I apologize for my actions, for being MIA so long. I had to get help. I’m not cured by far, never will be but I’m trying. Please don’t leave me. You guys helped me so much.
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It’s a different kind of feeling.. Worse than the others.. Like a never ending tightness in your stomach. I don’t wanna kill myself I just wanna show everyone what there doing to me
Its so hard to understand something you just cant get a grip on.take life for example,it truly is a beautiful thing…but at the same time it can be so….cruel.emotions are a great subject.they make us happy and sad….angry and loving.and yet it is these very same emotions that can do so much damage.let me ask you a question.why?….why is it that we’re given happiness on a silver plater just so it can be ripped away?…why is it that this emotion called happiness is dangled in the face of those who can never have it?.To me the answer is clear…you have to fight….the happiness you may […]
I woke up this morning not long ago and decided to head to SP to see today’s posts. I noticed I had a fair amount of responses to my post last night. As I was reading them, a couple of users were talking about a topic that made me stop dead in my tracks and literally say ‘wow’. I feel everyone should take a look at this and give me there thoughts, because I really wish I had the answers.
” I’ve noticed one thing…a whole lot of awareness. Too much, I think. And intelligence. And thoughtfulness. A lot of very smart, sad, interesting, hyper-aware people. […]
Definition of Irony: Receiving Invoice from the Ambulance Company after a Failed Suicide
by TChambers
written by TChambers
The only thing more pathetic than a person committing suicide is a person that fails epically at it…
“He knows that you have to laugh at the things that hurt you just to keep yourself in balance, just to keep the world from running you plumb crazy.”
Ken Kesey, One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
Eventually I will get into the back story on why I tried to kill myself, but not today, not up to going through the last 5 years (well really, 45 years) in detail just yet. However, I would like to share my opinion on suicide, […]
Thank you for being a friend, traveled down a road and back again.
Your a pal and a confidant.
I’m not ashamed to say, I hope it will always stay this way!!
My hat is off, won’t you stand up and take a bow.
And if you threw a party and invited everyone you knew.
Well you would see the biggest gift would be from me.
And the card attached would say….
Thank you for being a friend ^.^
“And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depths until the hour of separation.”-Khalil Gibran
Today has been a heart-wrenching day. I woke up knowing it was the 2 month mark of when my little brother took his life. It has been a devastating loss that has shattered my world. He is a part of my soul and always has been and I feel tremendous loss.
And then I received an email this morning from a dear friend known here as Iamzero, stating that he was sorry but that he could not go on any longer and wished me thanks and love. Love […]
Life is always balanced out like a scale. Take this, if I was a billionaire, sure I could buy everything I want. But if I was a billionaire, I wouldn’t be able to walk on the street normally like everyone else. I would also have to worry about my, and my family’s protection. I would have all that I want physically, but it would be a prison emotionally. PS. This is probably what Robin Williams felt. I would rather be average.
I think i reached a point where i know and feel worthless to everyone around me and to myself. whats the point of life anyways? if there is something after death, heck i ve had enough. I would like to take that little voyage.
any ideas how to end this while sleep ?
Im not going, who else are skipping work and college/school because of this tiredness? I dont think I can face people, Im listening to slipknot and wondering about several things, I dont think I can make it, My college doesnt take it seriously everyone skips but they dont have mental illness as the reason, the weather is all suicidal… its dark outside and im in a mood of death
Tonight is the night. Im going to be in heaven. People have really showed me they dont care. So here it is no more bull shit. Im done with everyone. My boyfriend doesn’t act as id he cares no more. So here is to him. I loved yiu more than anything and you didn’t realize it. I didn’t want to break up and I no we didn’t but even if you didn’t care you could have acted like it. I no im not much.and every girl has trust issue. Especially when you give them a reason. I have them but I’ve tried my best to […]
The days get harder to keep going, there’s so much temptation to hold on for the day everyone says it’ll all get better. Maybe I was just meant to be unhappy.
Sitting in my room in the dark. No one notices me. I’m alone. Why not just end this misery? Why not end the pain? Why not just make everyone happy and do it? They all want me to die anyways. Nothing matters anymore. Just death. Because Every time you go to sleep you die and someone else wakes up and takes your place. You are trapped in your own mind. You’re life is a lie. A figment of your imagination. There is nothing but death in this place we are forced to believe is real. For nothing is real but death. So why not?
Okay, so this is in reference to this thread: http://suicideproject.org/2014/08/a-big-hug-to-you-guys-and-a-suggestion/
A lot of people I talked to expressed their willingness to enter such a place, where they could actually forget about the pain, even for a moment. But there was one guy who expressed his reservations over this (and quite valid I’m afraid). You could simply read the comments in the above linked thread and let us know what you think?
By default, any topic in this category would also be visible on the homepage to everyone, irrespective of whether they’re interested to look into this or not. They could feel while everyone else is happy, they’re not. […]
I am very sad and I am very scared but I am trying. I don’t know if this site is helpful to me because everyone here is so sad. Which makes sense. But I’m sad too, and no one understands. I’m living with my boyfriend, and every time I tell him about my thoughts and feelings that scare me he gets upset and quiet. He doesn’t want to talk about it, but I need to. I feel like a time bomb. I feel like one day something will happen that I just can’t handle and that’ll be it. I try to think of my little […]
“I am a poor, wayfaring stranger
Traveling through this world alone
And there’s no sickness, toil or danger
In that bright land to which I go”
Is it time? Is my time to head to that land finally here? I found out tonight that everyone that I thought was my friend thinks I’m a “thot.” I don’t blame them. When I broke up with the guy I was seeing here, that same night I hooked up with someone else. A few nights later, I got drunk and hooked up with someone else. Who wouldn’t think I’m a slut? I guess they’re right. The realization that everyone […]
“i could hear my heart beating. i could hear everyone’s heart. i could hear the human noise we sat there making. none of us moved. not even when the room went dark.”
i don’t know why i’m here. i can’t quite seem to figure out anything anymore. sometimes i get these little fits — my roommate calls them “funks” — in which i am just unhappy. i am upset. i am sad. i am angry, at you, and me, and the trees, at the world. and i don’t know why. i never know why. a girl is supposed to know herself better than anyone else could […]
Gee I wonder what it will be like going back to school after an entire summer of no socialization. I theorize that it’s always been this way. Elders say today’s generation have no respect, and teenagers feel like no one understands them, they feel jaded and unique to the crowd. I wonder if I appear to other people as just another bumbling fuckhead, unaware of the inevitable. I think we all just put on fake smiles and think to ourselves how awful and stupid everyone else is. Friends are essentially accepted societal masochism. The only one I hate more then you is myself.
I am 21 years old. About to drop off college. Lives with a depressed mother. Jobless. Everyone i know really doesn’t care except for my mother. I really don’t know what to do anymore. I can imagine my friends doing fine without me. Maybe getting out of their lives is just what they need to see their own lives and silver linings. I feel like disease and i want to shut myself from the world. I lied about everything. Its my 6th year in college trying to finish up a two year course and i hate it so bad that i feel like im […]
Everyone thinks they know best, exactly what you need and if you disagree it’s your illness. How the fuck do they know? I’ve been “ill” for 10 years and now everyone wants to tell me what I need to do. At the end of the day they can label you anything but you’re the only person who truly knows who you are.