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Just A Poem…

by LetItGo 2/14/2014

written by LetItGo

I claw at the mental door of pain, blocking me from happiness
I scream out, hoping that maybe, just maybe, someone would hear me
I don’t give up, I scream and yell, I yell, “HELP I’M TRAPPED! PLEASE HELP!”
But alas no one can hear me even if someone did they wouldn’t help me nor would they care.

I sob until I drown myself with my own tears and hurt myself with my own pain
I try to pry the door open, to see just a sliver of light, just a sliver of the bright happiness I once knew
I desperately try to find something, or […]

2/14/2014 0 comment

Do you feel suicide is selfish?

by ArtNHeaven 2/14/2014

written by ArtNHeaven

Do you believe suicide is selfish? Do you have a right to kill yourself when there are others living off worse than you?

After all, when one kills his or herself they leave a lot of people in pain, anger and grief. Sometimes there’s even a [gruesome] mess to clean up. Is that fair?

I go back and forth between whether it’s fair or not everyday. EVERY single human being has or is experiencing some great deal of pain. in their life. But what about people who truly feel they’re better off dead than alive?

How do you feel when people try to compare your life to those […]

2/14/2014 12 comments

Why do I even try?

by LetItGo 2/14/2014

written by LetItGo

Why do I even try to befriend people?
Why do I even try my best to feel loved?
Why do I even try to find people who might care for me?
Why do I even try to hope that someday I will find love?
Why do I even try to stop myself from thinking about suicide?

All I do when I befriend people is hurt them.
All I do when I try to feel loved is get hurt.
All I do when I try to find people who might care for me is to feel useless and unwanted.
All I do when I try to hope […]

2/14/2014 2 comments

I hate this day

by xylem 2/14/2014

written by xylem

Lonely ..Lonely.. Lonely

This day makes me feel even more alone.
OHHHH I hate love … and I hate not being in LOVE…

should I buy myself some flowers? sure it’s pathetic, but who says I can’y buy myself flowers?

2/14/2014 3 comments

17

by Sunnygirl1 2/14/2014

written by Sunnygirl1

I’m 17.

Turning 18 in a few months.

I’m 17. A senior in high school. I’ve been around for less than two decades and I feel like I’ve been around forever. Time passes by too slowly, each day is longer than the next.

2/14/2014 2 comments

I feel that the world will be a better place if I was gone forever

by goo4927 2/13/2014

written by goo4927

Every day I wake up to go to school so I can get yelled at by coaches,staff,even students. I feel that if just disappeared, no-one would care because to them, I’m just some random goat they yell at.

2/13/2014 2 comments

Too far gone.

by HateLife69 2/13/2014

written by HateLife69

I’ve made too many stupid mistakes in my 26 years on this earth. There is no way for me to have a normal life any more. I got fired from my job of 8 years and now I cant get hired by any one. My wife works 10 hours a day and I am only working at a shitty temp job 20 hours a week. I feel like im not a man anymore. I just fucked up too many times and theres no way back. There are no second chances. Nothing will ever be the same. I dont feel suicidal yet but in the future […]

2/13/2014 6 comments

For Andrea

by Soldier1861 2/13/2014

written by Soldier1861

I started writing letters to the only people who talk to me. This is what I have for Andrea, a friend who has suffered a lot, and I tried to help, but she was never in CAP with me and disagreed on me joining.

Andrea:

If youâ€™re reading this, then you know. Sorry. Wanted to tell you.

The money I left wonâ€™t be much but it should help you get by. Want you to be happy when you meet the right person. Donâ€™t want you to have to be on your own.

Not sure the right way to say how I feel about you. Think you know already, though. […]

2/13/2014 0 comment

Anger

by sheddingtears 2/13/2014

written by sheddingtears

I don’t know why I’m gettin so mad. It’s not like something to get mad at, it’s the smallest things that make me go off into a loud yelling or scream. I have so much anger and I dont know why.

I get mad at my mom, dad, sister, and especially my friends. I love my friends but I’m starting to hate everything about them. It’s like I want to punch them in the face everyday.

I just feel angry and depressed. So ANGRY…

I feel like the devil is inside of me and taking over my body creating so much hate. Theres just so many things in […]

2/13/2014 2 comments

Oh shit

by whyyyy 2/13/2014

written by whyyyy

I’m still here, you all ever wake up and you feel ok for that one millisecond and then your brain fires up and you just utter the words I’m alive. I may as well tell a little story when I naively tried to overdose on alcohol and pills.

Drug overdose is a very wide spectrum and there is a very good chance that you will not die from them and only cause yourself more pain. I tried drug overdose mixed with a lot of alcohol and my friend walked in on me. I didnâ€™t do a damn thing but humiliate and feel guilt when I had […]

2/13/2014 1 comment

Its Over

by xjamaican 2/12/2014

written by xjamaican

So, basically this is one of my last chances until suicide is my last option. I’ve been thinking about suicide since i was probably 14. I just turned 16 two weeks ago. Â It feels as if, I’m just a waste of matter. I feel like I’m just taking up space. I can’t do anything and I won’t ever be anything. When I’m gone, I won’t leave a mark on anyone’s life. If they were able to survive without knowing me, then they’ll still survive when I’m gone; they’ll only feel grief for about a week. I’m always being pushed down in life, and there isn’t […]

2/12/2014 9 comments

Why won’t it end?

by Deamonborn 2/12/2014

written by Deamonborn

Every day I go threw the same thing, constantly being picked on and being asked things like “Why can’t you be like everyone else?” or “Why can you just be normal?” or “Get over it you have no reason to feel bad.”

But I don’t want to be normal, or like everyone, and I do have reasons to feel bad… Every year I move some where new because of my parents money problems, I am all ways alone and forgotten about, and just wish to die sometimes…

I have tried cutting, but get caught before there is even a mark on me… I have tried using a […]

2/12/2014 7 comments

Nothing is right

by b5544 2/12/2014

written by b5544

A little over a year ago I met the love of my life. We had everything in common, he made me laugh, and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. For a few months, he seemed to be in love with me, too. But after a few months, he just lost interest in me. He stopped wanting to have sex and acted like he was annoyed of me and that I was a chore. We broke up and 2 months later he was dating someone else. The girl he started dating is beautiful, smart, and has lots of friends. They are […]

2/12/2014 5 comments

TEDIUMMM

by plop 2/11/2014

written by plop

I really i’m kind of confused about this. It’s a suicide project, and even when I definitely don’t want to hurt or kill myself, I feel like i’m dying slowly. My disease is tedium, a horrible boredom that I can’t wash away. The worse thing is probably that I can’t explain what I feel, the best expression probably is: I feel like a scab.
I was looking for some help, but the thing is how can somebody help me if even I can’t tell what is going on. It’s probably the nearest thing to “nothing”. “Nothing” is taking away anything from me. So I went […]

2/11/2014 0 comment

Panic is my life….

by lexusb02 2/11/2014

written by lexusb02

I came home to visit my girlfriend today and to get some business done. But now as the day is ending I’m feeling the stress and panic of everything is coming down on me. I’m so upset that I didn’t bring my razor blades I could’ve felt better tonight. I feel out of control without my blades with me I feel like my emotions can’t be managed without them. Ugh. I’m pulling my hair out I’m so damn anxious and on edge!

2/11/2014 2 comments

Emptiness

by Agion 2/11/2014

written by Agion

I really don’t know what to do anymore.

Some call it a phase of life, others just a small crisis.

But I don’t know and I actually dont care.

I feel empty. Nothing excites me. I don’t have goals and no matter how much I search, I just feel that I will be put down.

Everything I do is put down. I got support, but what does that count? They wont be there forever.

I wonder, why was I born? I feel empty. Don’t feel joy actually and just waste my life.

I tried many times to kill myself, stabbing, hanging, drowning and even throw myself infront of a train or […]

2/11/2014 3 comments

by LetItGo 2/11/2014

written by LetItGo

numb

is how i feel

broken

is what i am

pained

is how i am

lonely

is what i feel

LetItGo

is who i am

2/11/2014 2 comments

Just For Fun ^_^

by snowflake 2/11/2014

written by snowflake

Pick the door that looks the most appealing to you!

1 â€“ You are a fun individual that likes to keep things light and airy. You are all about nurturing others and appreciating the simple luxuries in life; such as your fine dishware, favorite candle or eating artisan bread from the local bakery. You most likely have a love for traveling and other cultures. You truly want the best for everyone and love creating a welcoming atmosphere. It is important to remember that if you […]

2/11/2014 13 comments

Day 28

by LetItGo 2/10/2014

written by LetItGo

Hi Guys,

Impeccably tired and I do not feel like writing at all what so ever so..

How are you?

Au Demain

PS: I am doing… *shrugs*

2/10/2014 3 comments

can’t help it

by pillarofsalt 2/10/2014

written by pillarofsalt

I undergo extreme emotional and mental stress at home and I cannot release it without cutting myself. I NEED to cut myself to get a release and feel okay and probably even a little light headed. it’s the only way I can. I cannot talk back to the person causing me the stress and tell how I feel so I just listen quietly waiting for the ordeal to be over so I can be alone and start the cutting! it isn’t the healthiest way to cope but its the only one I have. and the more I realize that statement, the more I think of […]

2/10/2014 2 comments

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