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Dear you

by Trix 9/29/2015

written by Trix

Since my last post I wanted to write one for some of the people here. This is mostly for people I’ve crossed paths with in the comments recently, but I appreciate everyone here. We might not have talked, but many people here have become very valuable to me.

I don’t know where to start… over the last couple of days I’ve been feeling several times that my depression has lifted. It’s a very gentle, subtle lift, but this is something that hasn’t happened to me for years. I’ve been much, much better physically the past couple of days (it changes dramatically from one day, hour, minute […]

9/29/2015 18 comments

Here’s a Nice Distraction

by maddie_kay 9/28/2015

written by maddie_kay

Idk. Reading stuff like this seems to make me laugh sometimes. Hopefully it’ll help someone feel more okay today.
http://www.fmylife.com

9/28/2015 3 comments

You are Loved

by jrmeador94 9/27/2015

written by jrmeador94

I’m still getting through my depression. It’s almost a daily battle here at college, but I’m surviving somehow. I heard this music one day with my therapist, and I couldn’t stop crying.

This song has kept me through some of the hard days. I play it when I fall asleep. I wake up better.

You are Loved (Don’t Give up) by Josh Groban

9/27/2015 3 comments

by deerdezz 9/27/2015

written by deerdezz

Ive gotten to the point where i dont really feel bad for a number of things. I still feel in the ‘wrong’ on a social stance because i feel that i might be lacking empathy and well thats my own self analysis. Im entitle to it right? I do feel at times im horrible, a monster it would be better to burn my bridges than to subject those who still care to my ups and downs. But then they’re also choosing to stick around when they know how bad things can get with me.

Things have never felt or seemed so clear before. A lot […]

9/27/2015 2 comments

Afraid to be better

by chelle428 9/26/2015

written by chelle428

I’ve been feeling a bit better lately. I got a few calls for job interviews and even though I don’t have a guaranteed job yet I don’t feel as anxious about it. I just stared on antidepressants and counseling. My counselor is very nice which I’m glad because I was very nervous with her being from the same hospital at the horrible doctor I’ve talked about before. Even though things aren’t perfect and parts of me are still sad I don’t feel as consumed by it lately. But I’m also very fearful, it’s hard feeling for me to explain. I’ve been depressed since I was […]

9/26/2015 4 comments

scared to change

by melodychild 9/25/2015

written by melodychild

I’ve thought a lot about this and I think I’m scared to be happy. I’ve been miserable for so long it’s all I know. I’m scared to change, scared to start doing things and taking chances. Scared to smile. Does anyone else feel this way or at least understand?

9/25/2015 18 comments

by deerdezz 9/23/2015

written by deerdezz

Im back home and instantly i regret not downing half a month’s of sereoquel for the drive back home. Hell even if it didnt kill me im sure it would help satiate the voices that keep bothering me about harmful ideation.

My psych doc wants to increase it but i told him it would hinder me driving, honestly if he was so quick to want to i shouldve just let him. I feel like im doomed for the med life to feel comfortably numb and not unexpectedly lash out due to the wierd messages my brain thinks its receiving. Which is safe for everyone but […]

9/23/2015 2 comments

Am I the only one who’s never loved?

by winterskyout 9/21/2015

written by winterskyout

Being so socially inept, isolated, and awkward, I completely damaged any social skills I had left. My own family doesn’t feel uncomfortable around me and I’ve just shut them out for months now. I can’t make friends even though I try so hard to be funny and nice, but my personality is so unattractive and annoying. It doesn’t help that I have social anxiety too. I’ve even stopped feeling attachment to people, like I can’t feel their emotions and care; it’s all dismissed as either “I don’t care” or they’re just manipulating me. Now I don’t even care about making friends, it’s such a bother; […]

9/21/2015 9 comments

I’m sorry for who I am

by Zephyr 9/20/2015

written by Zephyr

I’m sorry for who I am. I’m sorry that I can’t let anyone close without pushing them away and hurting them, I’m sorry that I can’t make new friends or act like a normal human being for once. I am sorry that this sadness keeps coming back around and hitting me in the face with a baseball bat. I’m sorry that nobody understands or cares too. I’m sorry I’m manipulative.

and finally, I’m sorry that I found this site, for my constant neurosis and self loathing coupled with sadistic, sociopathic-type behavior. What am I supposed to do? You don’t care to understand, […]

9/20/2015 3 comments

Why am I still trying?

by SmallSpeck963 9/20/2015

written by SmallSpeck963

Rock Bottom. It’s more of a home to me now than ever before. I come and go from this place. I never leave it permanently. I end up messing things up all the time anyhow. I don’t feel anything. I feel sick. I feel like the energy is slowly dying in me. I can’t go to anyone anymore. I annoy them with my constant complaints. They have better things to do. Lately, days seem longer and the sleep seems short. I’ve been here before. I know every pain and feeling that comes with being here again. I can never get used to it. I always […]

9/20/2015 1 comment

Help Me!!!

by Makarov 9/20/2015

written by Makarov

About 8 or 9 months ago i knew someone and i really started to like her (She is from another country very far from mine), that really changed me to a better person, but more depressive either, i’m a 18 years guy, ugly, boring and depressive, never had any girlfriend in my life, no one loves me, and i’m not being exaggerated, my mom don’t give shit about me and my father is a drug addicted since he had 13 years old, i grew up alone, without friends and without importance to nobody, so for a long time i dedicated my life to studies, i […]

9/20/2015 11 comments

by deerdezz 9/19/2015

written by deerdezz

Its been a while since i posted. Im still around but i hardly feel as though i am. It wasnt really an attempt to kill myself but for a moment to feel as though i disappeared..and i took a 30 day supply of sereoquel. It was an odd sensation. Body becoming heavy breathing slowing down mind in a different plane, a different high for sure.

Ive been prescribed a higher dosage this time round like 100x the strength actually. With only a week or two’s dent in a month’s supply. Im wondering what kind of high it would give me now. If I’d find […]

9/19/2015 0 comment

Okay, but

by radi0active-f_ckup 9/17/2015

written by radi0active-f_ckup

I keep getting these thoughts to just end it.. I don’t feel like I should be here at all. All of these thoughts are fucking me up & I feel like I’m just drowning. I want them to go away, but they never do. I’ve tried to be happy; I watch JackSepticEye as a source of release, you know? And during those time periods, I feel ..happy, to an extent. But after those, when I’m just sitting alone, I get these thoughts: “Is it even worth it?” “No one actually cares, you know” “You’re just a piece of shit.” “Just try taking the pills one […]

9/17/2015 2 comments

My only short post

by chelle428 9/17/2015

written by chelle428

I know I’m usually a rambler so I’ll keep this brief. After ages of debating, of hoping, of begging, I’ve decided to give up. I don’t feel like there’s anything good about me, I feel as if I’ll never be loved or supported and I’ll never achieve anything that I want. I’ve spent the past 19 years trying to feel happy. Thanks for being kind to me in my brief time here. I intend to shoot myself tomorrow morning, when everyone in my family is gone. I’ll make sure no one, but a cop or medical personnel finds me, so won’t worry about that.

9/17/2015 8 comments

Lost!

by Nobody915 9/17/2015

written by Nobody915

As the name suggests, I was so lost with life so many times. I think someone on Suicide Project chat introduced me to this song. The lyrics pretty much described everything I felt perfectly. I made a piano cover of the song, but feel free to listen to the original version and let me know what you think of the lyrics.

9/17/2015 1 comment

Lyrics I think of when I’m down

by chelle428 9/17/2015

written by chelle428

You’ll find a rooftop to sing from

Or find a hallway to dance

You don’t need an edge to cling from

Your heart it’s there, it’s in your hands

I know it seems like forever

I know it seem like an age

But one day this will be over,

I swear it’s not so far away

-Florence and the Machine

Sorry, that was kind of random, but I think of this when I’m really down and thought maybe they could make someone feel a little better/

9/17/2015 1 comment

Losing my best friend

by chelle428 9/17/2015

written by chelle428

The latest in a series of shitty things that are happening to me is that my best friend has decided that she hates me. I had never shared with her anything about my depression until I learned that she had tried to kill herself and was put into a mental hospital, that was six months ago. Yesterday night me and her had been drinking, I told her I didn’t want to drink because I don’t like how she gets when she’s drunk. She didn’t listen and got very angry and upset. She wanted me to move in with her, but I don’t have the money […]

9/17/2015 3 comments

lost

by 4262B 9/16/2015

written by 4262B

As I lay in bed questioning my own existence, I look threw the window and see nothing but something which was once familiar but now is not. I’ve lost myself. I’ve lost sight of any goals or aspirations I once had, I’ve lost sight of my happiness. I hold back the tears and feel my heart drop to my stomach as I am slowly coming to realization that I don’t belong.

9/16/2015 4 comments

Awake

by brodie3750 9/16/2015

written by brodie3750

being awake doesn’t bother me. I do rather enjoy life. But sleep is just so much better. Something about going to sleep is appealing. If it weren’t for the fact you had to inevitably wake up, it would be the perfect feeling.

Does anyone else feel like every time you wake up to a new day, a little more of you is stripped away? If I could turn down sleep, I probably would. Because every time I wake up, I slowly fall apart more. If sleeping wasn’t a factor then what is left of me would remain in tact. But you can’t stay awake, not forever. […]

9/16/2015 2 comments

the law of attraction

by lonelyguy91 9/16/2015

written by lonelyguy91

well something interesting happened to me today. I still feel depressed for having to reject a situation but I think its worth it in the end 🙁 maybe im the one choosing to be lonely now but im not sure.i don’t think so. just as long as I attracted positive energy, I viewed life differently and got what I asked for, which I later regretted. but once you do become positive, things will turn around. just had to vent I still feel like an idiot. I don’t know I don’t want to be alone but I want to.someone feel this way? or just lonely.? im […]

9/16/2015 1 comment

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