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Explanations

A life of someone living with Depression, Anxiety and Autism

by oliviadee 7/31/2013

written by oliviadee

I can’t exactly say when it started because I don’t know, my life has just been full of bad events snowballing until I finally released it all.

From a very young age I felt alienated from everyone, I felt that nobody was like me.

It didn’t help that I had a young mother, she had me at 14, Â because I felt that she wasn’t approachable. Also, she was often getting into new relationships which involved a lot of men. I found it very hard ad still find it very hard, to connect with new people so this was an issue for the first 5 years of my […]

7/31/2013 7 comments

Tired of it All.

by Ricky-chan 7/26/2013

written by Ricky-chan

It gets better. Suck it up. That’s not something to end your life over. Live goes on.

Fuck you. That’s my summed up answer to that.

I don’t want your correcting, I don’t want your tone policing, or any “it gets better” shit. What I want is for people to understand and respect my choices and emotions and feelings. Stop telling the victim to change, and start actually listening.

Every interaction with any to-be friends becomes a disaster when this comes up. I trigger from it. And they don’t even respect the trigger and go “Sorry, I won’t say that again”. They just call or think me irrational. […]

7/26/2013 2 comments

Dump your girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband before you kill yourself?

by cyanidesofmarch 6/16/2013

written by cyanidesofmarch

If you have a significant other, what is the right thing to do?

As far as relationships go, committing suicide is probably the worst thing you can do. Dumping the other person, whether in an ugly argument or just by packing up and disappearing, is a lot nicer than letting them find your messy corpse and having to deal with the cleanup, funeral, explanations and shame of it all.

I know when my time comes, I’ll end my life mercilessly without much thought. So I should probably prepare. I’ve come to the conclusion that, for me, encouraging someone to love me when I have no interest in […]

6/16/2013 6 comments

I just want to check out

by anon81 6/16/2013

written by anon81

I ruinedmy life with bad choices, poor academic decisions, bad financial decisions, and dishonesty. When I met my husband and gave birth to our beautiful sweet babies I was so sad. Sad because all at once I knew I would never be worthy of this gift I was given because of my past mistakes.

I have devoted 10 years of counseling to my bullshit, with multiple explanations that the attention seeking and erratic behavior from age 18-23 was linked to feeling worthless at home, feeling powerless, bla bla. I don’t blame anyone but myself. The best way I can explain it is that I was crazy […]

6/16/2013 4 comments

by to be or not to be 5/16/2013

written by to be or not to be

i still want to die……..

the realization that i am a burden and a pain is not something easy to live with…. just hope i would die of some natural causes or accidents…. that would save my family from giving explanations

i am tired…. and i still want to die….

5/16/2013 0 comment

Rantings of a crazy person

by LostOlHope 4/7/2013

written by LostOlHope

Like the title says, this is just a rant about my trials and tribulations. I don’t really know if posting my story will be of any use to anyone but I just couldn’t leave this world without anyone knowing about it. I guess someone should know, even if they don’t really know me. But in all honesty I don’t know if anybody really knows the real me. I wear a mask and pretend to be “normal”. So nobody really knows. They’ll probably never find out either because this page doesn’t link to me in any way. But I figured somebody should know my story and […]

4/7/2013 3 comments

I am tired

by bbbaron 2/6/2013

written by bbbaron

I had a long day. It wasn’t horrible, just more of the same… waking up feeling horrible (a little extra bad today), dreading going to work… having to face negativity, Â making mistakes, and feelings of Â incompetence. Â Biting myÂ tongue. Trying to find a balance between politeness, diplomacy, and getting my needs met.

I was very late,Â under prepared, stressed, and embarrassed. No one else seemed to care too much… aside from the usualÂ curiosity and confusion over my poor attitude. I hate looking inept but I am. I am sick, tired, fighting with my head every day… I am so tired. Went to class after work. I couldn’t focus. […]

2/6/2013 13 comments

finally figured out what might be up with me

by idunno 2/3/2013

written by idunno

well besides the hallucination part schizophrenia matches me quite to a T. ii am only 18.and ive always been withdrawn, anxious, paranoid confused extremely shy extremely sensitive (i could go on n on) child. i am convinced i maybe schizophrenic which is actuall quite a relief that i have pinpointed the real reason and explanations for my strange thinking and behvior. i feelmuh better about.myself and am.ready to figure this thing out. 🙂

2/3/2013 3 comments

My best friend left me…

by somatic 1/20/2013

written by somatic

Yesterday I lost my closest friend. He just stopped talking to me, he won’t reply to me, and he usually replies really fast.
I know he hates me, but I don’t understand why.

He happens to be best friends with my worst enemy, and she tweeted indirectly “So glad he has finally seen your true colours”, but the thing is that I haven’t done anything that could make him angry at me.
He really liked me, and I don’t feel the same way about him, and when I told him that, he hated me, but then we sorted it out. He said he cared about me […]

1/20/2013 8 comments

unable to control my anger

by softy 12/21/2012

written by softy

i am unable to control my anger towards my husband. Â i love him so much….. but things are sooo worse that i have to give explanations for every small reason………. i dont want to hurt him but my mouth is not in my control….. not at all………….

what makes me to control my anger?

i love my husband but i cant agry for every thing he asks………….. does that mean- i dont love my hus as much as i love myself? or is it just my ego which is making a far distance between us?

pls help me!

12/21/2012 1 comment

This is MY Life

by itsmytimetogo 1/21/2012

written by itsmytimetogo

a combination of happiness and suffering

and smiling and crying

it is a journey God picked

for us to travel and see

who made it to heaven or hell.

I dont think thats fair though.

how do we know where we end up?

Does it even really matter??

We all die eventually.

We are eternally asleep when

we die.

So, no, it doesnt really matter.

Our souls will go across the universe.

Nothing will be destroyed when i

Die.

I dont even believe many people will remember me at all.

So why does all this matter so much?

There have been things on my mind that i just cannot

stop thinking of.

And i dont think those things have answers or

explanations.

1/21/2012 2 comments

I Don’t Get It…

by Cheerio 1/6/2012

written by Cheerio

I just don’t understand how a depressed person could at first want to get better and eventually doesÂ startÂ to feel better but then wants to be depressed again. Or how a person wants to be in a psychiatric hospital again, for the third time. I’m very curios as to why I feel this way. I can only come up with two explanations but I’m not sure if they make sense. Well one is I think because I only know myself best when I’m depressed and that’s my “comfort” zone. And two is because at hospitals I get attention and I feel […]

1/6/2012 4 comments