dont wanna live.i want to stop existing.it hurts my bf when i tell him that but if suicide is selfish isn’t it equally selfish to force someone stay alive? y wont he let me die…I don’t wanna hurt […]
My husband just turned and looked at me and asked when i would be normal again. I could not say because everyone I have talked to in mental health has recoiled so fast you would think I had just pulled a pickled herring out of my coat and offer to bludgeon them with said fish.
I wonder why. They say Depression is very treatable once caught, but then they act like you have almost a life sentance.
And it is hard on the people when are used to having a sweet submissive wife who is trying to be Superwoman, and now […]
I think the scariest part of all this is when you desperately want someone to reach out to and no one is around. You want a friend, but you don’t want those people you call friends to know. And you don’t have the money to get professional help. And you don’t want your family to start blaming themselves. And you sure as fuck don’t want people to start asking what you’ve done to try NOT being depressed.
I’m not even sure if I am depressed. I mean, I have depression, but I spend these days being mostly angry and frustrated. But now, I’m just sad, because […]
Life to me is just unhappiness i dont like being here really… Nobody has done anything to make me feel this way i just dont see the point in a meaningless unhappy life full of anger and depression… Im 14 and most people just say to me that i will be fine its just school and its stressful but school isnt a problem at all. I have friends and family that care about me but i never seek help from them because i dont like contact with other people, i like being alone by myself so i lock myself away.
I constantly question myself about my […]
I think it is, the end. There’s been no reprieve for me from this misery of a depression.
i reached out the other day and told my social worker everything I’d done in the last weeks in an attempt to get some understanding. I told her I tried to jump off the motorway bridge but didn’t think it was high enough to kill me plus what also stopped me was I don’t want to cause an accident for someone else. With this in mind I said my only option to kill myself  was to do it in the car the good ole fashioned way with a […]
I’m sure i’m not the only one here who puts on a fake smile, laughs, talks, and pretends to be a perfectly happy person. Everyone at school, besides my best friend, believes the act. I started cutting again 2 days ago. The wounds weren’t deep at all. If i hadn’t done as many as i did, they could pass for cat scratches. Since it’s winter, wearing long sleeves all the time isn’t suspicious. I prefer to anyways, though, because i have 4 years worth of scars on my arms (i didn’t used to have to worry because i had quit for almost a year so […]
why do you have to be so dumb and oblivious to what is right in front of you? You should clearly be able to see that SOMETHING is wrong.. but youre blind.. you blinded by your complete ignorance. You are an ignorant person. You know NOTHING about depression, or suicide, or cutting. So you judge those who do. If you actually knew.. you would know that people who cut themselves dont do it for fun.. they do it because its something that they have grown to need, they have to do it to stay alive, so they dont kill themselves, to let out the emotions […]
hello.
i’m 17, suicidal, and very confused.
I’ve wanted to die for a long time. for many reasons. but the things stopping me have always been the friends who i owe the little sanity i have now, and the hope that i might actually be able to enjoy life at some, more independent point.
Personally i dont understand what family is supposed to be. i don’t understand the love some people have for their families. is that strange? i just. i don’t feel it. my younger brother is the only one that i feel protective of.
however i love my friends with everything i have. they are amazing and nothing will […]
I’m a male, 23, and I’ve had sex, but just with one girl a few times. She was my g/f for a while. Then I broke up with her. It’s this depression I’ve had since I was young. Anyways, I just recently broke up with her and I regret it. It was due to my depression I know it. And dealing with my depression I feel like I’m all alone because everyone I talk to is always doing something sexual with someone else. I hear about it all the time. Someone’s always texting someone or hooking up with someone. And I’m not. I just […]