I wish I knew how to help everybody and sadness wasn’t a real thing. I wish nobody encouraged suicides I just wish words would actually cure depression and it was easier to get help. I wish suicide wasn’t such a common thing it makes me sad that so many people want to die and feel the same way I do. I’m sorry for everybody going through these feelings but make sure you’ve put in all the possible effort you could to be happy before considering suicide. I don’t see suicide as a selfish thing because I feel like if you feel trapped being alive no […]
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I don’t understand myself or anyone or anything. I want someone to talk to that understands. But I don’t feel that anyone else understands me or anyone or anything either. Maybe I feel this way because I don’t understand. I’m confused
I can’t stand it anymore. Seconds feel like hours, minutes like days. This microwave dinner just wont cook fast enough. What can I do? In need of serious help people.
I don’t know what to do, I’ve been cutting since Fall 2013 and I just love the feeling, I hate being depressed but also love it at the same time. I recently got a boyfriend and he absolutly hates me ever being sad and he won’t let me cut, and if i do he’ll get really mad and will yell at me. I always feel like he wants to say “I hate you” if i do something wrong like cut myself. I really miss the feeling of cutting and I don’t know what to do.
Really suicidal tonight. I’m so sick of life, of hurting, of empty fuckin promises. Tired of loosing people i love. Its like there’s a black hole where my heart is supposed to be, nno matter what i do i feel nothing but emptiness and pain. though this is only my second, I’m thinking this will be my last post.
goodnight
I’ve been dealing with depression since I was 14, and I suppose the reason I didn’t was because of my dog, and my grandparents. I now live with my grandparents, have been for over 3 years now, and I honestly feel stuck. Like I’m not getting anywhere in my life. I feel like I’m honestly a failure, because I don’t really very hard in college, and every relationship I’ve been really serious about has failed.. I understand things are hard when it’s long distance but all I’m asking is for someone to try.. Not give up when the first bump comes along.. and when it […]
I will buy you this book, I don’t have a discount, there is nothing in it for me other than the interesting perspective I think it might offer you.
Its called “This is How” by Augusten Burroughs. The description is:
If you’re fat and fail every diet, if you’re thin but can’t get thin enough, if you lose your job, if your child dies, if you are diagnosed with cancer, if you always end up with exactly the wrong kind of person, if you always end up alone, if you can’t get over the past, if your parents are insane and ruining your life, if you really […]
I don’t know where to start. How do i describe what I’m feeling? Ive never been good at expressing my pain. So I’m just going straight into the middle. Its been two weeks and three days. Two weeks and three days from when i last hanged out with my best friend. We were in the mall eating and having fun while she was with her crush who liked her back. It was such an amazing day and i went home feeling so so happy. The next day I had school and halfway through, thats when i heard the news… She died. BRAIN. DEAD. on the […]
I have only psuedo-interests that center around what other people think I am good at. Everything I think and feel is based on my environment and the people in it. I genuinely don’t think I enjoy anything on an interpersonal level, and the things that do give me joy are evil. My thought patterns are full of hatred, and my perceptions of the people and things around me are filtered through a distorted lense. I feel little social joy. Because of this, I find myself faking everything during communal events. I have to force myself into every social situation, and furthermore, I have to force […]
when he died, I knew there was only one way to see him again….. Death. Every day I see darkness. The rain just pours itself over me. I grab razor after razor until I learn how to feel again. People tell me it will get better. That they’ll be here for me. They say love lasts forever, but even forever expires. And what about the bullies who told me to suck it up? He’s gone and I can’t fix it. He died alone on gravel. And before he died he flew. He flew in impact. It was like a gunshot in the street. And then […]
I am at the point where ever day is torture. The only way to get some sore of peace is through sleep. I wish G-D would help. He has the power to change it all around but yet he does not. Makes me wonder is this what I was meant to feel? Is this what I was created for? The pain is to much. The mental torture is indescribable. How I wish things were different.
“Are you OK?”
I’m sick of hearing this question. No, obviously I’m not OK. But this doesn’t mean that I’m ready to share whatever is killing me with you.
I’m purposeless. I’m lost. I’m continuously crying. I’m craving for some love. I’m craving for someone who just makes me feel home.
But I don’t get this. I only get strange cold stares from people I meet everyday because I have to. I see the pity in their eyes. I can almost feel it filling the room whenever I walk by.
I just want to vanish and recreate a life of mine, a total new one, where no one would […]
I am seriously considering suicide right now; the past week and a half truly. I know most people on here are suicidal but up until recently I’ve just been battling depression and self harm….. but now I could do it at any time….its a constant pro-con battle in my mind. I keep trying to reach out because i feel myself slipping away, but my effort is only met with rejection and bitter disappointment.
I thought I’d feel better when you get back.
When you were here I felt like I could do something right.
And when you left it just left me feeling empty
Now that you’re back, I thought I’d have a purpose again
Trying to help you, because I thought it would help me
Trying to figure out ways to make you happy
Of course it wouldn’t be easy.
Definitely one of the hardest things to do is get better
I thought I’d be able to help you get better, but
Even that I can’t do.
You’ll see what I want to be, when you get back […]
is it selfish that seeing how happy everyone around me is makes me feel even worse i should just be grateful for their well-being but instead it makes feel shit like i have no one to talk to because their happiness makes me feel like they cant possibly understand what im going through and like they wouldnt care if they did
I may be just a kid who is just now getting to know what life is to most people & hasn’t even gotten to my teen hood but Im already dead . Its just my body walking with what is left . I hate everyone i hate showing myself . I feel like im just alone in a dark world cornered but its okay ive been here awhile ive made it home . I’ve been here 7 years I saw how life & the world really was but Im stuck here nothing is gonna make me budge from this corner of mine its where my […]
Minutes feel like hours days feel like years.Can’t get these fleeting thoughts of misery out of my head.I’m nearing the end I can feel it.I climb the 8 floors of an open parking garage multiple times a week trying to gather the courage to toss myself over the edge and end all the torment that I feel inside .I can’t get any peace no matter what I do I end up feeling so alone so sad so empty .I failed there’s nothing else to do nothing else to say.
i typed this up a couple weeks ago but removed within a couple hours removed some content that id rather not be indexed and re-posting
being depressed all the time is not easy lack of sleep completly drained any little glimmer of hope i used to have i cant do it anymore feel like giving up and crawling in a dark hole and waiting for endless sleep to creep up i know ill probaly never accually take my own life but the thought of it does make me feel a little better sometimes i wander how much better everyone who knows me life would be if […]
Do you every feel like no matter what you do it’s mess up and no matter how hard you try things are still a mess? I couldn’t be anymore depressed than I al am
I really feel like I am finally ready to do it