I thought things were getting easier, resisting the urge to cut myself. But knowing that I’m worthless to a large amount of people isn’t really helping me. I have all these emotions that I need to get out to someone in person but I don’t have anyone to get them out to. It’s like everyone around me is happy and at the moment there’s not one thing that’s making me smile. I feel physically and mentally tired and I’ve almost  completely given up. I have no friends at school, I’m not close to my family, and the one person I need right now is ignoring […]
I don’t feel like committing suicide. I’m a Born again Christian. But I am feeling overwhelmed. And I have a lot of anger in me for some reason. I pray I don’t hinder anyone by what I am about to write.
People say to reach out when you are feeling down, but most people are to busy or don’t understand I think.
People may think that pointing the finger, and telling you what you are doing wrong is helpful, in this state of mind it’s not. A hug or a high five on what your doing right is helpful.
Anti depressants or the magic pill as i call […]
So I have been feeling depressed for a while now. I wouldn’t really say its constant, my emotions are a bit of a roller coaster.see, I feel like I’m gods mistake, and that I have to put his “mistake” right by killing myself. The worst part is that I know I’m just being too much of a dramatic ******, but I can’t help it. I have recently moved schools, leaving all my best friends, and now I’m growing apart from them. Not only that, but everyone at my new school thinks I’m gay. Even my “friends” admit that they think I’m gay. My mum gave […]
Taking a Mental Health Day from dance.. Had alot of emotions going crazy all day.. Can’t even tell you what was going on in my head. Everyone thinks it’s because I am nausease and threw up. The nausea is real… Havnt actually thrown up yet..
So I will be on alot tonight, which I’m actually looking forward to.
I give up. On everything. Nothing is worth it anymore. Nobody loves me. My family hates me, especially my dad. Everyone loves my sister more than me. She’s skinny, smart, popular, and beautiful. Multiple crushes and my own father (he shouldn’t even be called that) like her better. My father calls me stupid, a whore, and a slut. The one boy I have loved since kindergarten told me repeatedly he hated me, that I’m a freak, that I’m ugly and fat and a lot of other stuff that’s completely true. I have practically no friends. They all left me in 6th grade. I was left utterly alone. […]
Since I see so many of you not knowing what could possibly help to get back on track, I’ll just tell you what I think are the pros of living.
*Nature. Nature’s pretty. It’s calming. And that’s why I try to keep forests and such clean and pretty. If it’s pretty for me, it’s pretty for everyone. Until there’s at least one square mile of greenery left, I will enjoy life.
*The sky. I don’t really count this as the same as nature, because it gives me a different kind of joy. Seeing it in the summer, that blue blue sky makes me think of flying like […]
my bf was going to commit suicide. we’ve always talked about it, but this time he sounded serious. he made me promise not to tell. he said he was going to write him suicide note and leave as soon as he was alone, most likely the next day. he said goodbye, and thank you for being an amazing gf, and sorry about a hundred times. But i was scared so i told my friend who knows all this and happens to be his ex. ive convinced her before not to tell anyone, but this time she said fuck it im telling, and told her mom. […]
Life to me is just unhappiness i dont like being here really… Nobody has done anything to make me feel this way i just dont see the point in a meaningless unhappy life full of anger and depression… Im 14 and most people just say to me that i will be fine its just school and its stressful but school isnt a problem at all. I have friends and family that care about me but i never seek help from them because i dont like contact with other people, i like being alone by myself so i lock myself away.
I constantly question myself about my […]
Emotions swirling
Happiness, anger, sadness
Which do i feel?
I feel fake
Unloved, unwanted
I am weak
Just a side character
I seek to be noticed
and held
But no one can see me
Amd i transparent? Invisible?
Doesn`t anybody care?
I cry silent tears
and everything i say falls on deaf ears
I am a souless doll
I have no free will
A doll`s emotions are painted on
Artificial
No one knows what the doll wanted
For the doll doesn`t speak for itself
I have to be a Fake person
to be seen
I have to be perfect
not me
I have to live up to
Expectations
not my limits
Everyday my will and emotions leak
From a cut in my being
A cut so deep that not even stitches
Could keep infection out
I […]
why do you have to be so dumb and oblivious to what is right in front of you? You should clearly be able to see that SOMETHING is wrong.. but youre blind.. you blinded by your complete ignorance. You are an ignorant person. You know NOTHING about depression, or suicide, or cutting. So you judge those who do. If you actually knew.. you would know that people who cut themselves dont do it for fun.. they do it because its something that they have grown to need, they have to do it to stay alive, so they dont kill themselves, to let out the emotions […]
I want to die. I keep hurting people, and I try my hardest not to. I try to show everyone how much I love them and how much I care, but I suck at showing emotions.
My ex cries every time she thinks about me because I hurt her so bad. We had so many problems. I tried to be perfect. I tried to be the amazing person she deserved, but all I did was fuck up and hurt her time after time.
My ex and I don’t talk anymore, but now I have a new-ish friend, and her and I […]
hello.
i’m 17, suicidal, and very confused.
I’ve wanted to die for a long time. for many reasons. but the things stopping me have always been the friends who i owe the little sanity i have now, and the hope that i might actually be able to enjoy life at some, more independent point.
Personally i dont understand what family is supposed to be. i don’t understand the love some people have for their families. is that strange? i just. i don’t feel it. my younger brother is the only one that i feel protective of.
however i love my friends with everything i have. they are amazing and nothing will […]
I’m trying to adopt a state of mind that centers around human experience; something realistic, rather than negative or positive. Something beyond that simplistic dichotomy. Emotions exist; sadness is no less real than happiness; happiness is no less real than sadness. Pain is no less real than pleasure, and vice versa, and what one might want to describe as “bad,” is not necessarily so. It simply is.
Maybe I should convert to Buddhism.
Anyone know any good monastic sects in the midwest United States?
That’s a joke, by the way. I dislike organized religion. I don’t enjoy having to accept uncertainty, but I dislike blind certainty just as […]
I thought today would be a good day. It’s not really looking that way though. I almost cut. I was in the shower and I had the razor in my hand and I was staring at my wrist. I was so close to doing it but I did not.
I hate myself because my emotions are out of my control.
My deal is odd, even I see this. I am not angry or sad nor do I hate anyone or have anything to blame of anyone. I am simply bored with life or tired of it, I find my self excited over the thought of finishing the final chapter in life however I do understand once I am gone; My wife will be heart broken as will the rest of my family so when this happens I need to make sure they are taken care of (financially) which may bring them a sense of relief and make the mourning process more bearable. My […]
The days get shorter and the darkness gets longer, but somehow I find myself feeling better than I have in weeks. I applied for a writing program and got an unpaid internship. Somehow I know something is going to go wrong and I don’t think I can handle it. I don’t want to handle it. I will overcome that bridge when I come to it. For now though I am going to act like I’m somewhat okay and keep living.
I’m scared of moving on and letting this temporary time of peace go…
About a week ago I found out how fucked up my family is, my mums an actress so she goes on tours alot and my dad is a psychotherapist who has been trying to get his quilification for 11 years!
My dad is a lazy alchoholic but he dosent hit me, but he manipulates my emotions until i’m crying in your room for an hour or 4. My mum hates him because she has payed about 250,000 punds on his training so we’re broke. My brother ignores it by doing working and other activities. My dad is very….. destructive, of people and my stuff. He has […]
Hi, I’m new to this site. I guess, I’ve kind of been looking for something like this for a while. Some where that someone who isn’t related to me, and doesn’t have a biased opinion can give me advice. I’m not suicidal at the moment. Never really have been seriously. I just want ears. So this is my story: In February, the guy I had been dating for the past eight months broke up with me because he is gay (and I am female). He claimed he dated me as a way of trying to confirm to himself of his sexuality. Don’t get me wrong, […]