Hey, Im kind of new to this so probably wont explain myself very well. This is actually the first time Ive ever talked about this to anyone if this even counts. Anyways im not sure how I even ended up here I feel like im wasting who ever reads this’ time. I dont want pity I used to do a bit of counseling as a youth worker so I know all the lines like “life is potential death is that potential gone”, I know how to help others I just cant help myself. I dont want pity or sympathy just a logical reason and some […]
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Friend called the cops on me after I told him I was ready to die.
After that dehumanizing experience, I want to die even more. I learned that if I should ever attempt suicide, just let them find the body. My life has been ostensibly good lately: got a dream job, making friends, accepted to universities, yet I can’t get over losing  him. I never will. I really don’t know what to do anymore.
Even with all of my personal growth and success, I’m still not good enough for him.
The recession destroyed life as I new it. Having been laid off 3 times in 2 years, I left my home and started over in a new town. The first 10 months were a struggle to survive, and then it finally paid off. I landed my dream job. Still alone in this new place 800 miles from friends and family, I made the mistake of befriending a female co-worker. She approached me a couple of weeks after we both started working at the same company. She had moved to the same town with a boyfriend of 7 years and they had broken up. She was […]
This site should not be full of ideas and suggestions of how someone should kill themselves. It should be about sharing stories.
Because no matter what you think. And no matter how lost you feel. There is someone, whether you know them or not, who will miss you if you ever leave.
You might think it’s never going to get better, and sometimes it doesn’t. Sometimes you will need to stop hurting as much as you do everyday, or some days or all the time. But when your sitting down and you can’t take it at night. Share your story. This site, Tumblr, Facebook, Youtube, Twitter, call someone. […]
The aroma of flowers exciting your olfactory senses and overwhelming you with wafting scents;
The riot of color within the botanical garden blinding your sight with its myriad spatterings like an artist’s paintboard;
The soothing texture of the cooling sand is calming as you curl your toes in it while enjoying the lovely sunset at the beach;
The goosebumps and relaxation you get from the cool water while paddling your board out to catch the elusive night waves;
The taste of your favorite food tantalizing your buds as you enjoy it after it has been prepared with loving hands;
The harmony of the music that soothes you as you blast it […]
I want to share my story, of who I am and how I got here, but I can’t share it with those I know so this seemed like the next best thing. I don’t know who is out there reading this, or if anyone even will, but there is a comfort in sharing how I feel without fear of judgment or persecution.
I will start with the easiest parts. I am a 29 year old mother of 3, married to a great man, and working at my dream job. I volunteer at my church and also lead a girl scout troop. So […]
Sometimes I wonder if wanting to die is just trying to connect body to mind, because I feel dead inside, and I have for a long time.
Nothing’s changed in my life. I’m still a 26-year old student assistant. I should be happy to even have a job, but I have to pay $250 quarterly just to keep it. And I’m only taking classes to have the job, so it’s not like that’s adding up to anything useful. I have no worth, here.
I have no friends. No, really, I don’t. Not one. I have people that call me every four months to tell me that something […]
I was going ou with Sarah for 3years 4 months. we had our ups and downs just like any normal people. Her life was not a good one but i was there to make it better for her. She wanted to be a veterinary nurses i tryed to help her get to her dream job but couldn’t. so in the ned she did give up on it.
It got to the ponit there I wanted to be with her for the rest of my left but i wanted to be a good husband and get it so that i could look after her and have a […]