I don’t understand why I feel pain like this. It’s completely unbearable. Two years ago I was diagnosed with severe depression. i’ve spent these last two years in therapy and searching everywhere for something to make me feel better. I’ve tried therapy, ten different anti-depression drugs, hypnosis, acupuncture, acupressure.. the list goes on and on. on top that i’m victim to horrible anxiety attacks that can strike at any moment without warning, i usually get about two or three a day. they make me curl up into a ball and wait to die. my family has abandoned me because i cause everyone around me pain […]

7/17/2013 2 comments

The EX Marine

by D 4/16/2013

written by D

4/16/2013 8 comments

Please… Help… Anyone…

by GummybearRulez 2/5/2013

written by GummybearRulez

Hi, I know I seem a little too young, and how it’s “just a phase” but please listen! I am 11. I have a mood disorder, and I am fighting depression. I am, of course, too young to date, but I also like this guy. Harrison. His nickname is Lake, so I’ll use that. We became friends a few days ago. I like him, and he knows, but every time I ask him out, he says no, and then asks out a different girl. Although, strangley enough, it doesn’t effect our friendship. ; -;. On top of this I see 2 counselers every week. 1, […]

2/5/2013 2 comments

PTSD and depression suck

by wishihadntdonewhatiwastold 11/7/2012

written by wishihadntdonewhatiwastold

My heart is racing,
and my hands are shaking.
Wow that nightmare seemed real,
at least that’s how it made me feel.
I am awake,the fight is over.
The struggle begins.
My first thought of the day,
keep my mind occupied so I don’t think about suicide today.
It’s a lot harder than it sounds,
because I have a lot of skeletons running around.
Why did you do those horrible things,
one of the skeletons likes to sing.
It was my job,I like to say,
but he answers, that excuse is gay!
I know that he is right,
at that time I chose to fight.

11/7/2012 0 comment

Day 6 on Citalopram

by kurea 10/10/2012

written by kurea

It’s a weird feeling. The first few days just felt hectic. Bit sick, but nothing too bad. Woozy more than anything. It seems to have stopped now though.

The side effects seem minimal so far. I can’t stop yawning. For hours after i take it, i yawn constantly. And feel a bit high, like my stomach is floating and i’m kind of doing a space walk. Been zoning in and out alot, not thinking about anything in particular but just staring into space. Other than that and mild sickness, things seem good on that front.

The biggest change is my mood. I seem incapable of negative thought. […]

10/10/2012 6 comments

Trying to stay strong

by FireBreathingFerret 9/4/2012

written by FireBreathingFerret

Hello, my name is Shawna and I’m new here, I just found this website today while looking for some sort of support group. I’ve had been dealing with the effects of depression for around 4 years now, almost 5. Somehow I’ve fought through it that long, but not without having extreme ups and downs, mostly downs. It’s been so long and I’m feeling so tired. I’m a recovering self-harmer, been clean for about 4 months. But I’m having a really really hard time with the urges. I’ve been feeling so sad the past few days, so so sad and angry and just sick and tired […]

9/4/2012 5 comments

made my own bed

by misguided 8/11/2012

written by misguided

I’m really not seeing a reason to continue fighting my debilitating depression and anxiety. I have never had a reprieve in my 28 years, despite various medications, spiritual journeys, and self-help literature.

I have always held myself to a very high standard and have been relentless with trying to reach success from a very early age. I survived an abusive childhood with an alcoholic father. Â I thought that getting married, getting a Masters degree, and starting my career would bring me the happiness I so desperately want and the outside validation to prove that I am a good person.

I loved my husband with all of my […]

8/11/2012 6 comments

My First Time

by Melissa Mendoza 6/17/2012

written by Melissa Mendoza

I Cut For The First Time, All My Life I Had Promissed My Self I Wasnt Going To Go Down That Path But Unfortunately I Failed MySelf, It Felt Like An Escape, Like Something I Can Run To When i Cant Take Things Anymore,To Me Thats The Only Thing That Listen To Me When I Need SomeOne.15 Years Ive Been Fighting My “Depression” And Tonight It WON

6/17/2012 6 comments

I feel nothing…

by FairysHuff 6/8/2012

written by FairysHuff

32 years my body will have been alive this summer 2012. Yet I am within this body, this machine of meat and bone and I feel nothing. I’ve always been like this. Flitting between crushing boredom and suicidal depression. I have never enjoyed anything and have never felt happy. I am so tired of struggling day by day. I gave up faking the normal attitude people and society expect from us years ago. I couldn’t do it anymore. It was after this that I was finally diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome. Looking back now it all fits into place. But this is a suicide help board […]

6/8/2012 1 comment

I am Envious of the River

by Unique 4/6/2012

written by Unique

I am Envious of the River

The River is free

I am trapped

The River knows it purpose

I am lost

The River is full of Life

I am Dead Inside

The River is eternal

I am Mortal

The River wants Nothing

I cant be satisfied

The River Feels Nothing

I feel only Pain

The River See’s Nothing

I see only sadness

I wonder if the River is envious of me

I wrote this back in my very dark days, I just i would share it, I am fighting my depression everyday and am happy again.

It can seem pretty bleak sometimes, But remember to win you have to fight.

So never Give up SP brothers and sisters

4/6/2012 0 comment

every story has an ending

by LivingDeadMan 3/22/2009

written by LivingDeadMan

I am as empty as I am alone.15 years of fighting my impulses and depression has left me little more than a shell.I’ve been waiting for life to show me that it’s worth living,but I think I’ve lost the point somewhere along the way.I feel like I’m drowning.I don’t talk to anyone about the way I feel,and noone seems to care.I’ve done and been through so much,but it’s never the good stuff that stays with me.It’s the pain and heartbreak that haunts me.My pain has far outweighed my ability to cope and it seems like things get worse every year.I destroy everything I touch and […]

3/22/2009 3 comments