So I vaguely posted about this before, but I have severe cutting scars on my arms. They are healing, but will always be visible and it is very obvious what they are from. Where I live this is not accepted so I have to hide them. I pay to keep my horses at these people’s farm, but it is becoming impossible to hide my scars from them. They are constantly questioning why I bandage my arm and I can’t wear long sleeves because it is over a hundred degrees out everyday and I’m outside all day so I would be way too hot. I think they are beginning to suspect why I bandage my arm. They frequently talk bad about people with mental illness and low self-esteem, and I know they would kick my horses off the property if they found out. I can’t keep them anywhere because I live in the a small community and the only other place I could keep them would charge way more than I could afford. So I would lose my horses and they’re all I love in this world.
I’m needing advice in how to hide my scars or get rid of them. All a dermatologists could do for me is help heal them, but here’s the thing heal scars are white, and huge white scars stand out almost as much as huge red ones. I need them completely gone which I know is impossible. I’ve thought about finding a way to burn over them, but I know to do that I would have to cause myself a lot of pain and it could go badly. Any suggestions on how I should handle this?