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I tried and failed… again!

by Ghost9er 11/6/2014

written by Ghost9er

This was probably my 32nd time trying to end my life… and again I failed… I can never seem to fully break the skin enough to do anything. :'( I just want to do because, no one needs me nor wants me around and I have no purpose nor reason to exist anyway…

I still have a few other ways to try before I officially give up on trying to end my life for good… so far I’ve tried, Hanging, burning, cutting, drowning, electrocution, running in rush hour traffic, and beating myself. And I have done all of these things multiple times… 🙁 And no one […]

11/6/2014 15 comments

what the hell

by kyliexox3 11/6/2014

written by kyliexox3

I’m turning 21 in a month. I’ve felt this way, at least to some degree, as long as I remember. Everyone always tells me “time heals all”. I don’t feel like anything has been healed. I’m stuck. The only way to discribe how I’m feeling is I’m in a clear box full of water, literally drowning in my own tears, but there is no way out. I can see everyone that I care about and people who care about me and those who say they do.. they are living their lives but all causally glancing over at me. Because they’ve all tried to “fix ” […]

11/6/2014 1 comment

Seeking help making things worse

by uni 11/5/2014

written by uni

The more I tried to get help and was honest, it would seem that I hit some sort of systemic punishment. Over the years my diagnosis are getting longer, treating physicians are saying I’m too sick to be accepted, and I seem to get punished by care providers when I’m trying my best. I even went to the best facility in the US for an extraordinarily extended period of time. In the end, I learned that I could not speak my truth and was often demoralized at my attempts to combat my suicidality. Why am I the one to blame when the treatments are not […]

11/5/2014 2 comments

I just dunno anymore

by argh 11/4/2014

written by argh

One moment im thinking about the the relief and freedom an exit would provide, then later I’m thinking it’s no answer, it’s just quitting. The thought of it being over seems to make me happy, but I bet if I got a cancer diagnosis I’d be pissed.

If you’re willing to die, why not be willing to make a go of it instead? I dunno..

The wish to die will be granted to each and every one of us one day, without exception. So why live in fear of failing another attempt at happiness regardless of how foolish it seems? In the end we will be gone […]

11/4/2014 12 comments

Thought processes

by pointlessness 10/31/2014

written by pointlessness

I hate the world we live in, the society we’re built on, and any direction i could take my life in…. I feel like such a disgrace, my life is wonderful! As i type this on my smartphone in my cozy bed in a warm house, my loving parents are probably thinking about me just like i think about them constantly… They shower me in love and gifts and praise, but I DO NOT DERSEVE A FRACTION OF IT! Killing myself would be too harsh for these beautiful, kind individuals, but I feel it would save them from dissapointment and hardships in the future… I […]

10/31/2014 8 comments

“No matter how hard you try there will always be someone better´´

by GeoPin 10/30/2014

written by GeoPin

“No matter how hard you try there will always be someone better´´ This statement is to do with girls ovcourse, Its something a family member of my age said to me when I told him my story. He said that’s a lesson he’d learnt from his very sad love life story. But i’m not here to tell you his, I’m here to tell you mine and maybe find some confort between all us injured men.

I dont knw where to start… its a very long story (arent they all!..), so i’ll try and summarise: I’d know this girl for 12 years, for two of those we […]

10/30/2014 9 comments

Breaking even isn’t survival. It’s denial.

by Justanotherdude 10/29/2014

written by Justanotherdude

My life is a downtrodden groundhogs day.

I wake up every morning with a varying degree of hope and slowly pull myself out of bed. I turn on my computer, if it isn’t already on to charge my phone overnight, and my monitor then venture into the kitchen for a fresh cup of water. I like water. Fortunate I suppose, I know most people don’t. I could gladly skip juices and soft drinks for a steady supply of water. A fresh sip splashes my mind and cools my senses. Today isn’t so bad, I think to myself. If I’m hungry I’ll peer into the fridge and […]

10/29/2014 2 comments

it’s never going to end

by lost hope 10/29/2014

written by lost hope

the pain and heartache. no one really cares your supposed to get over it. even if the pain and abuse and mistreatment continues no more crying no more tears life goes on, sure not like this

10/29/2014 1 comment

How to Continue

by fallenstars101 10/28/2014

written by fallenstars101

When all you want is to end your life, how do you fight the urge to die? How do stop yourself from constantly finding reasons to just give up?

10/28/2014 6 comments

The Reason

by thepainismyonlyfriend 10/25/2014

written by thepainismyonlyfriend

I read something a long time ago. It said, “Suicide doesn’t end the pain, it transfers it to those who love you.” I cannot agree more.

10/25/2014 5 comments

by need2go 10/24/2014

written by need2go

The only person I want to talk to and felt comfortably doing so doesn’t really appreciate me anymore, although she is my “best friend” and ex-gf. All my “friends” are kind of tired of me. I’m just really alone and I want to end this. I’m fine with my reasons.

Not sure how to do it. I thought about the helium method but I have no idea where to get that and no money too.I even thought about jumping off of a bridge, but the tallest bridge in my city isn’t tall enough.

Well, found out that I can get a helium tank, not sure about the […]

10/24/2014 7 comments

fuck it goodbye

by endofeverything 10/23/2014

written by endofeverything

I am sad to announce that, I am effectively going to end my life soon.
I don’t feel the need like to continue living, I don’t feel the need to continue worrying about anything. I am not going to talk about why I am going to end up my life, but just wanting to make you know is because I just can’t continue having pain.
I am going to leave everything, I don’t know how I am going to do it, but this is the last time i touch a keyboard; this is the last time i touch anything.
I am fucking annoyed of everyone […]

10/23/2014 2 comments

Don’t tell me how to live or die

by Thatothersmightlive 10/23/2014

written by Thatothersmightlive

Ok, soap box time.
I have to comment about Brittany Maynard, a terminal cancer patient, and her decision to end her life through assisted suicide. And about Kara Tippetts, who is battling metastatic breast cancer.
First off I wish to say I applaud both women for making tough and brave choices.
That being said Kara Tippetts wrote an open letter that lobbies for Brittany to reverse her decision. Her argument is made on primarily religious grounds.
My point is not who is right or wrong but rather how the argument is made.
If Kara had said in an article/blog that assisted suicide is wrong, fine. […]

10/23/2014 1 comment

by lonewolf-unknown 10/22/2014

written by lonewolf-unknown

Hi. I’m a guy that is never accepted or understood wherever I go. I have got several diagnosed problems such as depression and no matter what I do, it haunts me day to day. The isolation for 20 years. I have tried so many times to end the pain Im living on a day to day basis.

I just want it over and done with now.

can someone please help!

10/22/2014 2 comments

Hi and bye

by monsterly 10/20/2014

written by monsterly

This is my last post, if everything goes well (or horribly wrong, depends on how you see it I guess).

I’m gonna end things this week since some events happened that made me realize the more I prolong things, the worse it’s for me and everyone around me who have to deal with my sorry ass.

I haven’t told anyone but I felt I should just post a little something here. I don’t know.

Anyway. I hope you all the best, whatever the best means for you.
Goodbye

10/20/2014 9 comments

I want to just die

by whycantitjusthappen 10/16/2014

written by whycantitjusthappen

I want to die. Everyday, the people closest to me convince me that im worthless and I can never do anything right. Today was the closest I’ve been to killing myself. About to step off and hang from the rope in my basement, I couldn’t commit. I don’t have the guts to end my suffering and save everyone from the troubles of dealing with my now hollow, angry, and hopeless persona. I dont remember the last time I was happy, I can’t even laugh anymore. I keep trying to end my sadness, however in vain my attempts. I know I will meet my end soon. […]

10/16/2014 2 comments

Why I’m here

by hopeisafourletterword 10/15/2014

written by hopeisafourletterword

I should be dead by now. But I’m not. Why? Because of him. One person. There are so many people in the world and he had to come into my life. I cannot understand what he saw in me and what he apparently still sees in me. I love so many other people but I was willing to leave it all behind because I just couldn’t be happy anymore, but now I am. I haven’t been in love in years. I fell in love with him as quickly as I made the decision to end my life. I don’t get why this happened. I don’t get it.

I […]

10/15/2014 2 comments

When will this end?

by Angeleyes42 10/15/2014

written by Angeleyes42

I should never have come back here to school. I should have listened to my intuition and stayed home and gone to beauty school or something. After getting trampled by a horse I should have known that was a sign. I cant even bridle the horse and all i ever do is cry. Im such a crybaby i wish i knew how to make it stop. People tell me i don’t belong here and maybe i should listen. I wish i could die in my sleep from all this pain. I’m so done. And my roommate doesn’t even care about me she just wants […]

10/15/2014 1 comment

Those who don’t care

by Deleted.from.society 10/15/2014

written by Deleted.from.society

Imagine your mother going upstairs, into your room and finds you dead, hanging from the ceiling fan. There is no going back. You just wanted to end the pain not your life. You hurt everyone that ever knew you. You didn’t just end your pain, you gave it to some els. It’s not just you that are wanting to end your life. Now it’s your younger sister or brother that you have passed these thought down to. They start to cut.. last week your mother found your goodbye letter, she unfolds it carefully while tears are running down her face. After she reads the letter […]

10/15/2014 9 comments

just tired of it all

by FeelingReadytoleave 10/12/2014

written by FeelingReadytoleave

just tired of the suffering, when does it end? im tired of doing all of the exhausting, tedious stuff every day just so i can continue to be alive and struggle. my logical mind tells me that if I pass then my pain will be gone. as long as i live, i will struggle and suffer. i just gotta be realistic. the only true way to END the pain for good is to be no more. im tired of the continued suffering . it hasnt gotten better. its stayed the same or gotten worse actually,, definitely feeling ready to leave as soon as possible. […]

10/12/2014 4 comments

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